The Love in my Heart
Our beautiful Gloriajon was curious to know what name I had chosen for the dynasty which I wish to birth.
Before the name is revealed...
As my heart has a mind of its own, for the longest time I had thought that there must be something wrong w/ me for the fact that my heart refuses to love just anybody when it comes to intimate love. You see, I love everybody as a divine brother & sister, but when it comes to personal love, my heart is locked & always has been.
What's even more strange, is that I literally suffocate at the thought of someone wanting to potentially love me or get to know me. Ironically, my imagination is on continuous play & stories are unfolding in my mind constantly. If its not an artistic vision, then its legendary historic love & most of the time the longing is for a king.
And so, in my personal life I prefer to be alone & my journey thus far has been not so much w/ people but simply myself & divine love. The choice was natural, if I can't have the king of hearts then I do not wish for anybody else.
As reality drifted further into consciousness & wisdom began to mature, I had an epiphany where answers were easier to discern. It wasn't a king who the heart was longing for, although the word "king" would be the most suitable choice. It was rather a hunger for Oneness, similar to when we are completed souls forever dancing along w/ Hudojon who created us as wholesome beings who only know perfect love.
Of course! As an absolute being full of love, coming into human form where conditions & personal agendas are always on the forefront, a soul who is used to perfect love gets a bit lost & confused. But the most difficult part is to feed this soul w/ ordinary love.
As far as choosing the proper name for a dynasty, I decided to go w/ the truth where the name is precisely the story of the soul...
Where Hudojon is the only king who holds the perfect key to the heart. In addition, God is the ultimate ZARR & I am forever his devoted princess, therefore, I am the "MAJESTY of ZARR" & I am here to fulfill my king's dream.
In Oneness & Love
Love...
Gosh...so many ways to refer to love with words. Thank you NAZIRA for your insights and reflections. You speak about love in personal-intimate relationships and then love in all other relationships. I have puzzled with this one for a long time. (I have, BTW, been in several intimate relationships over my lifetime so far) I think I am through with, for the most part, trying to figure it all out...and with this accept Love wherever it appears. I so dearly love everyone on this earth and in other realms...and so dearly love my wife Marie. A rose is a rose is a rose. Love is Love is Love. The less I try to figure love out...the more Love appears to reveal itself. The more I anticapate and rejoice in and see this Love in the hearts of all...the more Love appears to reveal itself. I love love so much. I refuse to be beguiled by the masks and costumes that we all wear. I go more and more to the Heart of it. I was once so fooled. Now I have found...or maybe Love has found me. And maybe because, me doesn't have quite the allure and magnitism it once held. And of course, when I say love, I say and mean God. Loving you, Jim.
Welcome NAZIRA of ZARR. On
Welcome NAZIRA of ZARR.
On the stage of life "love profane" has always been, in my eyes, an act quite poorly played. A tedious one, mostly a shallow parody that made me run away. Like a fake gem, it cannot meet my taste.
Oh, beloved Nazirajon, could
Oh, beloved Nazirajon, could what you have written be any more beautiful than it is? This is so wonderful and high. You are an amazing 21-year old! And so you have honored solitude and are ahead of your years spiritually and career-wise as well. You know what you want to accomplish, not only for yourself, but to brighten the world and serve God.
To know more of Nazira's story and see photos, please see the blog entry Arabian Nights in the Godwriting blog.
http://www.godwriting.org/godwriting/the-arabian-nights-tajikistan.htm
I am going to ask Kirt to please move this whole thread out of the archived Heaven comments so it will be easier to find. Please don't be alarmed if you see your beautiful words and all the comments moved to a more prominent place!
And here they are. Thanks, dear Kirt.
Thank you friends
Thank you so much my dear heavenly family for making me feel welcomed & for sharing your beautiful insights. It is truly a blessing to be One w/ all of you. I appreciate & love you very much. In the words of our dear soul-brother:
"You are the Essence of the Essence, the intoxication of Love.
I long to sing your praises but stand mute with the agony of wishing in my heart. "
-Mevlana Rumi