Two excerpted letters for Leslie:

Tina to Leslie:

Dear "Leslie", I have spent most of my life in severe emotional pain, and since I was ten, I have had suicidal thoughts consistently for all but about ten years since then. I am now fifty.

I thought for all those years that my biggest prayer and spiritual goal was simply to not want to be dead.

I don't know what the nature of your illness is. But you might find solace in a support group if there is one. It helped me, especially when spirituality is woven into the sharing.

I have learned from the Abraham tapes that we can choose death much more serenely than how most of us now do it with illness or accident or suicide. We can just have a blissful union with non-physical as a matter of choice, as opposed to a tormented desire to leave what is not wanted in the physical. This is done by focusing on what is wanted and desired, not focusing on the undesirable and pushing away from that aspect. This is a powerful shift.

In many cases, by focusing on Heaven and allowing more and more awareness of that, rather than the hell on earth, the energy comes so strongly through the person that they bring it to their earthly experience and decide they don't want to leave quite yet after all.

So, I'll pray for you. Will you pray for me?

I'm so grateful that you reached out to us in HEAVENletters, and that we have the chance to witness your hope and courage. You are not alone, and we are all better for your honesty and sharing.

Karen to Leslie:

Hi there. I too am a Heaven reader, and it did say we can forward some thoughts to Gloria and she will forward them to you.

Well, Leslie, I do understand your deep dilemma so very much. At a very young age, Leslie, I dreamed of dying. All the time as a matter of fact. And then one day, after some attempts, I did have a wonderful shift in my life, Leslie. It was really God. And it was God who came to Me to say things to me. I still get in shock to think that God would talk to me! Hahahah, but it is true! And now I talk to God all the time — non-stop, to tell you the truth. As a matter of fact, I now think God just heals me so I'll stop talking so much! Hahahahahha! Just teasing.

I wanted to end my life thinking that that I could finally be with God. That is all I dreamed of, to be with God. My life was hell around me when I was a child.

But the most wonderful shift took place for me, Leslie. I was in the Presence of God. I had the eye-opening effect that I was always with God. All along. Plus, I was told things, and then I realized all I had to do was ask instead of trying to end my own life. All I really wanted was peace! I wanted Love! Harmony! What I really wanted was to feel pure love all the time, just like in the spirit world, and have no pain. 'Cause, yes, it does hurt real bad.

I had all the pains too, my love. And, yes, it can push you so hard that it is easy to think the way out is to leave. But staying and asking for the love and faith from the Creator is all it really takes to make it easy and flowing. I am living proof, of course, because I have had God heal me so many many times for many things.

So you see I was told by God: "You now work for Me, Karen." This is what I was to do and be for God. I felt my purpose is this truth, to always be happy and have fun and never worry because God will provide. And throughout my very difficult life as a child, Leslie, the beatings, the hate that my family had for me, all the other things that come with suffering! And God did shield me from others. But I had to ask!

God always protected me, never left my side, even sent me angels to talk to me and guide me.

To this day, Leslie, I am so grateful for the Lord. I am not a Bible-thumper or anything like that; I am a simple loving woman for all vibrations of life. And most important, what God did teach me is that I too can love myself, that it is alright to love myself. This is the same as loving God since God created me too.

So I say to you this: I ask of you to please look up in the Heavens. Ask God to please bring peace into your life and to yourself. Life is wonderful and beautiful. You are here to help others see this too, just like you have moved many Heavenreaders today by remembering that life is precious and we all need love.

Love is magic. Ask God for love.

I love you, Leslie! I love you soooo much that I cried when I first read Heaven Tuesday. You made me remember that feeling of suffering. But I am here to tell you this: I love you, and please accept my love. Accept God's love. Leslie, if you ever want to email me — and we can giggle together or share or just say hi — that is fine with me. And, Leslie, I know you are beautiful, because I can feel and sense you.

Thank you for sharing love with us all here at Heaven because we are into love here. And getting out of all pain. Hey, maybe this Heaven should be called Painbusters. Hahahahhahaha!

Okay, Leslie. Now look up in the sky, in the ceiling. Now know that you are looking to God. You can do it. Come on. Okay, now ask God who you are to God.

Ask God to teach you how to ask God for love.

Ask God to teach you how to surrender all this yukky pain.

By the way it does help God when you surrender more, because then the pain gets out fast! I swear, I am living proof! Well, anyways, ask God everything…tell God everything. God is my best friend. God can hear!

Thank you for reading this, Leslie, and thank you for sharing with all of us out there in this big and small world.

I love you! And I love me and God too!

Ok, love you, Leslie…xoxoxoxoxoxo

Gloria to Heavenreaders:

For those of you who don't know, Karen is an incredible healer who guides people to God. She is a mainstay of HEAVEN.

Rudy to Gloria in response to his question about being saved:

beautiful beautiful beautiful…i want a close personal re with God the void, impersonal and the personal! He great! Thanks. May well subscribe this year! Thanks i wasn't sure how it worked and all and that.

G, thanks lot and happy 20000000!

bye rudy

Gloria to Rudy:

Dear Rudy, come to next Ask God Workshop Sunday, Jan 23 and Jan 30, and have your own close personal relationship with God. It's God's workshop, not mine. I just hold it at my house. God comes, you're here, God gets your attention, and you discover the relationship that has been yours and God's all along. Something like that, Rudy.

And what do you mean: you may well subscribe. Why don't you just subscribe and get on with it!

Love, G.

Gloria to God:

Dear God, what I really don't understand is when someone is a strong Heavenreader, loves it, benefits, and then doesn't tell other people about it. One Heavenreader I am in frequent contact with recently told me how she was raving about You to her friend and told her how wonderful You are and the joy You give, but never said a word about Heavenletters. This person is genuinely grateful for Heavenletters. I don't know anyone who has expressed so much appreciation so often and attributed so much of her growth to it. Why, then, would this person keep Heavenletters secret? To me, it's like one of those people who hand out a recipe but keep one ingredient secret.

Now I know you have told me that You are in charge of circulation, and that it's not my concern. And I know this person can do or not do whatever she wants, and it's not my business. And when she mentioned this to me, I kept quiet, but now I feel like Margaret and that I should have said, "Hey, why didn't you say something about Heavenletters?"

I know there are many strong Heavenreaders who have brought many great new readers to Heaven without hesitation, and I do want to express my enormous appreciation and gratitude to them for their dedication and all the fine readers they have brought. And I know there are also fine Heavenreaders who just keep to themselves about it, and I'm not upset about it.

But this person is almost daily telling me how much she loves HEAVEN, and I guess I don't know how to connect that openness with me and her closedness to others.

And why does this bother me so much?

God:

It is hard for My children to accept others' choices when they differ from their own. You have a judgment here, Gloria. To you it's okay for someone who doesn't tell you all the time how wonderful HEAVEN is to keep quiet about it, but it is not okay for someone to keep quiet about it when they don't keep quiet about it to you.

When was it up to you to make the rules, dear one?

Discrepancy between words and actions confuses you. Something doesn't add up. Confusion always makes you uncomfortable. Clear thinking does not.

Do you also feel that you are party to this situation?

Gloria:

Well, yes, now that You mention it.

God:

That is what really bothers you. Do you begin to see how this perturbance is between you and yourself alone?

You listen to the applause to My words from your friend. You soak it up. What is your need to hear HEAVEN praised so much?

Gloria:

My ego, God?

God:

This friend teaches you much.

Gloria:

If my ego were not in this, I would not have listened so much? Maybe if she didn't have me to praise HEAVEN to so much, she would find other people to share it with?

God:

The question, the irritation, never was from what your friend did or didn't say or do. The irritation is with what you do or don't. Your judgment was truly a judgment of yourself. The ego judges the ego, and doesn't let itself know what is going on.

Gloria, dear, I have given you a mission. Use your time well.

Gloria:

I know You have just taught me something important. Only my ego diverts me from fulfilling Your Will?

God:

What else ever could?

Gloria:

Thank You, dear God. I feel better.

Diane to Gloria:

Holiday Greetings, Gloria! We are on our way to Indianapolis to visit with my mother and brother and his family. Just wanted to thank you for Heavenletters' presence (presents) in my life. The crystal renewal room has been with me for days.

God to Diane:

Yes, you have been with the white crystal renewal room for days.

Gloria to God:

Dear God, someone asked me what to do with the white crystal renewal room, like what are they supposed to do with it? Go there? How?

God:

That particular passage at that particular time was meant for Diane. It may also be meant for you, your friend, and everyone who is drawn to it. Read the passage. If it gives you joy, read it again. You don't have to do much. Let the white renewal room wash over you. You can experience it. It may become your experience. There is nothing to force; there is nothing that has to be.

This could be a good place to visit or invite before the New Year and Millennium.