i just wanted to share something Dad (GOD) gave me a few months back.

I have been very acqaunted with lonliness all my life. Even as a child. Even when married.
And one morning Dad gave me an understanding that things will change. That one day, i dont know when or how long, We will Be surrounded by Him. I will not be me to everyone around me like i am now. I will be Dad to everyone and everyone will be Dad back to me.

I dont mean i (we) will be possessed by Dad or lose ourselves or our identity in the ways we may fear.
I have experienced this and we are like we are now but our nature is different, totally different. Love is as natural as breathing, there is no lonliness even if you are in the middle of the universe sitting out in space. There is no striving nor effort.
Just imagine if everyone you know now, were your loving God looking back at you. (this is assuming you have experienced His love and see Him as The ONE who truly loves you as you are now.) and You and Dad were "Dad" looking back at them. I mean as natural as when you and your friend, or you and your natural dad or mom, or you and your husband met someone else. You were together, you didnt lose your identity, but you were not the same person either that you are when you see yourself alone.
i want to add one other thing, if i may.
i take alot of notes everyday. i'm great at insights and new ideas but i dont review my notes very often and so you can see how this can be driving in the opposite direction. lol.
Anyway, one day i was writing to myself and being a little over dramatic with myself as many of us do, and i wrote, "dont despise your past notes!" and then i found myself writing above that sentence something i believe was from Dad, it read, " Is it the past? or the NOW waiting to happen."
Lonliness may be "fact" now. But a fact is just a specific point in time and space.
for me personally, when i get into these spots, i try to remember what i would like to see that i did now in my circumstance that i'm in, when i am on my death bed looking back. It gives me clarity.
Dad in these Heaven letters has said that being loved is not the issue as much as the need that we feel to love.
On our death bed ( if we should even die at all) are we really going to be thinking about how we were or were not loved? or will we be thinking about whether we loved or not?

Beloved Carol/Mirror,

I remember you very well! So happy to hear from you again.

Jochen is on vacation, I believe, or he would give us a list of Heavenletters about how to deal with struggle.

Oh, when we are going through things, we are certainly going through them, and what can I say that you don't already know. It does no good to say that you are so lucky to have grandchildren and so on.

Of course, I know you will get through all this with flying colors! Keep us posted, okay?

Love and blessings,

Gloria

Dear Mirror,

on impulse, I clicked your name and read your earlier posts starting, it seems, in September 2006. I haven't read every single word but found myself riveted. What I sense, apart from the details of your life that you tell, is that it's an extraodinarily rich and fruitful life, a blessed life which I feel privileged to hear about. Thank you.

You write: "I ask that the reasons for this show themselves more clearly..." There's your solution. Ask. Do you expect to hear an answer? Do you fear to get no answer? It doesn't matter, you don't have to believe anything. Only ask and then very gently desire to be given the answer. No demands, no resignation, simply "leaning" (as God is apt to say) into your deep desire for answers.

It works for me, and I cannot tell you how lost I have felt for most of the 63 years of my life and still do at times. It's getting better, there is no mistaking it. First I found the love of my life a few years ago and shortly after that I found Heavenletters. Yes, it's getting better now. One day, you don't know how or why, the bumpy part of the ride ends. Well, you do know why, of course. You had the deep desire all your life, and the day finally arrived when you started believing in your desire. You had to.

One thing that helps me a lot is to stop thinking, to stop following thoughts that make me feel bad. I have been hearing about this for many years, I have practiced it following various methods (meditation etc.) for many years. It never worked because I did not really believe that I had a say in what I think or don't think. God in Heavenletters finally opened it for me, and now I'm becoming able more and more to look up and feel a firm "Stop!" deep inside. When it works, it feels like switching off the tv, only much much better. Suddenly blank. Suddenly nothing. It's the most extraordinary, relieving, elating thing I have ever experienced – with the possible exception of standing right in the center of the core shadow of the total solar eclipse in 2000 in Germany on a green hill surrounded by huge flaming towers of clouds and unimaginable silence.

You seem to inspire me, Carol. But Gloria is right, my wife and I will be on our way to Lago Maggiore in a few hours and there are still some preparations. Hope to read more more from you when I'm back.

Dearest Mirror-Carol,
we cannot understand why with our "human brain" . All efforts are pointless and drain from us a lot of energy. But be sure that there is great meaning in what happens to you and to everyone on Earth. What if we really trusted to a Great and Loving Intelligence planning everything for the greatest good of all. What if we followed the River of Life without questioning any more or even trying to understand what is beyond our understanding. May I remember you that you are a strong, self sufficient Being, with the power of giving to yourself what you want? Do not ask for help, but help yourself. You are not in need, not weak, not alone. Just rest your mind. We all have nothing to lose to let go, "Fear not".
The God of Heavenletters would say to you to wrap all your worries, bad feelings and heavy thoughts and put all in His hands, He would toss them in the air and hundred of butterflies would fly away...you are free!

Dear Carol,

I don’t really have much to offer beyond the wonderful ideas and insights from Daniel, Gloria, Jochen and Emilia. What I do offer is a personal story that I think at least partially illustrates these messages.

I was severely injured in Vietnam in the early 1970’s. I vaguely remember the flight back to the United States aboard a medical evacuation plane, strapped to a gurney. Then, about a month after arriving at the hospital here in the states, things were looking bad, it was the worst experience of my life. I was hurting in many ways, both mentally and physically. I hadn’t sleep for days on end due to bizarre and terrifying nightmares. I could barely walk and when I looked at myself in a mirror I looked like a zombie out of a cheap horror film. A brain injury caused me to have a total lack of coordination and very little endurance. I seemed to be getting worse rather than better. My memory was shot and I didn’t have the ability to concentrate long enough to sit through a 30 minute tv show.

At about this time my treating doctor told me I would never be able to hold a job again; he said I would probably be institutionalized the rest of my life. He said: “You may as well face this truth now. It will be easier for you.”

I had hit bottom, I was in complete despair. I was exhausted and saw things only getting worse. I couldn’t live like this anymore. One night I prayed to Jesus to take my life. I asked him to let my finally get to sleep and to end my life as I slept. I told him it was all in his hands and I would accept his decision

I did fall asleep after this and awoke about six hours later. It was my first real sleep since leaving Vietnam in a semi-coma. I felt an ever so slight feeling of hope. This was new. I began to notice little things I could do to help myself and I started making decisions from impulses that I seemed to receive from deep within my mind. Instead of just accepting my doctor’s prognosis I began to say: “No!” And then: “Heck no!” This was not going to be me. That was the start of a long road to recovery (years, in fact), but my recovery was never again in doubt. Now it is full and complete.

What did I learn back then that may be helpful? Do not accept the limitations the world is quick to put on you and label you with. These limitations only limit you if you believe in them and accept them. Your mind is powerful, but only if you understand that it is.

I also learned the power of complete surrender to the Source of all real power. I see now that as I was struggling on my own to recover what I thought was my way, it was not my way at all, it was actually just the way the world told me it had to be done. Healing only began for me when I surrendered to a power beyond me and discovered that I had an intimate connection to that power.

I now understand that God is the source of healing and He always wills healing for us. Always. We just need to give up our feeling of responsibility for the world and accept His healing in our lives. This intention will develop the faith in us that all is truly working out for the best. We then learn to look beyond the “bad” to see the “good,” and to trust that we are loved and cared for by every particle of the universe.

Please keep in touch, Carol, we all wish you the best…..Chuck