Introducing myslef and talking about grief..............
Hi, My name is Carol but I like to have my username as Mirror.
I have spoken to Gloria a few times and she has tried to help me through my grief.
I had to say goodbye to my Partner/Husband, David in November 2004 physically and I am very lost without his company.
I had worked hard upon myself and I am happy for him that he is now healthy again and happy and I am sure a shining light. He was physically on earth here a most wonderful honourable person and I loved and still love him so so deeply.
I was wondering if there are others who are in my situation who wish to talk.
I am 51 nearly 52 year old in this life, live in Australia and although David and I were not together for that long in relationship/marriage standards (and we were not officially married although both considered us to be so), we shared so much together and were best friends.
We met in January, 1999 online and then physically in April, 2001 after speaking every day and then he came to Australia from USA to live with me in July, 2001 (although that was already decided before we met physically for him to do that).
We went through turmoil and had lots of 'baggage' from both of us from the past but we always respected each other and love always won through.
I miss him with all my body and soul and with each passing day I feel that I am closer to becoming with him again. I know that the Astral Plane of the spiritual world is right with us and that it is just another dimension and that there is no time there and that our love will never die as all love does not, but I am human and find it all so strange and unsure.
David was the best thing to ever happen to me (even though I had a great childhood and have two beautiful lovely daughters and two grand children and love them dearly).............I am blessed to have experienced such a relationship and a love and I am so grateful to David and to any or all guardian angels or guides or god who brought us together.
I am totally lost and bewildered and lack motivation to do much of anything in this strange life though. I work and struggle on but it is a struggle and the sorrow eats away at my heart.
I know that I need to release the pain and in so doing, will possibly help
David to move on and myself to accept but nothing seems right without him by my side as my best dearest friend.
Anyhow, that is my story.
Love Carol (Mirror)