love is an energy field
I'd like to make a comment about this letter. The letter confirms my experience about love. I had asked Gd for a long time to show me love so I could really understand it. One day while in a deep repose after meditation, I was listening to the sounds of the Vedic sutras. I became engulfed in the sounds and "understood" integrally(physically), that these pure emanations are love in sound-form- G-d's emanations are Love manifest as the created world. We are them and are being bathed in It continuously, like light. We can be "ignorant" of the Love emanations while our minds are distracted in thoughts, but we can not physically escape Love. "Trying" to love, or making a decision to "be a loving person" is OK, but ultimately unnecessary. To be ourselves at the deepest level, the unified field, is Love. Like light- Love is a physical property of the Universe- actually The Universe.
So being here in Israel- I feel there is so much work to be done- really just by me.
Once, when I was in my 20's, I was a ("nice Jewish") waitress in a German restaurant. I had been told that the "head" of the California nazi party came occasionally for lunch. I looked forward to this visit, but couldn't articulate why. Finally one day he came and I asked to wait on his table. Later, I realized that I simply wanted to have a few moments to exchange a gaze- an energy- with him. This did happen, sort of a pause where we each acknowledged the other, without a judgement, opinion, or a feeling, or a thought, just present together, fully conscious and open to the other. I saw that in that empty-space 'moment' all the possibilities were present: fear, anxiety, hate, curiousity, liking, etc. Here's a guy like any other guy- eats, sleeps, needs, etc. Before the thoughts, needs, desires, etc. there's just the empty-open-space of all possibilites. I must say I felt the inkling- some little drop- of nurturance there. I had a feeling like I was on the "edge" of my self, but I'm not sure what that means.
I still wonder about this little encounter. I wonder if the nazi president remembers it also.