No Longer Ride the Dragon
Whenever you are angry, you can know you have an axe to grind. Regardless of what you see as the inciting event that lit the fire of anger within you, you have been carrying around some grudge with the universe. Just the way your love can always be ignited, so you have a vein of resentment within you. You may accrue your exploding anger onto many things, yet a spark lit the dynamite you had stored there. Do you understand? You are responsible for your anger. You own it. It is all yours.
Would that explosions of your anger would leave less and less anger available each time, yet, the way it is, the same amount is left, perhaps even more, because once again you feel the injustice of not being heard. No matter how justified and logical the cause of your anger, the supposed cause only set off the embers already burning.
This volcano of anger within you, whether dormant or active, curtails your joy. The anger is there. Submerged, buried under volcanic ash, no matter, it is there.
And so you ask, "God, how can I get rid of my anger altogether? You are right. Sometimes I have no idea it's there, and then someone lights a match, and my anger flares up. God, I have a dragon of anger within me, and I don't know what to do about it. How do I remove it? And if I cannot remove it, how do I get this dragon to settle down? I understand what You say that I am the receptacle of my own anger. I understand You to say that I don't have to have it. I don't have to let anger consume me. I also understand You to say that I am really love. Help me, please, God, to remove my anger, and will You remove anger from all the Earth? I know anger is not worthy. I know anger does not benefit anyone. I do not seem to be capable of removing my anger, and I don't know how to abide with it. I am at a loss to know what to do. Help me to have love reign. Help me to abolish anger from my heart. Help me to sweep up even the ashes of anger that make my heart heavy."
Beloveds, somewhere in your mind, you must think that anger serves you. You must think that anger is your right, that you have earned it. You must think that you have to defend yourself, perhaps your rightness. You may think you have to protect your name. Or perhaps you have to unleash your anger on someone or something else so that all your anger is not against yourself.
Once you were a helpless child. You expressed your recognition of helplessness in tears and then in fighting back the tears and hitting out, even if the hitting out was pounding on your pillow or banging your own head against the wall. All anger is pounding your own head against the wall.
Recognize that you are no longer helpless. You are no longer helpless. You are no longer helpless, and no longer need you be at the beck and call of anger. You can ignore that dragon of anger. The dragon will tell you that you have every right to it. Now you know you have no right to anger at all. You have the right to love. You have no right to be caught up in anger.
The dragon of anger does not have to carry you in its arms and shoot out its flames through your mouth. Admit to Me right now that you do not need anger to uphold you. Admit that you do not have to vote for anger. Anger isn't really a dragon. It is a little powerless child, and no more than that. Stop riding on that dragon. Ride on a horsie instead. Give yourself solace instead of anger. Burn that dragon, and do not feed him again.
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