know in the now
i am a necessay particle of the ONE

unity in diversity

the fractal
that has all parts inside

Von fractalev

love/laugh light and JOY and FUN - Confidence/ Trust and TRUTH
VerroniKA

Beloved, what prompts you to put yourself down? I have just said that you are a child of Mine. You are a divine child of Mine. Why would you say, "No, God, I'm not divine." Why would you insist that you are not divine? Why would you deign to take away the validity of what I say?

Indeed, indeed, why? If God insists it's time you accept what I say at full value, full value, it seems likely I will not get away much longer with shrugging my shoulders or throwing up my hands. Why, why why. Aren't we taught not to ask why? Will knowing why be of any help?

Here's a because:

There is a habit of many of My children to recriminate themselves again and again, as if self-recrimination were some kind of vitamin you take or an insurance policy. You recriminate yourself and perhaps feel you are protected from you-know-not-what. Perhaps from some kind of accusation, as if you choose to make yourself feel bad before someone else might. Perhaps you cut yourself down so perhaps you appear modest rather than immodest, as if it were immodest to feel affection for yourself and be pain-free.

Has a state of misgiving become your badge? Do you send yourself the recurrent caution: "You could have done better today. You should have done better." Have you perhaps made a habit of feeling bad about yourself rather than feeling good? Are you perhaps so accustomed to feeling inadequate that self-recrimination has become a way of life?

Surely this is not your destiny to feel bad about yourself. Did someone once continually make you feel so bad that you have taken over their role and kept up the tradition of remorse single-handedly? Is "not-so-good-could-have-been-better" the banner you must wave in front of yourself?

Perhaps you think that is pleasing to someone. Or do you do it for your own misery?
http://www.heavenletters.org/this-is-not-your-destiny.html

Is that it? I recognize this as part of my story, but what do I really know when I know this? What can I do with it to become able to accept what God says at full value?

Today's Heavenletter suggests another "bacause" to me: To know my divinity, will I have to Erase this crust, to renounce this humaneness? God has often said no, but do I believe Him? I don't. And I myself have often thought I would like to be rid of this Humanness, but isn't that yet another self-deception? It is. Despite what God has said so many times, I seem to be afraid of divinity turning out to be.... drab and bland and boring. Take all the juiciness out of life, and you have divinity. Take away pain and lack and longing, and you have killed the aliveness of life, and what can you do with such an old rag but throw it away?

Perhaps there are more becauses that could be mentioned. Love for instance. Is the Divine really loving? I don't know. When I don't feel God's love (or don't know I feel it or don't know I do know I feel it...), how can I talk myself into believing it's there? And am I sure I really want it? Strangely, and chillingly, I hesitate. Some vague threat there. Is that ego? Of course it is. But what does that mean, and what do you do with that sort of information?

All the questions and self-suspicions seem to be leading up to a blank space of just white noise. They are not really helpful, not for me. Dear God, are You sure they should be asked, all these "whys"? Okay, the only way to get rid of them may be to ask them and find not a single lastingly convincing answer, but then what? What is this strange reluctance to simply follow You which was given the name ego as if that could explain anything.

I'm finding that the only way through or past or around this reluctance is in wiping the slate clean again and again and again. Really clean. Contrary to what I thought, there never was anything important on it anyway. Just doodles. How I long to be quiet enough to hear, to be new, to be innocent.

a thin crust is my preferred
baked just right
I love it, not deferred
pumpkin tonight

Ego, you are very funny,
trying to get hold of this.
Ego, I do let you go,
the Truth is that word bliss.

Ego, you may choose to join,
to become Yourself again.
Divinity, you can't purloin -
pointless stealing pain.

There is no pain beneath the crust,
the filling, the crust - the pie;
believing God instead of must,
I Am One, am I.

3 Heavenletter Haiku for you

Hello Friends,

God said and so what
No matter what you think of
I say I love you

God said so be it
I modeled you after Me
All for Heaven's sake

God said yes you are
You are a Dream Pie of Mine
My Divinity

Love, Light and Aloha!