You Are an Heir to a Fortune
What does it mean that you and I are One? In terms of human life, it is like this:
You are an heir to a fortune. The fortune of your Father is all yours, only you don't quite have access to it. You have the same name as your Father, and the account is yours. It belongs to you. And yet you don't quite have it in your full possession.
Nevertheless, it is good for you to have an inkling of what your inheritance is. It is very good for you to know that all your Father is, you are. It is very good for you to know that all your Father has is yours. In one respect, you are totally your Father. In another respect, you have not yet gained the seniority. The time of your awareness of your inheritance will come, but it may not have come quite yet.
Hearing that you and I are One, you probably say to Me:
"Then why don't I know it? Why don't I live it? Why am I such a fool? God, You don't go around getting Your feelings hurt like I do. You don't do terrible things. You don't get angry, and You don't get tongue-tied. I tell You, honestly, God, I like the idea that I might be You. I like that idea very much. Yet how can it be that I am You? It is so far from my reality.
"I know how crabby I get. I am irritated by little things. You're not. I do not know the answer to the riddles of life. You do.
"I understand I am part of You. I understand I came from You. I understand I will merge with You. I understand that all You are and all You have are meant for me. In that sense they are mine. I can grasp that You are the totality of the Universe, and that if You and I are One, then I am also the Totality of the Universe. And yet, I don't begin to understand. It is like I am in an advanced placement class by mistake.
"It is not that I don't believe You, God. It's just that I can't do the math.
"How can You say that I am You when I am so far away from You?
"You are excellent, God. I would like to be excellent, even a little bit excellent, yet I am just working away, trying to survive, trying to grow, trying to be Your son, trying to be worthy of You. Meanwhile, I am trapped in a human body, framed in a human mind. I know You would say that I have my heart going for me. I understand that somewhere deep in my heart, You abide. I do grasp that the Kingdom of Heaven is within me. I do grasp that You have given me everything, and yet, there is no way in Heaven or Earth, that I can sincerely say I am You. I cannot even get the words out without stammering.
"I may be capable of saying that someday I will operate from the same level that You do, but that is not my Truth now, God. I want there to be You, but I sure don't want You to be me.
"I am on two sides of the fence, God.
"On one hand, I would love with all my heart to be You.
"And yet, on the other hand, I always want You to exist as You are. I want to know You are there, here and everywhere. I want You outside me. I want You to be mightier than I. I want You to be the Mightiest of All. Of course, I wouldn't mind being Everything You Are, and yet I don't really have a clue as to how that ever might be."
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