Gloria to God:

Dear Father in Heaven, I feel distraught. I am distraught, and I attribute my distraughtness to Lauren. I do know it is mine, not hers, though I do worry about her. I ask You for forgiveness that I worry about her. If You are, what is there to worry about? And I already know, know, that you are.

I am reading The Infinite Way by Joel Goldsmith, and his words echo Your heart; he writes truth. I haven't seen anything I would contradict. He is simple. "God is," he says.

He talks about not judging, not as good or bad, but because the evaluations of the world change, and You are.

Sometimes I think that all my mind does is judge, condemn, bottle, label, indict, contrast, compare, include, exclude, and where do I get the nerve to be so high and mighty?

God:

From forgetting that I am. From relying on the messages of the world, messages contaminated by greed and ignorance. Well, what else do you think? I say this without judgement. Much of the world has thrown itself far away from Me, and therefore from Love, Truth, Joy etc.

Gloria:

Dear God, when I have watched some of Court TV, it's clear how the world believes in punishment, not only that it is their right to inflict, but that it is their virtue.

I don't know what I would do, given the task of knowing what to do with people who have murdered, stolen, cheated, led others to drugs etc. I don't know what I could do but pray to You.

What I also love in Joel Goldsmith's book is that he says we don't pray to You for something. You have already given us everything. We pray to You to know You, to reawaken You in our hearts, to stir and fill our hearts with You.

God:

In your heart, you knew this. When you would hear someone say, "I asked God for this and that, and He didn't deliver," your heart knew something was off.

So, you pray to Me to know Me and to serve Me because you need your prayers. Prayer is a kind of offering and asking, giving and opening to — what? The heart of God.

In this writing, Gloria, what enriches you is the experience of Me, the acquaintanceship. That is what I give you. Call it My presence, call it Love, call it Knowledge, Wisdom, call it what you will, but with My words here you have Me. You have the recognition of My hand on your shoulder. You have the touch of My hem, so to speak.

Gloria:

I feel with You, God, among other things, what neutral is. You do not become overwhelmed with my pain nor my joy. You are feeling and caring but untouched because Your vision is so great. It does not "cost" You, every prayer you hear. You are compassion but beyond compassion. It comes down to: You are pure love.

God:

I am One Complete Wholeness with you, who are one complete wholeness with Me. You can swing to the left or to the right, and I am enjoined with you. You can be in the center, and I am with you. I am all that there is. There is only Me and nothing else, for I am all that there is. I am the vastness of your heart. I am the boundlessness of your heart. I am Everything that is and More. I am Everything that is not as well.

I am the gaps and the lines. I am all the colors and no color. I am all the expressions and the expressionless. I am your Eternal Being.

Gloria:

I am grateful.

God:

I know you are.

Gloria to Mother Divine:

Dear Mother Divine, what do you in your great love wish to say to me?

Mother Divine:

I wish to give you comfort. That means strength. It does not mean babying. It does not mean, "There, there." It means I come up right in front of you and offer you myself. I sit with you. I make myself known. We just sit together. We do not have to talk. We don't have to explain. We sit together in our Beingness of God, and we exchange love. We pass it back and forth until there is love filling everywhere and no difference or ownership of love. Which is yours, and which is mine. It is all God's, and He shares Himself with us.

So, I sit with you, and you sit with me, and life transpires. Who comforts whom? Who is the richer? We amass each other and stare God in the face, and we see ourselves and God's love filling all that there is.

Gloria:

Dear Mother Divine, I went to bed at 8:30 last night, woke up at 1 a.m., and have been writing now until 2:30. Is there someone else who wants to talk to me at this time? Is that why I woke up and couldn't get back to sleep?

Mother Divine:

Not that I know of. I think it is God, you, and I, and perhaps your questioning that woke you up.

A Course in Miracles, Lesson 328:
"I choose the second place to gain the first. What seems to be the second place is first, for all things we perceive are upside-down until we listen to the Voice for God…It is Your Will that I be wholly safe, eternally at peace. And happily I share that Will which You, my Father, gave as part of me."

Gloria to God:

What does this mean, dear God?

God:

That the world is not what it seems. That life is not, and you are not. It is all more than it seems. The first is God. The first is the mostly unseen. But this choice is no effort. It is a realization that sinks in like water to the soil.

Don Quixote fought windmills, thinking they were something else. And that is what all men do until a moment comes when they see and hear the Source of All. All man's vain attempts. He climbs an ant hill and thinks he has conquered the world. I, God, offer true freedom, not conquest but unity.

"Come," I say. "Come have everything rather than a part. You have scurried after many parts, and they are not enough no matter how you try. Come, have the whole of it."

That is what I say to My children, and after a while they begin to hear and rise up to have the complete treasures of life and Heaven in My Name. Claim the treasure, for it is yours. This means you, too, Gloria.

Later…

Gloria:

Dear God in Heaven, Your angel Karen called me again today and spent over an hour, returning pieces of my soul from my mother, hers in me back to her, Lauren's pieces from me back to her and so forth. What my mother took from me was my innocence, which was my connection to You/Love, and what she gave to me in place of You was her sense of unworthiness. And what did I take from Lauren but her innocence and what did I give her but my doubts and unworthiness.

I pray that I can be neutral with Lauren and let her life be her life.

How did an angel such as Karen come to me, dear Father? I know from You because that is where everything comes from.

Since Karen called, I have been freezing!

What would You like to tell me, dear Father?

God:

A great cleansing Karen did for you. A grand sweep.

The interconnectedness of beings. The strings that bind are now untied. I too am grateful for Karen's ability to work for Me.

Gloria:

And thank You for Sunny's miraculous recovery. No blood in his urine, his pep back and so on!