unpredictability of life
Your Attention
Quite naturally you want good things in life to happen, and you are delighted when they do, when they come to you as gifts, perhaps as surprise falling from the sky. By the same token, you are crestfallen when great surprises of joy do not arise and seeming impediments wrap themselves around you instead. You see what you welcome as tributes to yourself, and those which you do not welcome as scoldings. Is that not so? You may live life according to a sense of reward and punishment.
God's Appointed
Sometimes you wonder what is the point of it all. A point is a dot in time. You are far more than a mark in time. The point is that you are My child and that you are on earth for Me. That is the point of life, but that does not satisfy you. You want a more definitive answer.
Consider that the point of life is that you are in it, and that it is a privilege to participate in it. More than opportunity, privilege. You chose and were chosen to reveal My glory. That is what you are doing now. That is what you are here for.
The Weaving and Interweaving of the Universe
Everything in life is for a reason, yet there is no reason, there is no cause, and there is no cause to seek. From the vantage of Earth, there isn't a way to understand all the weaving and interweaving of the Universe and life and your life. Your life can only be a puzzle, not to unwind, but to enter into. Your life is like putting your cards down on the table. The cards cannot always be held in your hands. And yet what is revealed when the cards are put down is a simple number, and no more than that. Who can figure out how those particular cards happen to be the hand you held?
What Can Disconcert You?
You equate coming to peace in life with coming to peace with loss and death, the main issues you consider important.
What coming to peace with life really means is coming to terms with the unholy concept that life will not always go according to your will. When you come to terms with that and the little impish things in life, you will be at peace. The larger matters will then take care of themselves.