MY TESTAMONY #1 OF#2

IT ALL STARTED WHEN I WAS A LITTLE GIRL I WAS BADLY ABUSED BY MY MOM...I SUFFERED ALOTT OF TRUMA, MENTAL AND PHYSICAL ABUSE...
ONE OF THE INSIDENCE THAT STICK IN MY HEAD WAS WHEN I WAS AROUND 6 OR 7 YEARS OLD SHE SENT ME TO GET HER A JAR OF PICKLES IN A GROCERY STORE AND ON MY WAY HOME I DROPPED THE JAR OF PICKLES ACCIDENTLY...
I WAS TERRYFIED TO GO HOME. WHEN I CAME HOME AND TOLD HER WHAT HAPPENED SHE GRABBED A BIG BUTCHERS KNIFE AND A BIG EMPTY BUCKET AND I ASKED HER WHAT WAS THAT FOR SHE SAID TO CUT MY HEAD OFF INTO THE BUCKET SO MY HEAD FALLS IN IT AND SO THAT MY BLOOD DOESENT MAKE A MESS...
THAT WAS JUST ONE OF THE STORYS WITH MY MOM....
THEN WHEN I WAS ABOUT 13 YEARS OF AGE MY MOM RAN AWAY WITH A BOYFRIEDN AND LEFT MY DAD,BROTHER AND ME AND I CAN TELL YOU WHILE EVERYONE IN THE FAMILY WAS SO SAD I WAS SECRETLY THE HAPPYEST KID ON THIS EARTH IT MENT NO MORE TORMENT FOR ME!!!! <v:shapetype
BUT THEN OTHER THINGS HAPPENED TO ME...I WAS BADLY RAPED WHEN I WAS ABOUT 16 INVITED TO A NEW YEARS EVE
PARTY BY A VERY OLD MAN THAT WORKED AS A DOCTOR HE SLIPPED SOMETHING IN MY DRINK AND ALL I CAN REMEMBER WAS WAKEING UP IN THE MORNING WITH MY BEAUTIFUL DRESS ALL RIPPED UP AND MY PANTIHOSE TOTALY RIPPED AND ALL I WORIED ABOUT WAS HOW AM I GONA GET HOME LIKE THAT...THEN HE GAVE ME SOMETHING TO WEAR AND I WENT HOME AND LATER ON I FOUND OUT I WAS PREGNANT BY HIM
AND HAD AN ABORTIAN....
BY THE AGE OF SEVENTEEN SO MANY THINGS HAPPENED TO ME THAT I WANTED TO TAKE MY OWN LIFE I TOOK LOTS OF DIFFERENT PILLS AND MIXED IT WITH STRONG ALCOHOL AND
THAT NIGHT I WAS SEEING SNAKES,BUGS,BIG SPIDERS AND THEY WERE ALL CRAWLING ALL OVER ME AS I SCREAMED ...
MY DAD TOOK ME TO THE HOSPITAL SHORTLY AFTER THAT I FELL IN A COMA AND THE DOCTORS TOLD MY DAD THAT TWO THINGS CAN HAPPEN EATER I WILL BE IN THAT COMA FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE OR IF I DO COME OUT I WILL BE A VEGETAB-
LE FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE ..... WHILE I WAS IN THAT STATE OF COMA I SAW BIG STAIRS THAT WERE LEADING TO HEAVEN AS I WAS WALKING UP TWO ANGELS WERE ESCORTING ME ONE ON MY LEFT ONE ON MY RIGHT SIDE. THEY WERE NOT SAYING NOTHING JUST WALKING UP THE STAIRS WITH ME...HALF WAY UP I SAW JESUS STANDING THERE AND ALL HE SAID TO ME WAS "GO BACK DOWN IT`S NOT YOUR TIME YET" AT THAT
MOMENT I GOT OUT OF THE COMA I WAS IN FOR A MONTH.
NOT ONLY DID I GET OUT OF THE COMA BUT I DIDNT END UP TO BE A VEGETABLE AS THE DOCTORS TOLD MY DAD....
MY FAMILY WAS GREEK ORTHODOX AND I DIDNT KNOW MUCH ABOUT GOD BUT I KNEW THERE WAS A GOD EVEN BEFORE I MET JESUS FACE TO FACE...
LATER ON IN LIFE I MARRIED A MAN THAT TOOK OVER MY MOM HE ABUSED ME MENTALY,FIZICLY AND SEXSUALLY...HE TOLD ME BED TIME STORIES THAT WERE JUST TERRYFYING AND I WAS ALWAYS SCARED TO GO TO SLEEP...HE TOLD ME A STORY OF A HUSBAND AND A WIFE IN BED AND THE HUSBAND PUTS A PILLOW OVER HIS WIFES HEAD AND SMOTHERS HER TO DEATH AND THEN THE MAN CALLS 911 AND REPORTS TO SEND AN AMBULANCE THAT HIS WIFE HAD A HEART ATTACK IN HER SLEEP AND THAT WAS THE END OF THE STORY AND OF COURSE I WAS TERRYFIED TO GO TO SLEEP. I`V BEEN MANNY TIMES TO WOMANS SHELTERS WITH MY DAUGHTER AND ONE DAY I RAN AWAY WITH HER FOR GOOD...
I HAVE BEEN EXPERIANCING A LOT OF SPIRITUAL ATTACKS ALSO AND I DID`T KNOW OR UNDERSTAND THEM SO I DECIDED TO JOIN A CHURCH NEAR WHERE I LIVE NOW....I BECAME A BORN AGAIN BELIVER AND NOW I ENJOY A VERY PERSONAL RELATIONSHIP WITH THE LORD...
ONE DAY AS I WORSHIPED HIM IN MY LIVINGROOM I WEEPED AND MY CHEAKS WERE JUST FLODDED WITH TEARS SUDDENLY I FELT SOMEONE STROKE MY RIGHT SIDE OF MY CHEAK AND AS I
LIFTED MY HEAD I SAW JESUS STANDING ON MY RIGHT SIDE
I WAS SO EXCITED I RAN TO THE MIRROR AND SAW MY LEFT CHEAK WAS FLOODED WITH TEARS AND MY RIGHT SIDE WAS TOTALY DRY NOT A TEAR....WOW I THOUGHT THAT WAS SO
OWSOM....SISNSE THEN A LOT OF THINGS SIMILAR TO THAT HAVE HAPPEND TO ME ....I BECAME OPSESSED WITH MY BIBLE I CALL IT MY TREASURE CHEST AND JESUS IS ALL I REALLY HAVE
AND I LOVE HIM DEARLY EVEN I LET HIM DOWN MANY TIMES
HE STILL SPEEKS TO ME AND HE IS MORE REAL TO ME THAN ANYTHING OR ANYONE ELSE I KNOW...NOW I LEARNED THE SECRET INGREDIANT AND THAT IS MANY TIMES WHEN I SIN I USE TO BE ASHAMED TO COMUNICATE OR TURN TO HIM NOW NO MATTER WAHAT I DO (SIN) I KNOW I DON LET MY SIN SEPARATE ME FROM THE ONE THAT DIED FOR ALL MY SINS...
I JUST REMEMBER DAVID OR ABRAHAM THEIR SECRET TO BEING SO CLOSE TO THE LORD WAS ABRAHAM WENT TO GOD AS IF HE HAS NEVER COMITED A SIN IN HIS LIFE AND THAS HOW HE KEPT HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD ALIVE...AND NOW I DO THAT TO I DO NOT LET MY SINFUL NATURE GET IN BEETWEN ME AND OUR SO PRECIOUS LORD WHOM I CHERISH SO MUCH....GOD HAS GRANTED ME THIS SPECIAL PRIVELIGE TO BE SO CLOSE WITH HIM AND NOTHING CAN EVER TAKE THAT AWAY FROM ME NOTHING....
I DO HAVE SOME MOST UNUSUAL THINGS HAPPEN TO ME WITH THE LORD LIKE SOMETIME I WOULD JUST ASK HIM TO GIVE ME A SIGHN THAT HE IS WITH ME AND THE SOFA I WAS SITTING ON WOULD GENTLY BEGING TO VIBRATE FOR A FEW SECONDS AND I WOULD JUST SMILE AT HIM...
HOPE MY TESTEMONY HAS HELPED SOMEONE....NEVER FEEL GUILTY TO GO TO HIM SEEK HIM AND YOU WILL FIND HIM THATS MY GARANTEE TO YOU FORM ME BUT YOU REALY HAVE TO SEEK HIM AND WANT HIM BAD ENOUGH AND IT WILL WORK YOU WILL SEE AND EXPERIANCE THE EXTRAORDINARY WALK WITH GOD...
LOVE IN HIM WHO L OVES YOU SO MUCH ... HUGS & LOVE ...