>
>Dear God
>
>Will I see this in my lifetime? Why do I have such a resistance
>to this? I
>can go part of the way, but not all of the way. Sometimes I
think
>it's a bit
>sappy (sorry), sometimes I like to feel clever!, sometimes
>compeditive,
>sometimes mischevious, sometimes mature. I don't know whether to
>learn how
>to follow my heart... or go for the "normal" life, settle down
>etc... house
>and mortgage ...or whether to follow dreams, but I can't
remember
>what they
>are! So I'm kind of caught between a rock and a hard place. Will
>you advise.
>
>But joy has been absent in my life for as long as I can
remember.
>There's a
>particular way of seeing things in the Western World- I mean
this
>is a whole
>shift in perception- is it going to happen here? Am I so deep in
>forgetting?
>
>Oh by the way Happy Christmas!!! (I just wished God a happy
>Christmas- how
>cool is that!) Ashlea my daughter is so excited, we are doing a
>radio show