Joe;

If there's anything I can do or say for you, I'm here.
Hang in there, my friend.

John

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Joe:

God bless everyone.

Hey Joe,

I am glad that you pulled back from taking your life
again. It seems that while we are in this body we miss
sooooo much of what is really happening around us. I
include spiritual life as well as physical. According
to esoteric sources this life is a true blessing, even
when it is a hard life full of suffering. It is said
that only through physical life do we really evolve to
higher states of being. This world is God's playground
and when we choose to quit we are going against god's
will, not back to his embrace. This is why suicide is
a great sin in almost all religions.

In India they think that even the gods are envious of
human life because of this simple fact. If they wish
to evolve themselves, they must be allowed to enter a
human body to do so. There are supposedly countless
billions of souls waiting to get into a human body
right now, and only a few allowed to do so. That you
have a body indicates that you are truly, truly
blessed beyond your ability to understand.
Heavenletters directs us to express love in this life.
Why? One reason is that we are here in order to do
just that within a body and within the physical realm.
We are here to make this world the playground of love
that god intended it to be.

We are god in the individual, in a body, and we have
been given the extremely sacred task of enlivening
love within the harshness of the physical world. This
is why channeled entities always tell us that we are
so deeply deeply loved by those that weren't allowed
to take on this task, those who stayed behind as
guides and guardian angels.

If you sometimes find life too hard to endure then,
like a warrior set an almost too difficult challenge,
you still have a ways to go in order to gain victory.
Your challenge is to love your life and yourself to
such a degree that all harshness dissolves. That you
become the god that you always were. Loving others is
a way to learn how to love yourself. Stay with us and
god will guide you to victory.

Your seemingly small victory is in fact a powerful
victory, for when you learn to love yourself that
completely then you will radiate that love around you,
without effort, and then others will take notice of
your work. Become what you wish to share.

We are all interconnected, and because of this your
desire to help the world only requires your own loving
desire to help the world. That desire spreads out
around the world and people everywhere respond to that
desire for universal love at a cellular level. Nobody
may ever figure out that what they are feeling came
from you. Or maybe it came from somewhere else, and
you are merely a powerful conduit of spreading that
feeling. Saints living in caves in India affect us all
whether they are aware of it or not, and this is god's
way of using them to channel very powerful
healing/spiritual energies onto the earth plane.

You are blind and limited in that. You chose to be
this way, for everything that happens to us is by our
(subconscious) choice. You are learning Eckankar, an
esoteric technique for finding enlightenment. You have
also found heavenletters, channeled words of god that
give direct instruction in the process of love. How
can you fail with these aids that you were led to by
your own guardian angels? To give up now, to end your
life after all you have gained, that would be a great
sin.

Love you Joe,
Robert

Dear Joe,

I have no idea what kind of things are teached here on this site, I came only here for your Pink Light Method. I really don't believe that you are creating bad karma with it. You 16 years work has great value. People might not ready for it already, but what about 10, 20 or 30 years later from now? If it changes only one persons life, it's worth it.

I found this article on http://www.spiritofmaat.com/archive/apr1/legend.htm

Before we can have a truly successful relationship, we must first learn to feel love for ourselves. Loving Yourself is Relationship 101. It is a required course.

We all know this. But knowing it and actualizing it are two different things.

Below is an exercise designed to help you feel love for yourself. Variations on this exercise have helped many, ourselves included, to overcome the lack of self-love that keeps us in toxic relationships, makes us basically unlovable to others, or perpetuates the slow death of codependency. For the basics of this exercise we are indebted to many, including Ken Carey, Jock Purcell/Lazaris, Jane Roberts/Seth, studies in neurolinguistic programming, and our dear friend the Archangel Michael.

Before you do the exercise itself, you will need some background. For this, simply read the following Legend of Yourself.

For some, this works best if another person reads it to you. Even if you've already read it once yourself, you might want to experience it as a listener. If you choose this, select as your reader someone you both like and trust. Or make a tape-recording in your own voice, and listen to that.

The Legend of Yourself

Once upon a time, you were a Great Being, a beautiful Spirit living in total Oneness in Heaven with Mother/Father God – All That Is. You could not be angry, for there was no one to become angry with. Could not be afraid, for there was no thing more powerful than You. In fact, there was no thing, period.

One day, you went to the big Bulletin Board in the Sky, and saw that Mother/Father God – All That Is was calling for volunteers to enter into the Fields of Matter. If you volunteered, the announcement said, you should realize that upon entering the Fields of Matter, you would gradually lose your Knowledge of Oneness, finally perceiving Yourself as a totally separate entity. The memory of Heaven would fade like a dream.

But to compensate, there would be experiences in the Fields of Matter that were not available in the All. For example, in the Fields of Matter, it would be possible to watch snow swirling around a corner streetlamp on a winter's night, soundlessly wrapped in quiet calm.

"Amazing!" you remember exclaiming — for you had never experienced a thing like "quiet" or "snow" or "night" or "streetlamps." All That Is was a tapestry, a network of All Light and All Sound. Each experience was All Experience, like dancing on a tightrope that vibrated to every single Event in every possible Universe.

You kept reading.

In the Fields of Matter, the announcement continued, it would be possible to walk along the beach holding hands with a lover. To relax in a woodland clearing and listen to the chirping of birds, the rippling of water over stones that sparkled in the sunlight. Experience would no longer consist of All Birds At Once and All Water At Once and All Trees at Once and All All That Is, All At Once.

Gradually, as you took in all these wonderful ideas, the immediacy and intimacy of Physical Reality began to seem precious and unbelievably desirable. You wanted to go there and have these experiences.

The announcement warned that for everything that you loved in Physical Reality, there would be something that you hated, and the something that you hated would always be there, like an ugly frame around a beautiful picture. But you placed no great importance on these warnings, for you could not imagine anything but Love. You absolutely knew, despite what others might have reported, that you would never make the mistake of spending millions of years ignoring the beautiful picture and staring at the frame.

And so you volunteered. And out of many, many others who were called to read this announcement, you were one of the very, very few that was chosen.

And You were chosen for your strength. Your beauty. Your courage. And your eagerness to serve Mother/Father God – All That Is.

Now, do the following exercise. It may seem long, but it takes much longer to read it or speak it than it does to perform. Eventually, you will be able to do the whole exercise, wordlessly, in a few seconds:

Loving Yourself:

Spend just a few moments going into your quiet space, breathing rhythmically and letting go of outside thoughts. Relaxing.

Now, imagine yourself lying peacefully asleep in your bed. It has been a long, long journey since you first volunteered to come to Earth. You reached the furthest point away from Heaven long, long ago, and since then you have been returning home. You are dreaming about that. About returning home.

Feel yourself in bed, dreaming there. And imagine that all around you, in your room, bathed in beautiful light, are all the Great Beings who were your friends before you left Heaven. Some did not want to enter into the Fields of Matter. Some wanted to, but were not chosen. Perhaps some of these Beings are Ascended Masters with whom you have been working. At least two of them are your own Spirit Guides or Angels. Perhaps the Christ is there, as well, and Mary. Others who may be present are Babaji, Sai Baba, and one or more of the Archangels. Take time to see, sense or feel all these Great Beings around you, guarding your sleep.

One of these Great Beings is your Higher Self. This Higher Self is who you were before you began to forget Oneness — a very Great Angel indeed.

Now, leaving your body asleep, rise up in your energy body and go join the circle of Great Beings who surround you, and stand beside your Higher Self. Take time to feel, sense, and see yourself doing this.

When you have become part of the group of Great Beings in the room, look back at yourself in the bed, lying there asleep. And as you do so, realize that your Higher Self and all the other Great Beings are looking at this figure in the bed as you would look at a beloved sleeping child. Can you remember what it feels like to watch a dearly beloved child lying asleep? Realize that this is the tenderness your Higher Self is feeling for you now.

But there's more, much more. For this child of your Higher Self has grown up to become one of the Heroes of the Great Legends of Heaven. This child has been away for millions of years like a soldier off at the wars, and is now returning home. Oh, there is such pride among these Great Beings with whom you now stand, watching that other part of yourself sweetly sleeping.

They are overwhelmed at your accomplishments. Some of the Great Beings in this room where you stand have never had to try to feel love while experiencing fear, or anger, or loss. Have never tried to imagine Oneness with All That Is while feeling separate and alone. Love for them is no trick, no accomplishment at all. Love simply Is. That you have managed to return to Love despite the perception of separation is to them a miracle greater than anything you can imagine on Earth.

Others of the Great Beings who surround you have experienced duality, and they realize your amazing accomplishments. They are like sports fans at a game, excitedly involved, cheering you on. They know that, despite thousands of years of unimaginable, paralyzing fear, you have never given up. They know that, despite thousands of years of inconceivably crushing anger, you have finally understood about Love, and you have made it your polestar, guiding you home.

Realize that these Great Beings are not greater than you are. In fact, they are totally in awe of you, as we are in awe of moviestars and Olympic athletes. And they are grateful, as well. For what you have done, you have done for them. What you have done, you have done for Mother/Father God – All That Is.

Yes, you are coming home! Feel the love and pride and rejoicing of the Great Beings who have stood guard, who still stand guard over your long, long sleep, knowing now that soon, very soon, We will All be together again.

Now, blend with your Higher Self, and look at this sleeping hero that you are through the eyes of your Higher Self. Feel the pride, the love, the tenderness that your Higher Self feels for this incredibly beautiful, courageous Being who has been away so long and now is coming Home.

Return to your own body in the bed.

Now, return to yourself in present time.

Open your eyes.

At first, this exercise takes time. But after a little practice, you will be able to do it in a few seconds. We suggest that you really "get into it" at least once a day until you can truly feel that you are a beloved, legendary hero of one of the Great Legends of Heaven, coming home.

Post Script

The battles are over, now. The Ego has retired to the country and is growing flowers. And you are attending that Great Celebration in the Sky, commemorating the Heroes who have returned. You are one of those Heroes. You are there, celebrating with the rest. No more and no less than the rest.

The Ambrosia of the Gods is flowing. All is feasting and fun. All are Kings and Queens together.

Then — just for a moment — you remember. What it was like to walk in a grassy woodland with a lover. What it was like to listen to the birds singing. There is just a trace of sadness. Just a trace of longing for the dear, sweet intimacy, the immediacy, the precious loveliness of the little corners of Creation where Time allows us to linger for awhile.

But that seems to have all happened long, long ago — and now is now. This Ambrosia is really wonderful stuff. And there are other worlds for us to conquer. An infinity of worlds. Oh, yes.

Most beautiful, Rick. God bless you.

With love, Gloria

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