Kathy to God:

Dear God, thank you very much for the cloak of white light you enveloped around me. I felt it very palpably. I had not known that Gloria had just asked You my question when I felt the descent of grace envelop its light all around me.

Thank You so much.

Grace is what we all need. It's good for the soul.

God to Kathy:

It is good for the soul.

Kathy:

Thank You for Your light.

Now I have another question for You.

I am coming out from my attachment to Frederick. I feel freer.

As You know, I have made plans to return to Spain in late January. I have my living and work arrangements all made and am waiting for my visa. I believe my dharma is there, and it has been my intention to make a life for myself there.

I have a dear friend, Peter, in the same town where I live now. We have a deep spiritual connection and have shared beautiful joy and light for the year we have been acquainted. He was going to leave town in a week or so and relocate in another state, and now he wants to change his plans and stay here with me. He wants to have a relationship and marry me.

I enjoy Peter very much, and I feel he is a gift from You, God, but I cannot make a commitment to him. I have to go more slowly. I don't want to get involved with someone on the rebound. And I don't want to keep him from his destiny.

And yet, can this with Peter be my future? Is this something temporary or permanent? Should I forget my careful plans and stay with Peter?

Thank You, God.

God:

Dear Kathy, My delight!

I won't decide this for you.

Do you want a romantic involvement with Peter?

Do you want to change your plans?

What do you want more, Peter or Spain?

Do you have to know now?

Today, just today, do you want a more personal relationship with Peter? Take care of today. You are committed to today.

I have heard you say that this is going too fast for you. It is. I have heard you say you cannot make a long-term commitment to Peter at this time. Of course, you cannot. It's not there!

Have you told Peter just what you feel?

Do you feel it is all or nothing with Peter?

Are you going with your heart or against your heart?

Let's pretend I say to you: "Kathy, you must marry Peter."

How do you feel?

That is your answer.

Let's pretend I say to you: "Kathy, you must leave Peter and go to Spain."

How do you feel?

That is your answer.

Of course, I will not tell you either way.

If you are comfortable with a day-to-day relationship, go with that. If you are not, don't.

You have no obligation to anyone, Kathy. No one is obligated to anyone.

Frederick was not obligated to you.

You are not obligated to Peter.

Doing things from obligation doesn't usually work.

And what does "work" mean in this case? It works out how it works out. If you and Peter are together, good. If you and Peter are not together, good. If you and Peter are together for a while and then not together after that, good. If you and Peter are not together and in a year you decide to get together, well, good. What's wrong with any of this? How much does it matter? What does it have to do with you and Me, Kathy?

That is life, dear Kathy. And you are to live it. Not stew about it.

Life is not laid out like your plans to go to Spain. Life is not ordained. It is lived.

Now, have you started writing or talking into a tape recorder as I suggested? Or are you too busy with your love life to share your refined perception with others?

I keep laughing at you, Kathy. And I want you to laugh at yourself. Come now, do I see the beginning of a smile?

All is well, Kathy…Diane…Kerry…and everyone.

All is well.