Jump Over the Past

Heavenletter #2657 Published on: March 4, 2008

God said:

To what lengths will you go to run away from Me? I am not your conscience chasing after you. I am not after you to search you nor to take anything away. I just want to be with you. I ask no more than that. Well, yes, I do ask that you be happy. I do ask that you come to Me rain or shine. I do ask that you come to know Me and know what a Friend I am to you, and what a Friend I am desirous of being in your eyes. Yes, I want you to know Me as I am. Let your vision of Me be consigned to what I truly am to you. I do want you to have True Vision, beloveds. While all this is so, it is also so that I ask nothing at all but to be with you in your awareness. That I am with you is already a fact. What I desire to the exclusion of all else is that you be happy, and be happy with yourself, your beautiful self, as you are, without your doubts and faultfinding.

It is true that I am All That Is. It is true that I am God Almighty, yet you also seem to see Me as either some kind of bad guy to run from or as some kind of good guy that you are obliged to kowtow to. I am a Good Guy, but you do not need to kowtow. You are not to be subjected to Me. You are not My victim. I do not toy with you.

Even though I am Truth, and I want you to know that I am, this does not mean I want you to see yourself as an abject servant. Yes, I do want you to serve Me, beloveds, for to serve Me is to serve yourself and all of life. Serve Me, but do not serve Me as if you are one who is subservient. Yes, of course, I do want you to follow My will gladly, but not as a penance. You do not owe anything. Beloveds, I don't want you to do penance at all. I don't need that, nor do you. The world will tell you to atone and repent. I do not. I tell you to leave all that behind and move on. Say so long to it. You are not who you were yesterday, that is, who you thought you were yesterday.

I tell you to forget the past because it was only a blip anyway. It is no longer. It actually never was. You can see that it is past, and yet you have not reconciled to yourself that the past is behind you. You do tend to keep the past in front of you as if it were a shield or a placard or notes for you to memorize. You do like to keep the past in sight while it really behooves you to abandon it. It matters not whether you are grateful for the past any more than it matters if you feel intimidated by it. Get past it.

The past is no more than leaves that have fallen. Do not even rake up the leaves of the past. Just leave them where they lie. The past is not for posterity. It is meant to be jumped over. Drop it off the cliff of your mind. Say Sayonara to it.

Be My simple child who comes to Me today the same way a child brings his mother a dandelion. What you offer Me is yourself, and I am so pleased with what you offer Me. When you offer Me yourself, you offer Me love, and that is exactly what I offer you.

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On March 4th, 2008 Regina (not verified) says:

Jump Over The Past- WOW-simple words to live in the moment with! Yes, I want you to know me as I AM-simple words to live in the moment with! Response, I surrender and want to go deeper and/or draw closer to I AM.

What you offer Me is yourself, and I am so pleased with what you offer Me. When you offer Me yourself, you offer Me love, and that is exactly what I offer you. ..I just want to relax on my Father, God, shoulders and be embraced with the power of compassion, validation and love.

This message today was meant for me, to embrace in my thoughts and know that God is near me at all times 24/7 just a prayer away.
I'm really putting into action the Heavenletter posted since Saturday..GOD is reading the intentions of my heart...

Gina, you are an

On March 4th, 2008 Gloria Wen... says:

Gina, you are an inspiration. Wow, God must be so happy with how close you are to Him and to each one of us.

Gloria, To be honest due to

On March 4th, 2008 Regina (not verified) says:

Gloria,
To be honest due to some of the emotional abuse and mental abuse I've suffered as a child, sometimes I have to fight my mind that wants to deny that God Loves Me and my mind can't imagine how God can even be happy with me...Does that sound strange, have you ever heard that before and I try to rebuke those negative thoughts.

I've nevered admitted that before- WOW- that felt good to admit this.

Good for you for saying what

On March 4th, 2008 Gloria Wen... says:

Good for you for saying what you feel. Honesty is so refreshing.

It is interesting to me because I thought everyone feels the way you have. I know it took a lot of Heavenletters before the concept of God's loving me (scrungy me) could sink in at all. God keeps reminding us, however, that He does love us and there is nothing that can stop His love, not a thread of it, not ever.

As I understand it, we have negative thoughts because we have negative thoughts! It's not really surprising. We keep hearing plenty of negative thoughts around us. Just like music we hear often enough, pretty soon we find ourselves humming what we heard.

My understanding is not that we are to rebuke negative thoughts so much as to let them go. How about laughing at them! It really is comical to think that God, Who is Love Himself, would miss out on loving any one of us.

1 Heavenletter Haiku for

On March 4th, 2008 Alohalight... says:

1 Heavenletter Haiku for you

Hello Friends,

God said I am Truth
Yes I want you to know Me
In your awareness

Love, Light and Aloha!

reading that last sentence

On March 4th, 2008 Michael G. Batcho (not verified) says:

reading that last sentence about going to God like a small child bringing his mother a dandelion reminded me of a song from some years ago . . . it was by Judd Strunk (who died in a plane crash some years back) - the song was "(I'll Give You) A Daisy A Day" . . . a happy/sad lyric it was . . . but, a song about the constancy of real love . . that not even death breaks the daisy-chain circle that is love . . . and love represented, not by the "big things' but rather by 'the small things" . . . little things, like giving a daisy a day . . even after death . . . and so it is with God . . . God is constant . . . and we find His love and reciprocate that love in the little things: "good things still come in small packages". :)

So beautiful Michael. Thank

On March 4th, 2008 Jim Keller says:

So beautiful Michael. Thank you for relating that. What you beautifully said reminds me of a story Mother Meera relates (Mother Meera is a contemporary "saint" who lives in Germany now) and relates the story of a mother with her wee child on the beach. And the child brings the mother an old stick as a present. So beautiful, cause its not about what gift we give physically...for the physical gift is a token of the real gift...which is love. This story always makes me cry...As you say...the "constancy of real love." Two recent deaths in my life have been my wife and my daughter (my wife Sheilah from cancer 2.5 years ago and Melissa, my oldest daughter from suicide 8 years ago) And yes...giving them so much love everyday from my heart...and receiving so much love everyday from their heart....yet we are all in a giant heart of God together...and at times, i miss their physical identities...personalities, etc, yet their essence is within me...is in me...is me. I feel complete and at peace and whole with their love which is my love witch is the love of God.

Thank you again Michael B. Love and blessings, jimi.

Each Country of the world is like a sacred prayer bead...held lightly and lovingly...

Jim, you uplift us all so

On March 4th, 2008 Gloria Wen... says:

Jim, you uplift us all so much. You bless the world in so many ways.
You give so much inspiration I would never have guessed that you had such heartache in your life.You are even more inspiration now.

Thank you dear Gloria. The

On March 4th, 2008 Jim Keller says:

Thank you dear Gloria. The reason, I have such inspiration, is cause my heart just broke....and after a long time, the love spilled out...and it keeps spilling! I just love when it spills out. Thank god! Jimi

Each Country of the world is like a sacred prayer bead...held lightly and lovingly...

Dearest Jim, I totally echo

On March 5th, 2008 Berit says:

Dearest Jim,

I totally echo Gloria's reply and I thank you for being the love you are !!!!

Love and big bug hug
Berit

Another great letter.

On March 5th, 2008 Eleanor (not verified) says:

Another great letter. Thanks very much for the reminder. What is not clear in this message is "what I am". I used to think that I am the sum of my past and present; I am the sum of my physical, emotional, mental and spiritual being. It would be nice to just "drop" the past, drop the emotional things that hurt in the past and still hurt a bit; get rid of some of the mental pictures that haunt, or things like that, but as human beings this is a tricky thing. Your article says to drop off the past similar to the way trees shed leaves. What is left? Am I to roam around as if in some sort of amnesia? It is possible to stay in a joyous state -- a state of higher vibration, but sometimes one feels disconnected. How does one integrate all that we are and be in a permanent state of joy?

I would greatly appreciate your clarity here.

Lovingly,

Eleanor

This beautiful question was

On March 5th, 2008 Heaven Admin says:

This beautiful question was probably directed to Gloria, however I was interested in understanding it as well.

The tamil yoga siddha Boganathar once wrote, "Loosing their minds in the fleeting world, they forgot purinam". Purinam may be interpreted as Divnity or perfection.

Its not so much about forgetting the past or erasing memories. Its more about detaching from the memories and not misidentifying with the character/personality that went through those life processes. Our amnesia is more related to us forgetting the truth of "who am I".

By casually observing; "who is that was in the car accident? who is it that died? who is it that got fired from the job? who is it that is hungry? who gets hurt?", we eventually realise that these processes acted only upon the body and the personality. The body and personality are contained within the mind and the mind is a process of the Soul...which is a word we use to identify the "what I am".

The permanent state of joy comes from remembrance of "purinam", not from forgetting the past. The feelings of disconnection will eventually subside as all the obstacles are burnt away and the fleeting mind is brought back into control.

Every thought and action is recorded in the field of consciousness. Our souls are eternally naked without a single thing to hide.

One Love

Dear dear Eleanor, A couple

On March 5th, 2008 Gloria Wen... says:

Dear dear Eleanor,

A couple of things I'd like to say before we get to your question.

Just so you know, the gentleman (One Love) whose response to you I believe will show after this post I'm writing now is the beautiful soul who does everything for Heavenletters. He is a great resource of knowledge who lives an integrated life in the joy of service to God and the world. In every interaction with him, I see that he has really learned the art of detachment and lives it, not disconnected but more connected to the Universe. I believe he has been able to let go of his personal identification and has turned it in for a greater one. Did he do this or did he one day happen to notice that this had occurred?

Eleanor, when someone asks me a deep question, thinking that I might know something, I have to look behind me because I'm sure I've been mistaken for someone else! Don't tell anyone, please, but the most I am is a Great Ventriloquist's dummy. And only at certain times of the day. That's the absolute truth.

What I do have and can offer are my feelings.

And I feel you have asked one of the greatest questions that ever could be asked and that it says a lot about you. I feel your question shows your faith in God and your desire to be and do everything that God says. I feel you are saying that you hear and honor what God is saying and that you are willing, only you don't know how and want to know how to fulfill God's Will. You are not questioning what God says. You are asking how do we let go of all the screen of the past and live in the world. Do I have it right, dear Eleanor?

You are really asking on behalf of everyone.

In your question you ask about perhaps feeling disconnected. I wonder if there may be some of that. I have read accounts of people who go through feeling disconnected from everything around them until they get more used to it. But what is wrong with feeling disconnected? It could be that this is the same as being in the world but not of it.

Okay, my feeling is that the answer to your question is: There is no how. When we get there, we’re there. It’s like when we learn to ride a bicycle, suddenly we have the balance and we’re pedaling a bike as if we always knew how.

There is a February Heavenletter http://www.heavenletters.org/now-you-walk-earth-barefoot.html that might relate to your question.

Eleanor, will you post your response to this and tell us what you think. Santhan, will you tell us more of your personal experience? And I would love to hear everyone else's take on this whole thing.

With love and blessings,

Gloria

Gloria and Santhan, Your

On March 5th, 2008 Eleanor (not verified) says:

Gloria and Santhan,
Your responses brought tears to my eyes.
You've answered my question -- when I really get there I will no longer feel disconnected but very connected to my Higher Self.
By disconnected I meant that sometimes I feel out of touch or let's say unable to connect with others from a point of joy as a predominant feeling. I reach in to others and pick up thoughts that are not happy -- sometimes just mundane things like "how am I going to pay these bills", thoughts of doubt, thoughts of limitation etc, etc. Of course, they mirror back to me my own doubt about where I am vibrationally. As you say, "when we get there, we're there". That's good enough.
I will continue my daily meditation and energy practices and give thanks for all.
Thanks again for your letters and for this forum.
Lovingly,
Eleanor

Eleanor, I have also

On March 5th, 2008 Gloria Wen... says:

Eleanor, I have also experienced being disconnected from others. I have often felt "out of it" and ask myself what I am doing out here when I'm really somewhere else. I do understand exactly what you mean.

Gloria, Thanks again. I

On March 6th, 2008 Eleanor (not verified) says:

Gloria,
Thanks again. I just love your Letters.

This is a profound subject

On March 9th, 2008 Heaven Admin says:

This is a profound subject that Eleanor started here with her honest questioning. I felt to clarify something...

God always speaks in vastness. God sees through all the layers. Yes it is as easy as easy to let go of the past as it is to shake off leaves.

The something I am moved to clarify is, if one is not able to shake off the past like leaves, one may seek other ways to let go. The first crucial realisation occurs when one becomes aware that there are obstacles preventing one from feeling connectedness. This realisation may motivate one to seek suitable ways to remove the obstacles. It requires effort/action to remove the obstacles.

Where there is love, there is no effort. Dedicated, enthusiastic and surrendered effort opens the channels of love and what once required effort will become effortless.

God in His vastness says there is nothing one needs to do. When one sees from the eye of God, yes it is clear there was never any need to do anything. Until then effort is required.

All practices essentially teach one to surrender. Whether the practice is yoga, meditation, self inquiry or whatever is not of great importance as different characters will be suited to different ways. The importance lies in the awareness of the obstacles that create a sense of disconnection and the proceeding effort that removes the obstacles.

I am gratefully aware of the power behind God's words in Heavenletters as an amplifier and tool that can be incorporated into any way one chooses.

Gloria, I enjoyed your response to Eleanor above.

My experience...I can share what I experience now. There is a place within that I can only call my centre. Something powerful flows from there...something that I cannot really explain. There...that place is silent. That place is also everywhere. From the silence comes a vibration that I "feel" and "hear". When I am able to tune the mind into that place, I get a sense of melting into vastness. When awareness goes back to the world, the world appears more clearer. Things unfold.

And of course storms brew in the relative. The biggest change is that I am now able to steer instead of being tossed about and am able to navigate through the storms to places of calm.

One Love

You make me think of so many

On March 10th, 2008 Gloria Wen... says:

You make me think of so many things to say.

I can personally attest to your two last two paragraphs. I have benefited from your vast consciousness. You are so there that you have on more than one occasion passed on that sense of meltingness to me. I have seen how you navigate through life, and it's beautiful. It's beautiful just to see what God means when he speaks of being love and giving it. To know you is to be inspired and to have hope that one day we can be like that too.

Although God sees through His eyes and never drifts from His vision, He also seems to know very well where most of us are, how we think and how we feel to the very last embarrassing detail!

I think we can take God literally in everything He says.

Effort never worked for me! Discipline? I could never stay with any discipline long enough anyway! I have never been disciplined in my life! But I have been dedicated. That's different. I couldn't have made myself be dedicated. It just happened I was.

Even our strong desires, we have them, and then we have to let go of them too. I think it's all God's grace.

Sometimes people ask about Godwriting, if it's necessary to be silent and centered and all that. It's not necessary. There seems to be some little setting in the brain that goes into Godwriting mode, and you Godwrite. I must confess that, in the middle of Godwriting, I have sometimes answered the phone!

I would like to take a minute and talk about A.S. Neill who had a fabulous school named Summerhill. And he wrote a book about it. The school had extraordinary results. If I remember correctly, Neill took children with learning and behavioral difficulties. It made no difference. Children in his school were happy and excelled. Neill had his methods, of course. One of the main ones was freedom. The children chose what they wanted to study, things like that.

But what I think that really made Summerhilll sing was Neill's consciousness. Any school he would have run would have been a wonderful happy successful school. His methods worked primarily because he was who he was and he loved.

I think when you and Carol and Michelle and I go on the motor home trip, we will learn all you have to teach us, but it's you and your consciousness that will really benefit us.
Besides, you are so much fun, Senor.

It is all God's grace.

On March 10th, 2008 Heaven Admin says:

It is all God's grace. Through grace the worlds spin and the flowers bloom.

And now your writing has got me going!

Maybe we all know how to ride bicycles. We just have to keep getting on until we remember. Once remembered, it's effortless riding. Can the act of getting on after falling off be called effort? Or is it just a natural process. Maybe we can replace the word effort with, "Just step aside and let the natural processes take place. Let go of resistance."

Sometimes I leave my laundry for a week and at the end of the week I do washing. I take the clothes, soak them, add some essential oils, rub in some soap, scrub them, rinse them, squeeze them and put them out to dry in the sun and wind. These days I really enjoy doing laundry. I remember a time when I only did this process at the end of the month. Not because the clothes were dirty, but because I wanted some money. It always happened that money would come floating to the top of the washing machine! Then it was an effort. Somehow now, the same process (even sans washing machine) is effortless.

What happened? Something about letting go. Meditation and yoga practice switched from a discipline to an effortless joy. These days it almost always welcomes me...like a refreshing natural oceanside pool during a warm summer sunset. I feel that although I could have got here without the disciplined practice, that practice (process of letting go) helped me let go and awaken to grace little by little.

I could compare that practice to a child getting back onto the bicycle no matter how many times she fell and no matter how bruised her knees are, she gets back on cos she can feel and see the freedom of cruising on those two wheels, wind on her smiling face.

I'm so glad about Godwriting. It has to be an effortless process. I'm so happy that its just a switch and that it can be used by anybody and that it is so practically simple. Its a unique and powerful process. I think the power of transformation it has, has much to do with its simplicity. I write to God and God speaks back. Yet one must pick up the pencil. Picking up the pencil is saying, "YES". Picking up the pencil is letting go and allowing the process to take place.

Neil and Summerhill sound awesome. What's the name of the book?

Hey, I'm just the driver! I don't have anything to teach except how to get lost and not worry about it! Remember Bucharest? Oh and all those other places we visited...only God knows how we managed to find our way cos I had no idea!

Senor, in Bucharest, I was

On March 10th, 2008 Gloria Wen... says:

Senor, in Bucharest, I was certainly of no help! If you hadn't told me, I wouldn't even have known we were lost! I was so happy to be in the car driving around with you in that beautiful city.

The name of the book is Summerhill.

Yes, in order to Godwrite, one has to pick up the pencil. To hear from God, one doesn't even have to do that!

To Godwrite, one has to want to pick up the pencil! The heart has to be there. The only reason to pick up the pencil is because your heart is there, and you want to.

Now I will be quiet before I fall off my bicycle in an attempt to keep up with you, Senor!

You are HEAVEN dear, I love

On March 10th, 2008 Berit says:

You are HEAVEN dear,

I love every word you have written and explained.

How beautifully expressed, I am thinking a lot about God's grace in these days:

It is all God's grace. Through grace the worlds spin and the flowers bloom.
...
Somehow now, the same process (even sans washing machine) is effortless.
....
What happened? Something about letting go. Meditation and yoga practice switched from a discipline to an effortless joy.

I think you really said it ALL, dearest ONE LOVE !!!
Many thanks for sharing your heart, I've appreciated very much.

Love and blessings
Berit

What I desire

On May 14th, 2009 Jochen (not verified) says:

What I desire to the exclusion of all else is that you be happy, and be happy with yourself, your beautiful self, as you are, without your doubts and faultfinding.

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