Gloria to God:

Dear God, I give Ginger her injections regularly, as You know, and I think overcoming my fear here taught me how to pay attention to what I'm doing and not be so emotionally involved. This situation made it so clear to me that when I'm emotionally involved, I'm really not good for much.

And yet, what does it mean, to follow your heart, but not be emotionally involved?

God:

Follow your inner heart. You may notice that you are not emotionally involved with Me! You love Me, you are attentive, you receive My love, and there is no cost or obligation, no foregone conclusion.

It is the surface heart that involves itself.

We could call it the selfish heart. The selfish heart could not give Ginger her insulin injection because you were thinking of how you feel about it. You made presumptions based on ideas that have little or no basis beyond imagination.

How you feel about something and following your heart may not be the same. How you feel often stops you from progress. Following your heart is beyond "feeling like it" or "not feeling like it". Feeling inclined or disinclined is not the same as following your heart. Often following your inclination or disinclination is following your past. I repeat: often following your inclination or disinclination is following your past.

If today is a new day, let it be a new day, and be you a new you, not yesterday's.

Gloria:

I would like to ask You something about forgiveness. Humans have to forgive themselves and each other because we lack understanding in the first place. We used our selfish heart, and so the need for forgiveness.

What reason would there be for You to forgive? That would be like my forgiving someone for misspelling a word! What's to forgive? Forgiveness wouldn't even be an issue for You, I would think.

God:

Let us say that I erase the error from its hold on you. You are right. I don't take errors personally in the first place. I do know there is nothing to forgive, only to wash away. In washing away past errors, your tears are dried, and more light shines forth from your eyes.

Gloria:

God, I have a dear friend whose fifteen-year-old son is now in a drug rehabilitation center. My friend is a wonderful person, and how does it happen that her son has so much difficulty and seems to cause so much havoc?

God:

If I were to tell your friend that her son will come out of this and be a source of great joy to her, would she trust Me and have faith that what I say is true?

Your friend's woe has been a forceful way for her to lay down her arms. She has surrendered her jurisdiction and is in that beautiful place of not knowing what more to do. That is where to begin. "I don't know. I am stumped. My son is out of control. Everything is out of my control."

Your friend will come from a basis of peace. She has surrendered dominion, not love, but dominion. It will be well for her to carry her son in her thoughts as a free non-reactive being. His very obdurateness is his strength. If she will picture him in his strength, how he will be when he serves himself and society well, she will be doing something very good for him.

At fifteen, his life is not sealed. He will not stand firm in his present ways. Being a child is difficult for him. His is a strong need to assert himself. He wants his own sovereignity. He needs to own who he is. The only way he knows to, at present, is with negativity. He thinks freedom is doing whatever someone doesn't want him to do or be. That will change.

Suggest that this mother, as best she is able, turn the responsibility she feels for her son over to Me. Her shoulders are too young and too small to carry it herself.

The responsibility for her son is Mine and his. To Me, the responsibility weighs not so much as a drop of dew. Tell your friend to keep her love but give Me the responsibility. The responsibility causes her fatigue. In her giving over the responsibility, and she releases her fatigue.

Gloria:

Sandra said an interesting thing yesterday. She said that being in control is like an addiction. As she becomes more and more neutral, she misses the high's and low's, the drama of existence, and her addiction. Won't go back, but still misses sort of.

God:

Sandra misses the passing of the past. She is slightly sentimental about it. She doesn't want it back. Soon she will replace that only addiction with an addiction to peace, an addiction from which she will never recover!

And so, I bequeath peace to all this day. Be in My love, and that is peace. Let Me occupy your hearts today. Throw out fear and make room for Me. Pop Me into your mind like vitamins into your mouth. Take Me 6 times a day with or without meals. No overdose possible. No side effects. Only major effects, like faster growth, healing, and joy. Satisfaction guaranteed. Lifetime guarantee. No purchase necessary. Only ask. Ask Me to come noticeably and spend the day with you.

Say:

"God, make noise in my heart today. Let me know You are there. Let me notice You throughout the day, as Gloria noticed Your headline in the Ottumwa Courier.

"Let me see You everywhere. If I cannot see You, then please remind me to look for you.

"I know you are not a missing person. I am the person missing.

"I bow down to my need to know You and to participate with You in the blossoming of the word.

"Let me know Your will. Let me know mine, for I understand that they are the same, Yours and mine, for we are One in the spinning of Your love.

"I get up off my bended knee, a symbol of my heart's regard for You, my best Self, and now I rise and I raise my eyes to Your love. Amen."