Gloria:

Dear God, as You well know, I think about You a lot. I have been thinking how I run around thinking of all I have to do and I get frustrated and impatient. But You do not. You don't feel You have too much to do. And You don't get impatient or frustrated when things don't go just as You want, except as You are pictured in the Old Testament. There You would get angry and punish people. But that is not the God I know.

God:

I am not a God of retribution.

Gloria:

Are You a God of "As ye sow, so shall ye reap"?

God:

I do not pounce on My children. I do not say, "Aha, you did this, and now you will pay for it."

But within each action is contained its counterpart. Motives bring their own return.

Gloria:

A Course in Miracles talks about cause and effect, that they are one.

God:

Yes, the same.

Gloria:

I experience You as I experience You, dear God. But there are others who experience You differently, and I wonder if they are experiencing You. Judith has asked this before.

For example, the other day someone told me about a story she had heard about a Brazilian healer. This was the story:

For many years, a business man kept hearing the Voice of God telling him he should become a healer. Becoming a healer was far away from him, so, for years, he kept pushing the thought back. Then he had a fall from a great height, the kind of fall that would injure seriously or kill. Well, he had only slight bruises from the accident. And as the story went, God said to him then, "Now will you become a healer?" And then he did.

I cannot imagine that, God. How does someone become a healer all at once? when he didn't want to? And why wouldn't he want to if You did?

You never said to me years ago: "Gloria, you must stop your resume business, and become a writer of My words." If you had, and I heard You, how could I just do that? Even if I wanted to?

As it was, at some point I found myself writing Your words, and then Heavenletters was born. Never did You force me into it, blackmail or bribe me. It was all from love, God.

God:

Yes. Some stories are just stories to make a point. Of course, if I did push someone to become a healer, and he surrendered, he would have the ability.

And you, too, Gloria, had little signs along the way.

As it was, I chose you to bring Heavenletters forth, and you accepted even before you consciously knew what I had in mind. Of course, you agreed to this before you were born. You volunteered for it. I didn't even have to ask.

Gloria:

Wow, I don't know what to say. Thank You.

Judith has asked You about how do we know that something is from You. And now I also wonder in the case of someone I recently met with. She told me that You guide her all the time. But what she told me made me wonder if it is really You.

She told me that You told her she was going to die this year, and she was going to die because she had not fulfilled something you had set for her to do. She had flubbed it.

I cannot recognize You in what she was saying. I can imagine that You might let someone know they are going to die, but it wouldn't be because they had failed something. And if You did in truth tell someone the year of their death, to my mind, they would have peace from it, not fear.

God:

This woman has bits and pieces of My truth. She picks up scraps from Me which she fashions into a whole. She projects her own fears and guilt onto Me.

I answered Judith, "Know Me from your heart".

And this is what I now tell this woman:

Know Me from your heart, not your mind.

Fear is not from Me.

Let Me say that once and for all.

Fear is not from Me.

Fear is illusion.

I give truth.

Fear is of your own making.

It is from taking fragments and writing your own script.

Fear is interpretation.

It is not Mine.

There is another point I would like to make here for all.

This woman felt she had great responsibility, and that she failed.

She made herself too important. She felt she was to create harmony in a certain community situation. All she can do is create harmony around her immediate environs to the best of her ability. She can be responsible for herself. She cannot be responsible for the harmony or disharmony of others. I would not put that weight on any one of My children.

We could say that Jesus' role was to create harmony. And did he not? And yet there was nevertheless disharmony around him. Injustice continued and so on. But he looked at the world from My Vision, and that vision included himself.

This woman must look at herself as I do.

I do not judge her, but if I did, I would judge her well. Can she not look at herself with love? If she cannot look at herself with love, can she not look at Me with love and instead of fear?

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Debra to Heavenletters:

Thank you for your warm welcome. Ruth, who told me about Heavenletters, is a deeply treasured friend.

I have two beautiful children ages three and almost nine. I've been a mom at home for a bit over three years and will go back to work, probably Human Resources work sometime this summer.

I talk with G-d frequently and have come to know a special place in me that only our souls really touch and can see that in others (although seeing it in my ex-husband is sometimes difficult).

Thank you again for your warm welcome.

God to Debra:

You occupy a special place in Me.