Tina to Heavenletters and God:

I am almost starting to get used to God opening doors for me and watching myself just walk in. There is no part of me that credits myself for the upward turn in my life except for the part that believes I am a tiny piece of God! How could anyone but God raise my life such heights?

Thank you, God, for helping me, through Heavenletters, to release Robert, my last husband, so I could resume a life that is more than romantic wishful thinking about someone who never really wanted to be family with me anyway.

And thank You for keeping me and my children (from a previous marriage) afloat for the eight years when I was so obsessed and determined believing that Robert and I would be so good for healing one another's abuse issues and that You would help us create a happy ending with each other if we only had enough faith.

And thank you, the other Heavenreaders who have shared their personal lives. It is somehow so much easier to read and embrace God's words of tough love when the hard truth is given to someone else.

For years my friends have been worried about me because of my issues of despair, resentment, bitterness, control, lack of dependable income, and cancer. My living situation has consisted of my living in my van or in a tent on a friend's land and using her kitchen and bathroom. For the past year, I had a building with electricity.

Now I am moving into a beautiful country home, so spectacular that you would expect to see one like it only in the movies. The person who will be my housemate is so compatible, it is amazing. Only God could have arranged this for me.

I can't wait to invite spiritual holistically-oriented acquaintances and friends to share their perspective on divinity in this beautiful place. I can't wait to garden with the spirits here. Such great praises will be offered to God here! Gloria, you and God might even be giving a workshop at my new home!

God-given abundance and open, trusting hearts abound! All we do is marvel at God's perfection and say YES!

Love from a grateful heart.

God to Tina:

Tina, this is a testament you give to the beauty and wholeness of My children. You recognize Me as your Father. You took My words to heart and opened the world for Me. I accept your invitation to your new home, and I bless you.

Tina to God:

Dear God, I think I need to focus more on generating income, such as house painting, giving massage and counseling. But I know that when I choose personal time for being, I gravitate toward sharing nature and words — through gardening or hiking, storytelling, journaling, and networking on the computer. I gravitate toward being with children or other people who recognize that they require interdependence.

Are You trying to nudge me into realizing that the universe can and will support me if I do what I truly love and set aside all worries about income?

I still struggle every day with allowing the beingness of writing and communicating. I always feel guilty that the time is being taken from all the things that I should be doing. It comforts and encourages me every day in HEAVENletters to take in Your encouragement for more being and less doing. Even someone as stubborn about doingness and control, as I am, can realize this.

I can't imagine, dear God, that I have done enough to earn all You do for me.

God to Tina:

My beloved Tina, there are many areas that you touch on here.

Let's start with your last line. It is not what you do or have done that merits your worth. Read again what I just said.

You do not have to earn My love. You do not have to work for My love. You have My love. You were born with it. You had it before you were born. You do not have to do one thing to earn My love. This is some of what I mean by being. Be in My love. Know it. Being in My love takes away strain, whatever you may be doing.

Now what I am going to say may seem like a contradiction. At the same time as you are freely given My love and benediction and do not have to earn them, you are nevertheless on earth to serve Me.

At the same time as you are on earth to enjoy, you are not on earth to do just as you like. Being doesn't mean that you don't do. Be. Be while you are serving. Being doesn't mean that you don't work for a living. Being and being in truth and being on earth to enjoy don't mean that your focus is on discovering what pleases you, because, dear Tina, preference and truth are not necessarily the same.

Serving Me will give you joy.

You have to surrender some ideas, Tina. Just as you freed Robert and yourself, free yourself of some of your thinking.

All the things you mention that give you joy, do them. Garden, hike, write, communicate, tell stories to children. Working to earn a living does not preclude those from your life.

I do not want you to worry about income. I don't want you to worry about anything. I would like you to know that it is a very good thing to support yourself. Work is a blessing. The structure of work is a blessing. So long as you believe it is a trial, you will avoid it. You have the idea that you can do this and cannot do that. That is like someone who decided long ago that they don't like spinach and avoid it forevermore. You can work and be happy. It is easier to work, Tina, than struggle as you have been.

Recently you made a choice to live in beautiful surroundings. It was your choice. You made it. Just as you made choice to live in primitive conditions. Just as you found a beautiful place to live in, you will always find the opportunities you are looking for, dear one. There are many opportunities around you. You do not have to wait for the grand opportunity.

It is not My desire that you wait for Me to pop your life into place. Don't wait.

Know, Tina, that you are doing very well, and I congratulate you. Your progress is tremendous. But know now that you are on a new level, and there is more to climb. Is this the tough love you have mentioned? It is for everyone, you know.

You mentioned being with other people who recognize that they require interdependence. Interdependence is not required. It already exists. Focus on it says you need it. You don't need what is already and always yours. It will be good for you to gravitate away from interdependence, dear Tina.