in this Heavenletter, God says you don't even exist. Although you seem quite real to me, or perhaps just to yourself, I'm not going to object to that verdict any longer. Too often His words have, after some bleating on my part, proven correct. I will simply stop all those futile attempts to see through you in order to subdue or swat you. There is an old Buddhist teaching story about a man who was hit by an arrow but would not let anyone remove it until he knew everything about the man who had shot the arrow, his motives, what kind of bow he had used and so on. He died, of course. I only want the arrow removed and the wound tended to. I'm not interested in knowing about the whys and wherefores of ego any more.

Why was Christ unable to take offense? Is it some kind of metaphor to say he could not? I don't think so. He really could not because he was where ego is not. Now I am told that I, too, am where ego is not. When I take offense, I feel offended through and through -- but no, The True Being of you is untouched. So while I feel offended and start getting angry, there already is that "part" of me where none of that is the case, where Anger is like a foreign object, unheard of. And this is not somewhere else or sometime later. It's where I am and what I am NOW, wow. This seems to imply that when I'm angry, it's pointless to try to do something about my anger because "most" of what I am knows no anger anyway. Doing something about my anger is ..... your idea again, dear ego!!! It's the strategy you use to keep me in a state of frustration and to ensure your continued reign. Self-improvement is your invention, a truly superb one.

But I think you knew from the beginning that you could not win out in the end. You must have known all along that Inner Being is so far away from anger, it cannot even conceive it. Perhaps you are not really the enemy after all but an ally, ensuring that my yearning for Oneness, for love, for God would grow big enough to burst all perceived shackles.

So what is there to do now? (Do I hear you laugh? Is it a good-natured laugh finally or still the old malicious one?) God says that my heart is not ego-driven. Wow, it IS not. Ego does not have to be scrubbed off it. It was never even touched by ego. Only ego has been louder most of the time. I will never again try to subdue, remove, refine or purify you, dear ego. First, you don't like it; second, it's not working. I can only go where you are not and never were. Going there does not take even one step.

You can only rise higher where [ego] makes no sense and therefore does not exist, not as a proponent nor an opponent. Ego just is a concept that you can no longer conceive of.

This is the thing that seems the hardest to grasp. Freedom from ego already IS, Oneness already IS, total love already IS. They cannot be manufactured, only things of minor relevance can. Simply desire to know Oneness and unconditional Love; feel into that vastness that you already ARE; gently lean toward that which is already there "within" you. Can I believe it is? I feel on the verge of it. If there is anger, frustration, fear, disappointment or any other negative state, I start to sense that there is indeed a "parallel world", now and available now, where all of that is unheard of. I only need to remember to turn there again and again and again.
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I realize this is not really a comment, just my attempt to somehow integrate the earth-shaking revelation this Heavenletter contains for me. Perhaps my reflections can be useful for some of you.

This is my “take” on the Heavenletter:
It seems as if egos are defined by God as those “unnecessary/inappropriate/obsolete” versions of “memory particles” that dirty up our Cosmic Snowball as it descends into it's different Earth environment assignments. (This is cartoon-level physics and biology, but most everyone now knows about what scientists call the “God particle" and some call it the “A particle" which is a memory charged particle).
Note:
The contract/Will of God that each one of us carry within is unique in that it contains a number of ”customized”/specific-to-us Earth assignments. We are to transform/transcend/redeem all those “negative” particles of our past “times” on Earth (whether they be past lifetimes, childhood memories, or yesterday's personality clash) into it's natural (read: as God intended) use. He seems to be inferring that any “unnecessary/inappropriate/obsolete” particles we persist in identifying with only slow us down on our reentry/ascension into Heaven. The process is for our good, and can net a gain in environmental knowledge and also wisdom/understanding, all that stuff.

Now, back to the Heavenletter open for discussion:
Picture two people who live in the same neighborhood happen to encounter each other at the park where they have taken their dogs to run loose. The folks are having a brilliantly interesting conversation. Eventually the dogs return to “check in” with their owners. The dogs start that “dog-challenge” thing only dogs know how to do. Unbeknown to the owners, the dogs had had a stand-off earlier. The brilliant interchange unfortunately is diverted to the dogs. And each owner, of course stands by his dog (kind of like “stand by your man”). We all know how the rest of that originally enriching encounter can quickly go “downhill” from that point onward, right?

Okay, now picture this scene from a conversation between a couple of “particles of memory” that had a “grudge” from a past incarnation interact while their True Beings Owners are engaged in a interactive group.
A memory particle in the TOE of Owner A says to a memory particle in TOE of Owner B after Owner B made an observation intending encouragement:
Particle A: Who asked you, anyway? “Didn't you used to belong to a body that killed me back in the 5th century AD? Or maybe you were the one that tried to get me to sign up for some lynch mob last lifetime?”
Particle B: (slightly piqued) Perhaps. I don't remember stuff like that, so is there something I'm missing? I thought this was Heaven, am I in the wrong place, or what?
Particle A to Owner A's Mind (Owner A's True Being having been interrupted/set aside): “There's something “iffy” about this guy. Danger ahead. Stand aside, hurt or be hurt. Quickly.”
Particle B's Owner to Particle B: Wake up!! You were dreaming!!
Particle B to Owner B: Oh my, we were having a dress rehearsal for Heaven weren't we, and I got this epiphany there for a moment and jumped ahead of You. I am so...sorry. I wish I'd never done that.
Owner B to Particle B: Always “check out” the “dynamics” of individuals involved in a group encounter and/or the boundaries of that group, just like you do in business transactions on Earth so well. Understand this: You DO NOT get to act like a spoiled brat ANYWHERE, Heaven or Earth. You will be vanquished, have your lines censored, get a non-speaking part. Now, go get some peaches and sweet cream, and get ready for the next act, it's called...”ANOTHER TIME, ANOTHER PLACE”.

The “fabricated reality of Reality” is just so outrageously ridiculous, but the learning opportunities are outstanding, amazing, profitable...and can be hilariously fun!! There's probably a zillion scenarios we can imagine worthy of: special-effect movie productions!! SNL Comedy sketches!! Shakespearean Drama!! Sitcom rerun after rerun after rerun!! The implications are fathomless, as memory particles themselves start to bond in various clics/gangs, inciting all sorts of unnecessary drama, which could be oh so easily resolved if we rewrote the play with different dynamics.

Since heart/soul/TRUE BEING came from Heaven and is ALL THINGS LOVE, once we somehow reform/rehabilitate/educate the “no longer valid” or “inappropriate at this time/place” particles of memory so that they no longer INTERFERE, we can proceed Heaven's way with true heart-to-heart encounters.

That's the Higher Consciousness concept as well as can be explained in a few condensed paragraphs. You could call it: Introduction to Higher Consciousness 101.
Just imagine that every day's a new day, every where's a new place. Anything can happen. No thing's impossible.

Bonnie