Hello everyone!
Today’s HL kind of hit me right where I needed. I didn’t even finish reading it before reflecting on it. Here is what came out (as usual, anything between { } is something I got from “not me” ;) )

Quote:

God said:
You are the blessing, and you keep looking for blessing outside of you.

Indeed Lord, I have to admit that it is so often true for me. Even though I know this is ridiculous, and I should only be looking at You and my Soul I keep looking outside for blessings and approval all the time for my action and direction.

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You are the knowledge, and you seek knowledge outside of you. You take one course this weekend, and another the next, and you hope above hope that each course will finally be what you have been looking for and which will offer you salvation – from what you are not sure. What is that you have to be saved from?

Myself?!?!?!
That was my first answer that came to your question, God. Why would I need to be saved from my self?
{Because you keep running away from fear of disaprouvel from your past and from the people around you. Yes, as I often said, there WILL be times people will ridicules your beliefs and action, but I am there also. Your own Soul is there. All the Angels and spiritual guides of all sort are there for you and every one, but at the same time that you seek, you run away from the answer because it challenge your society view of what is “correct behavior”. THAT, you should be running away from.
Let ME arrange for you the teachers and teaching events…
Let ME bless you with the Love you so need, and that just opening your Heart will flood you without doubt.
Let ME raise your consciousness to Love and be a Light to all around, even for those that think they don’t need Love and Light.
You are ALREADY all this, Child of mine… We are all there as ONE and blessing you daily with every thing, so why keep fighting? Why keep searching?
Because you are afraid. Bless this fear, Love this fear and Give it all to Me, and I shall Love it until it is Love and no longer Fear, and share it with all my Children}

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You wait for someone else to set off a spark within you. You wait to be delivered, as it were, delivered from life as you know it. You want a bigger part in the scenario you presently play in. You want to be engulfed in the flames of love. You want to soar to Heaven never to return to the humdrum life even while your feet continue to walk on Earth.

YES! YES! YES! So why am I so scared of letting it out, since it is already inside of me? Why am I lying to my own self…
Huh???? How can I lie to my own self, I am only ME? There is no other inside… This stuff about “ego/False Self” is “bs” because there is only ME as One. I am the one controlling all thought or giving away my control to past beliefs, not even past knowledge, so why do I find it so challenging to take control of those wrong thinking and give them to you?
Why keep on believing in what others have told me, when KNOWLEDGE and TRUTH are right at my fingertip?

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No one is going to give this to you, beloved. No matter how much you desire and how much you seek, you finally come to the door that has your name on it. This is the door you must open. It is you who has to open it to yourself.

Behind this door lie the depths of you. Behind this door lies all that you have been looking for. You have to introduce yourself to yourself. All the formalities in the world won’t do that for you. Others can give you peeks into this Greater Knowledge, but you are the only one who has the key to fit your soul.

Where the frack is it? Where did I put this key so that I can unlock the door! I want IN, God, I want in so much that I made myself believe that I have to find the right teacher, the right Guru that will impart the knowledge I need, because I cannot find it inside of me!
I know very well that once again, via Gloria, you are just reminding us of this knowledge inside of us, but again, why can’t I see it? Why am I so afraid to recover the knowledge of the location of the Key and take it, put it in the lock and open the Door to what I have been searching for?

Quote:

Come to the One Who needs no help yet Who yearns for your participation. Come to the One Who thinks solely about you. Come to the One Who rests within you, ready to wake you up at the slightest nod from you. Ready to greet you. Ready to embrace you, always having embraced you. You discover that you are the one to wake up, and that you are the only one who can wake you.

You have to wake up to the fact that what you seek lies within you. You are the One to awaken yourself. You are the One Who finally wakes up to the fact that you are awake!

That your eyes are closed doesn’t mean you are asleep. You are awake with your eyes closed. Now you open your eyes. Now you look around your heart. And now you see what was always your fortune. And now you are lighted from within. And now you rest in Me as I have always rested within you.

I feel more like a zombie {Can’t! You are alive ;) }, ok then a sleepwalker then, even if you Say that I only have my eyes closed.
{They are closed because once again you are giving yourself away to Fears and imagined monster from your past. Child, there is no monster under the bed or in the closet. There is only US, you included, because again even if we are multiples of Entities, Myself, Jesus, the Holy Spirit, Angels, Archangels, Fairies, Guides and all, WE ARE STILL ONE!
Open your/our Heart and you WILL find the key. Open your Eyes, Ears, Feelings, and all knowledge will be delivered to you instantly, as is your due/inheritance from Me.}
I hear you Lord… I hear you, and although I should be rejoicing right now of the Truth you have just delivered to me, my whole body is stiff with apprehension, with worry of loosing my self, my present life with what is in it (people, things).
But still Lord, again Thank you for these Truth!

Amen
{Again Serge, let go and give me your fear and worries… IT IS THAT EASY!
Love you!}