Hi there, Gloria asked me to post this, apparently these are quite common questions, so.... enjoy. My name's Neil, and it's great to share in this community. Bless ya! Hope we can help each other and expand together.
These are some of my questions to God:
First, what did you mean by don't believe the hype?
Thank you for the continuous support and advice and love. It's so nice to think in terms of a loving deity, not a nasty one to use a childish word.
So I guess what you're driving at is that I don't NEED anything to be happy. This is different from desire presumably. I can grasp that intellectually, but it has not been my experience...yet, but i see no reason as to why it couldn't be. Is it true, the more joyful we are, the quicker desires come to us? Equally, is it true that negative emotions cause negative situations? And if this is "true" how does that differ from "Truth"
It seems the world is going so fast! Everybody seems to have so many problems, and I like to help people, but I cannot sort them all out! The idea of just being able to sit down, be happy and content slowing way down seems wonderful. (Out of the rat race). Equally sometimes i would like to be fast and dynamic.
In relationships, I have certainly experienced attachment to a ridiculous degree, and to be honest it was miserable- yes my relationship history has been a bit colorful to say the least- dependency to the extreme. Now, (and I'm going to be utterly honest here) I'm not sure if I want just sex, or a deeper relationship, or some casual flings. Errm, what DO women want, and why did You make them so complicated Quick question, why did you make sex so powerful, and women so attractive when we have to repress it as much as possible? Did you really mean no sex before marriage? In many cases it no sex after!
You say that money is not enough. Well on instant response, I would like to have plenty- enough to be/do have whatever I wanted, and I would help others as well, with it. I like being generous.
I would rather have money than no money. I am a bit undisciplined really. Now I don't mind hard work as long as I am enjoying it; I would like to balance it though to be honest- have money work for me rather than me work for money. I am on rather low pay where I am, and yes, I desire more. Now if I could do that by following my heart, great. Perhaps there is more in my heart but I am not sure what that is to be honest. Input appreciated.... I like being excited about what I do of course. I love humour- usually rude and edgy!
I do love being on the radio, to entertain, it's a great buzz making people laugh. I like the idea of belonging to a successful organization and the pride and kudos of that, and to say I didn't would be a lie. Radio can be a unifying factor as well as is music. Hmmm purpose is an interesting word. What could that purpose be? And how does one go about finding it? I know, I'll ask God!
So what is your dream God? And how can I help? Are you a good employer? Fancy a beer sometime?
Also, I have realised just how much of my thinking is negative a lot of the time, and there is a part of me that thinks I'm evil, or at least that there is a bad part. Can you reassure me here a bit, and I promise I wont ask again! Let's face it, there are quite a few bits, most probably, that are not that spiritual or not spiritual at all, I can still be compeditive..and worse...and to be honest I'm tired of the inner conflicts and confusion...
You mentioned letting go of wounds and I am willing to- but how?
What could I do, that would be a great success, prosper me and others and be fun in the process, leaving time for play and relaxation?
Don't want to use you as a life coach but...
Still willing to talk directly..
and do You really appreciate me?
With love, Neil