The past is not about you unless you insist it is. Why do I need to read this in a Heavenletter? The moment I read it, it strikes me as my own truth. Why do I have to read it somewhere "out there" to remember? Is it about daring to? Anyway, once I'm past that sentence, I'm on a slide and the next "sentence" is: Nothing is about anything unless I say it is. Gathering speed, the next sentence is only a blur and then there are no further sentences.

Knowing things is what makes life so difficult. Contrary to what I have believed, the solution to life is not in knowing more, not in revelations, not in becoming more aware. We have to speak about awareness and even Heavenletters have to, but what it really comes down to is getting the garbage of thinking and knowing off that which is there and is perhaps best called nature or a smile.

To function in what we call the world, perhaps it is necessary to somehow know what we are doing. I doubt it, but I may be wrong. I am beginning to experience breaks in this world knowing. Not to know that these are keys I have to press k, e, y, s to make the word "keys". Not to know that this is Jochen and that a tree. It's not about forgetting their names. It's about forgetting all the ancient verbal and nonverbal definitions. And really it's not even about forgetting. Look out the window and suspend for a moment your knowing about whatever you see.

It can't be done, of course. But perhaps we can be open to having our heart touched by something God – we – may say tomorrow or may have said in an old Heavenletter.

"Love keeps no records...I am not like an accountant...I am not caught up in the past"
I had my breakfast in the bathtub, afterward I went out on a walk with my blackbird to the collar, I bought cigarettes, which I do not smoke, to read what it is written on the packet, I sat down at the outdoor table of a coffe bar, I drank my coffee, it was, as usual, disgusting. I will try again tomorrow, it will be delicious, unless I say it will be not.

In my "Wonderland", of living on this cosmic step ladder, I hear the Cat shout: "George, you got to run as fast as you can to stay where you are." Then the Lion on the yellow brick road growls: "George, we ain't in Kansas any more,. we'll get a heart up that road a bit!" Because i like the dance, even the getting up now and then, I'm in love with IS just as it IS. This Letter tells us how to get more.

It's my impression that IS is always in the now, at no other time does IS manifest as IS. I suppose that's not important at all unless you're hooked on existence which only shows up in the now as IS. This may sound like some sort of circle, but it really is. Life's like that. Being caught on God's carrosel you just have to grab at that brass ring as you swing by. Life's like that too.

The end of this story is so darn cute; you get to tell a different story if you want to, the next time around.

George

God asks "of what use if the past.." Well, how about life lessons learned and the evolution of the soul?

Whenever God declares that "today is a special day" (and it happened a few times in earlier Heavenletters) I am excited and, at the same time, I know I will be "disappointed" at the end of the day. Of course, it is because I try to analyze it. But when I read that "Today you have a new start...You can make today anything you want", I wonder how I can start anew without the past. By "without the past" I mean that there is nothing on this Earth that we can really do or imagine without memory and without copying nature. How can I imagine a new life where there is no memory, a life where I will create only with vibrations, without any preconceived images, without any known tools? How can I even imagine painting without colors, singing without notes?

So after reading this Heavenletter, I decided not to post any comment until I would stop analyzing this letter and let it simmer on the stove for the rest of the day. So, last night, wanting to relax without having too much to think, I watched the movie "Collateral damage" with Arnold Schwarzenegger. Without entering into the details of the scenario of that movie, let us say that it concerns personal revenge into the context of political operations. You want to kill somebody because this somebody has killed your wife and your kid in a terrorist attack.

While watching this deadly fight between Good and Evil, between Democracy and Military Governments…I started feeling TOTALLY NEUTRAL watching this conflictual scene. By totally neutral I mean that I saw the whole scenery as a game like if the fight between the Good and the Bad was absolutely nothing but a game that we take seriously. And this NEUTRAL STATE in my heart made me feel a huge amount of Compassion towards us, the human species. It is such a liberation to discover that Compassion is so encompassing, yet it is not emotional at all. It floats above duality like Love, because Compassion is Love. Non-judgement is also a dynamic state of Love.

So when God said (earlier) that "TODAY IS A CONJUNCTION OF YOUR LIFE", I think that effectively there was a new conjunction of my life. These words were not only metaphor because I knew that today is/was the 24th of August and it was x o'clock.

I just realized so intensely that what makes me believe that I cannot really change myself deeply is that I am looking for consistency of life. And the seek for consistency is our very human bias. My past experiences are based on a consistency model of our physical perception of the Universe. This perception has a premice which says that we are alone in the Universe and that the essence of our world is duality. So is science which uses a dual consistency model of observed phenomena and deducted laws. We live in a parameter, a paradigm that pertains only to our relative 3 or 4 D dimension. And what are the constants that give this consistency its apparent solidity? What else then struggle for power and control, hunger, and war?

What if we started operating a shift in our consistency model of life? What if we substitute God's intelligent design to the Big Bang Theory of the beginning of the Universe? What if we substitute Neutrality to Duality? Peace does not oppose to War, Love does not oppose to HATRED. Compassion does not oppose to Harshness. Love is One, Neutrality is One, Compassion is One.

What if we really started believing that the physical law or the real consistency of life on earth is Peace? Is this new conjunction a way of saying that there is a new magnitude to Earth, a New World of Space and Time? I believe more and more so. We have to stop thinking that there is nothing that will happen that has not happened before (according to our old consistency model of life). On the contrary, we have to EXPECT things that have not happened before. How can we create otherwise than believing in the UNEXPECTED? That seems how life really operates. The magic of life is the magic of God's way of doing things which we can reproduce. God told us many times to copy him. Do we? This is a tremendous shift in our way of seeing Reality, a shift where we don't fear anymore the world because we are put in control of the world in conjunction with God. And the past is an obsolete consistency model of life.

Last night was the longest of the year. We had a fire in the garden to celebrate the new beginning, and it was beautiful and warming, even our cat seemed close to interested.

Today is a gray day, but to the south, over the mountains, there is so much light and coming closer.

You can take the same bus or take a new bus or walk or skip or simply be a new you on the same bus.

If I would pray at all, today I'd ask that all I know be taken from me so I can be a new me on that beloved old bus. What an impossible load, all that useless knowledge. Yes pin it all together off to one side.