A Little Voice within You Contradicts Your Higher Self
You would love, above all, if many of the thoughts that run through your mind would leave you alone.
You want to be pure and true, yet your mind hassles you. It won't leave you alone. You yearn for freedom of thought, yet you too often have thoughts that you wish you would not have.
Beloveds, you want to leap over your errant mind and rise high.
You do believe that I have made you something great, and, with all your might, you want to be great and reveal the Truth of Who you are and so bless the world. You are tired of riff-raff thoughts about others – and yourself – thoughts that plague you and won't leave you alone. You no longer want to badger others in your weary mind. You deeply desire to go beyond the petty demeaning of yourself and others in your life.
You wonder how you can know as much as you do and, seemingly, be unable to live the fullness of what you know. You want the way of peace. Sometimes all you want is peace and to get beyond the remarks in your mind.
You want to be real and, certainly not merely a good show you put on. Where do your errant thoughts come from, and how can you quell them once and for all?
Tell your mind to be quiet, to stop the remarks that pop into your head. You would vanquish these thoughts if only your mind would desist. Your mind does not desist. Your mind rattles on and snipes at this one and that one. Would that your mind would give you some peace and quiet and not keep panning the world and those struggling souls in it.
You want to be filled with goodness and mercy, and yet your mind makes untoward remarks right and left. A little voice within you contradicts your Higher Self time and time again. You parody yourself. You taunt yourself with the jibes you make that would offend others and make mince pie of all that you yearn to be, and, still, the thoughts go on.
Two lines of conversation seem to go along in your mind almost at the same time. You tell yourself that you are good and kind, yet the refrain you hear says:
"You think so? You play so."
Beloveds, an undercurrent runs through your mind. It's like you set up bowling pins only then to knock them down. You are Aeschylus of Greek mythology who must roll the log up the mountain only for it to roll down again. You keep having to start over day after day. This is how it is with your accumulated dismay at yourself. You lament the bickering that your mind seems to full of."
You call out to Me:
"Please, God. Make me of one mind. Keep my ungainly thoughts out of my mind. Make my mind one of grace. Get me out of this mental chaos I seem to be in. Help me to be one way, not two. Give me One mind. Give me One heart. Keep contradiction away from me. What is all this stuttering that my mind jabbers? I weep at the incessant verbiage that is parked in my mind. Keep out these arguments from my heart and mind. I want to be a good soul. I want, and I want, and sometimes I don't get anywhere. I find myself back where I don't want to be. Would that I could have mercy on myself and stop my mind from its nit-picking.
"God, please free me from what keeps me back from the Glory You would have me reveal. Pull out all the chaff from the wheat that I harbor within me. I am so tired of not being all or even half of what I long to be and that You wish me to be."
All right, then. I declare you free from the past and all the contradictions housed within you. I claim peace for you now. No more tyranny from the past. Starting right now, I tell you that you have nothing to do with any remnants of uncharitableness. I clear your mind of them.
From your side, if unwanted thoughts appear, go over their heads and supersede them with the thoughts you want to have. Your will is even more powerful than random unwanted thoughts that come from out of the Dark Ages of the Past.
So be it.