Christy to Gloria:

I was just vacuuming and had the sweetest vision of Ginger in all her dogginess. What a precious gift she has been and will continue to be in our memories for those of us who knew her. Hugs, Christy

Tina:

Dear Gloria and God, I was amazed by how similar were the concerns of Gloria's and mine, and the wisdom from You, God, in reply to us. On April 2, the Heavenletter was about Gloria's extra feeling of loss and focus resulting from Ginger's passing from the physical. My question to God on March 29 was similar, about the loss of focus with further separation from my family. My recent published question in HEAVEN was tied to this theme about "special needs" seeming to call for extra focus when I said I felt more love flowing to people who were conscious of their interdependence (because their special needs made it impossible for them to imagine that they were independent).

Your answers to each of us were so similar in defusing the drama. I'm so glad that You are making it clear that the focus point is not a sort of contact that should be switched on all the time. (Somehow, in the March 28 Heavenletter, I had misread Your message to mean that we needed the focus always in our Earth existence. Thank You for continuing to unfold the focus topic for our expanded awareness.

A Heavenletter in regard to this matter, actually written before this e-mail from Tina arrived, will appear here April 8, 2000. — Gloria

Gloria to God:

I know that in my mourning Ginger, I am mourning more than Ginger alone. It is like Ginger triggered my mourning that already was. Even in my love for her, she is an alibi for my mourning to come out.

God:

There is truth there. There is also judgment. You think it is bad to mourn and to mourn over more than Ginger alone.

Gloria:

In the case of anxiety over what I pin my anxiety on, it also is really based on more than what prompts it, isn't it?

God:

A fly buzzes around you, and it is annoying. But you never kept in your annoyance at a fly. You honored your annoyance. You were never afraid of a fly. You never took the fly personally, so now you don't have residual upset when another fly buzzes around you.

But you have harbored all the times you allowed someone to step in your space. You have accumulated these intrusions, and they hammer in your heart for you to let them go. Yes, this current situation is the fall guy for it all. It emblemizes any affront you ever let pass by.

Gloria:

God, when I feel anxiety, how do I know when I am taking it on or releasing it? It seems to feel the same.

God:

Why do you have to know? Just be done with it. Come back to Me.

Gloria:

You have said something like: everything is the way we look at it. I have a good example of that. Before Ginger was sick, if she had wobbled when she walked, I would have been dismayed. After Ginger became sick, and she could walk wobbly, my heart was lifted.

God:

Life on earth is called life in the relative. On earth, all is relative. All is your impression of it. And your impression can change along with all the other change.

That is a good reason why you want to appreciate your lives. You have good reason to appreciate. Your leg may hurt one day, and you limp and complain whereas a man in a wheelchair would be grateful to have your pain and your limp. A man confined to bed would be glad to be in a wheelchair.

Gratefulness reveals a greater vision of the universe. Instead of attention on lack, it puts attention on what you have been given.

Holding on to wanting is holding on to dissatisfaction.

Every time you say or think, "I want more money. I must have more money," you are looking at what you think you don't have.

Better to think, "Look at all I have. I am rich. I have a car, a home, food to eat. I live amidst plenty. I am blessed. I have trees and flowers and the sky all around. I have people I love and who love me, and I have God, the Greatest of All."

And even if you had no friends, no family, no car, you still would have God.

Think of it! You have God!

Now some would rather have a car, or want a car first.

Gloria:

It's awfully hard in this country to get along without a car.

God:

But think of all the advantages! You wouldn't have to find the keys. You would walk. You would see people helping you. You would be humbler. You would pay more attention to life instead of speeding off somewhere. Even being without a car has its advantages. That is how it is better for you than you think.

I am not saying to give up your car. I am not saying I want you to be without one. I am saying that if it happened, it isn't the bad thing you fear. Nothing is the bad thing you fear.

Dear Ones, being without a physical possession also removes your identity from it back to Me.

Who are you? To many, you are your car, your home, your relationships, your achievements.

If you had no achievements, who are you? I will tell you who you are.

You are God's child. Wouldn't you like to think of yourself as My child? My beloved child?

Your thinking creates your reality. Your feeling creates your reality. Your appreciation creates your reality. Your sense of truth creates your reality.

You are connected to Me no matter what you feel. That is reality. But there is also your reality, your spin through life as you see it. I suggest you take Me with you.

I am not something added to you. I am not another responsibility. I am not work. I am not weight. I am the Easer of life. The Enhancer. The Filler of life. The Provider. The Glorifier. The Encompasser. The Wielder.

I am the Core of you. You take Me with you anyway. Might as well know Who rides with you.