Update from Tina:

Dear Gloria, I do receive your wonderful Heaven messages with colors and different size letters, and I love the colors God's work brings into my world every day. Thank you so much for spending so much time with God every day and then spending time again to share so much with all of us. The couple of days I did that, I got some appreciation for your labor of love.

Thank you.

P.S. I had a wonderful insight, and I realized how much of it was a continuation of the HEAVENletter about Lauren and her father.

Much of my own healing and reconnecting has been a workout around issues with my parents (I guess this goes without saying, since it's universal). It was good for me to read Lauren's question and God's answer. I was relieved to realize that mostly what came up for me was love and faith in the process. I guess that is some of what God means about being neutral.

In my old days, I would have been jumping up and down inside, taking sides and cursing the "bad guy", wanting him to have the pain come back around to bite him. I guess neutral means that at least a good portion of the releasing has been real. When an old wound gets rubbed, as those messages served to do for all of us, we are given the gift of opportunity to feel how much is still festering.

I am in an interesting place with my control issues and detachment, neutral, etc. I am witnessing how much my "good deeds" even seem as though they are control. I learn more every day about how much space I take up in my own life, at the expense of how much I allow God to operate in it.

I am noticing shifts and changes in my thought patterns/habits. I have been focused on taking care of myself in physical ways, getting ready for winter the past few weeks. My thoughts are harder, and, when I am so busy, I think about God only at times of danger.

Whenever I get decisive about how to spend my time, I notice that I slip into feeling more judgmental in general. I look forward to days when I throw myself into life, and remember to keep God in my thoughts at the same time.

I am in the middle of reading The Hiding Place by Corrie Ten Boom. Thank you for the recommendation!

Gloria:

Dear God, one thought leads to another, and readers' thoughts develop mine. What Tina says — it is like she had the thoughts and words to say what I wasn't even aware enough to be clear on, but when she speaks her thoughts, I know they're mine as well.

God:

One's healing heals another. It doesn't even need to be spoken. When it is, however, it focuses you on where you are. It rings a bell in you, like a timer set off to wake you up and remind you of today.

All who read heartfelt questions are healed. Do you know why?

It is because of the honesty. It is the honesty that rings a chord in others.

Gloria:

Karen said yesterday that everyone has to do the work to earn their right to be with Christ, and that that work is to be truthful. She said that being truthful makes us grow.

God:

Anything but honesty is a waste of time. And much time is wasted. What is not honest is only an appearance of honesty. It is a fraud perpetuated on one's self. That is a game that you can only lose on, though you may delude yourself that you have gained something. There really is no one to lie to but yourself.

Let Me tell you something else. When you are honest, you are not controlling. The act of controlling tries to order the events. Fear makes for control. Only love does not control.

Gloria:

Karen also spoke of simplicity. She said it is earth-boundedness that complicates. Heaven simplifies. Pure love is simplicity.

God:

Oneness is always simpler than much. One whole is simpler than many parts of the same whole. Pieces complicate. Fragments are shards broken off from truth.

Gloria:

Mother Divine said some things yesterday through Karen. She said that flowers and nature are here to remind us of the other side.

God:

Whatever is beautiful here on earth reminds you of the other side. Beauty tickles a Heaven-echo within each heart.

Gloria:

Mother Divine also wants me to have more time for myself. She suggested that I do Godwriting directly onto the computer.

She suggested that I ease into it.

I know You and Mother Divine are everywhere, and You don't need me to write with a purple pen in order to gather your words, and yet, I tried the computer earlier this morning, and I felt it was start and stop, not the flow I usually feel with a notebook on my lap up in the tower of my bedroom.

God:

We will have to get you a laptop that you can hold on your lap in the tower of your bedroom.

Gloria:

Yesterday I had the thought that when we drive ourselves, push ourselves, as Bev may have, that's when we make demands of You. We see You as ourselves. Like, if I am not doing enough, You're not either! If I am relaxed with myself, You are doing fine!

I further thought that I need to think of everything I do as though I am doing it towards You. Every word and thought is directed to You. What Mother Divine said the other day about sending out love made an impact on me. My whole feeling changed towards someone who has been giving me a hard time.

In my mind, I had composed nasty letters back to him. Just like what Tina said, I wanted to bite him back — and do him one better.

After this change in my feeling, I thought I would be kind, and so I sent him a short note saying he wasn't forgotten and he would be answered fully very soon.

I got an email back from him right away, and I felt all my distress coming back, and I didn't even want to open his email because I was so sure it would be nasty. I even wrote a whole thing to You about how I am a sucker for giving him another opportunity to rail at me.

Finally I opened his email, God, and read it, and it was nice! He said: "Thank you. It is a nice to hear from you. Not being forgotten is all I needed to hear."

Did I build all this up in my mind? What is going on? What do I think life is all about?

God:

You are getting on to something. This life is not a dress rehearsal. You are on stage now, and what you make of it is what you make of it. How you see it is how you perform. Nothing is private, even in privacy.

All has an effect.

All does reach Me.

Of course, I can take it. It all rolls off Me, for I see the truth, no matter how it is hidden.

Your silent love sent out to this person reached him. It was not the email you sent, do you understand?

When you were responding to this person's sharpness, you were letting him control you. Every time you bounced away from him, you were letting him control you. This person sees Me as an enemy, and therefore he sees enemies all around, and he tried to turn you into one. He almost succeeded.

And when you were composing those nasty mental letters, you were trying to control him.

Let Me worry about justice and injustice and fairness and unfairness.

What can anyone take away from you when you have so much?

Remember neutral. No one else really has to do with how you feel. Like Lauren's letter healing Tina — her letter was a reminder to Tina, that's all.

This person was a reminder to you. Do you think it is necessary to have more reminders, or will you remember?

Gloria:

I will remember.