Abby to God:

Dear God, I just got smacked with the news that my plan for going to school next year is all but impossible. I was going to study costume design at DePaul University. However, when I researched the school I apparently neglected to take note of the tuition. My mom didn't notice either until just now that it is way too expensive for me.

Well, technically I could still go, but I'd have a ton of debt when I got out plus it would be a huge financial pinch for my family the whole way through.

I really wanted to go there. I wanted to so much! They have a wonderful program that I just know I would love. It was what I really wanted to do, but I can't bear to impose that much on my parents for the money it would cost them, and I'm also tired of having such a terribly tight budget.

It was so hard for me to make this decision, and it had to be made in just a few hours. Was I wrong? Should I have gone with what I wanted to do anyway? Because now I have no idea what I'll do. I don't want to go back home to stay. There really isn't anything for me there.

Perhaps this is a silly thing for me to be so upset about, but it makes me feel totally helpless. So I give up. I can only leave this up to You, God. Please help me to remember that and to accept this situation.

God to Abby:

Write to the school and tell them of your situation. Tell them how much you want to go to their school. Ask them if they know of a way for you to attend. Write to a high person, perhaps the president.

And then do not be attached.

Abby, whatever you do or decide is right.

It is right for you to go the school of your choice for the study of your choice. What could be wrong with that?

It is also right for you to go home and find out what is there, for surely there is something there that will open you up to more of My love.

My love, there is no one right course. There are many right ones.

Your earthly and Heavenly destination is clear. You know where you are going. And you will get there.

It is a delicate line between holding on to what you want and going after it. It is a delicate line between non-resistance and giving up.

You have revealed your advancement, dear Abby. You know you don't have to have the school of your choice. You reveal beautiful non-attachment. Your life does not depend on your going to that school now. Nor does the goodness of your life does depend on another alternative either.

There is no way to chart the exact course of your life. If you go to the school of your choice, certain things will happen, you will meet certain people, and an irreversible chain that affects your whole life is set in motion.

If you don't, at this time, go to the school of your choice, certain things will happen, you will meet certain people, and an irreversible chain that affects your whole life is set in motion.

There is no way for you to know an exact account of either beforehand. You do not know fully what you are choosing. You can only know the basis which you presently know. It is not simple either/or. Each choice contains many choices within it. You are choosing a multitude of later choices when you choose one now.

So you trust in Me and yourself, and you live your life. What else is there to do with it?

In one sense, you have one choice in life to make, and you have made it. You have chosen Me, have you not? And that means choosing yourself.

No matter what turn in the road you take, I am with you. You know I am with you.

So whether it is this school or that school or this one now and that one later, you have Me.

Just as whether you are Christian or non-Christian, you have Me.

All the surroundings and all the names are surroundings and names. They are background settings of the Real.

Abby, you and I are the Real.

You know how you said earlier that you are grateful for the Swing Dances, how you just go along with the music without paying too much attention to knowing the steps, and you enjoy. That is just why you enjoy it so much, not getting caught up in the steps. You dance. This is just how to live life, Abby. Be not concerned much with the steps of your life. Stay with the rhythm. Just go out there and dance and enjoy, for it is to be enjoyed. Life will be good to you, Abby.

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John to Heavenletters:

It was obvious the other day that you were repeating my questions that were addressed to you, to God. I found God's words perfect:

"[HeavenLetters are] another way of knowing Me which is to say having awareness of being Me. Your friend also gets something from reading Heaven. No matter what he has, there is more. That is infinity. Always more. Not arrival, but arriving. Arriving to where you already are. Again and again."

As far as HeavenLetters being about questions. Well I beg to differ. Questions may point our attention to that which is beyond understanding. They are not an end in themselves, at least that's my opinion.

I want to invite you over to view the database which is pretty much ready.

God to John:

A question is one way to word an answer. And an answer is another way to word a question. An answer leads to another question. Question/answer is a formality. Whatever keeps the heart open is good.

We will talk more, John.