What you think you want and what you truly deep-down want may be two different things. You already know you have in the past desired something or someone, and you didn't get what you had your mind and heart set on. Perhaps a thread of you understood that you were better off without that which you desired, but you wanted what you wanted and you did not want to believe otherwise, is this not so? At the time your dream broke, you were devastated, and later you may have found yourself relieved. Now you know that what formerly was a great disappointment and loss to you was a blessing all along.