Desire to Desire God Above All
Gloria to God:
Dear God, lately I have been waking up early in the morning, sometimes 3 o'clock, and I am wide-awake, and so I get up and write to You. And I am energetic all day, as if I had had enough sleep.
For years, if I would wake up early and not fall back to sleep, I would struggle to get back to sleep, and if I did not, I would feel upset and sleep-deprived and grumble and drag around all day because I did not have enough sleep.
Of course, then I did not know I had You to write to. You are something now that I love to get up for.
What I believe now is that I used to think I was deprived, and, therefore, I was. And now, I don't feel that I am deprived, and so I am not! Can it be that simple?
God:
Yes. Not only can be. That is only how it can be.
Gloria:
If I were to miss a meal unwillingly, or not feel I had had enough to eat, I would feel deprived. But if I could feel that the same food and amount was good and enough and not feel deprived, mistreated, neglected etc., then it would be enough?
God:
When you do not feel deprived, you are satisfied, and it is enough.
If you did not feel deprived, you could live on air.
You can only feel deprived of anything when you do not believe I have given you everything.
Was it my rule that you need eight hours sleep? Or three full meals a day? Or that dessert? Or that second helping? Did I say that if you don't have it, you will be hungry or perish or forlorn? Not I. I did not say that. The world says that.
When did I say you have to have this vitamin or that mineral? Did Jesus worry about his diet? He ate what was put before him, and he knew it was good. His heart made it good. His vision made it good. His awareness of My love in each bite made it good. It was Christ and I all the way.
Gloria:
Dear God, I see your point, and it is exhilarating. It is like being freed, and life simpler.
Yet, dear God, in Jesus' time, there was no Coca-Cola and other man-made foods. He had pure water and all natural foods that were closer to You.
God:
He did. And His consciousness was so great that he could have swallowed tainted food and turned it into ambrosia. He drank only love. He ate only love. He saw only love. He saw Me serving food to him.
Now, you are not at that point. Food closer to the soil shows you more of My love than food further from the soil. It is that simple.
Gloria:
If I could see You in Coca-Cola, then it would nourish me?
God:
If you believed in Me…
But you are not drawn to Coca-Cola. You don't have to drink it. You don't have to be afraid or it either.
Gloria:
So the things that irritate me irritate me because I say they do. If I did not have the concept of irritation, they would not?
God:
They would be like anything else. Something that passes by. The music is too loud? So, the music is too loud. What does it have to do with you? Someone cut in front of you? So, someone cut in front of you.
It is the meaning you put on it that makes it irritating to you. You think you are being discounted or not even noticed. You think you have had injury done to you in some way.
Do you remember My letter about littering? You could read that again.
Gloria:
How I look at everything is how it is?
God:
Yes, when it is truly how you look at it.
Gloria:
If I think only goodness is coming to Me, only goodness comes to me?
God:
If you could really know that, you wouldn't think it. You would be it. You didn't think that four or five hours sleep was enough. You discovered it. It became your desire to greet Me earlier in the day, and everything else fell into place.
Keep looking to Me, and you will walk a straight path.
You didn't keep looking to Me so that I would help you need less sleep. You kept looking to Me, and sleep became incidental. Your attention was in the right place.
It is not new to you to desire to eat less. You have held on to that desire, that obligatory desire, as a dog with a bone. Let go of that desire. It is too small. Desire to be with Me. Desire Me. Desire All of Me. Desire the whole Kingdom and not just a piece of it.
Desire to desire Me above all. I am all-inclusive of everything. I will fill desires you didn't know you had. You don't have to know them. They already have been filled. I packed it all for you and sent you on your way. I didn't forget. You forgot.
Remember Me. If you cannot remember Me, remember My love. If you cannot remember My love, remember sweetness. If you cannot remember sweetness, cast your remembrance into the future and feel what it would be like, or cast your remembrance to this moment and know Me now.
Gloria:
Dear God, lately there have been several references to Jesus, the Christ. I hope no one thinks that Heavenletters is Christianity or anything. I am Jewish and have come to love the beingness of the man named Jesus. It is his being I love.
God:
These days you are looking for things to worry about. I am nondenominational. I say it here once and for all. I belong to no religion. I do not separate My children into groups or sects. I love My children. And all are My children. All are My sons and daughters, and not one of them is favored above others. I favor them all.
You are all coming to reveal the Christ within you, and that is the same Christ that was within Jesus. It is My being in Jesus that you have come to love, the same being that is within you.
Gloria:
It was when I watched Jesus Christ Superstar for the first time — this was a few years ago — that I started to feel Christ's love. I watched that movie about 125 times, and, at some point, my heart started to return the love I was receiving from him. But it was his humanness in the movie that drew me. He had friends who let him down and so on. He could get angry. He was human.
All my life I knew about his holiness, but it was his humanness as revealed in the movie that brought me near him.
God:
His humanness gave you hope, Gloria.
And you once knew him as a human. You were there. All the present Heavenreaders were there.
But that is all I will say for now, except for My desire that you may all have a blessed day of giving thanks.

