Hi Paula,
Beautiful story. I love it as it reflects what most
people feel, even those who we perceive to have it
all. Can you connect directly to God? Of course, as
you are God already. The original meaning of sin was
"ignorance", ignorance of who we really are. When we
see ourselves as separate from God, needing to seek
him out, then we come up against challenges that
easily lead us into areas that the Church associates
with sin. We become fearful, jealous, envious, angry,
etc., etc. ONLY by remembering our god nature do
these things dissolve. The path to remembering that we
are God, is outlined in heavenletters. God IS LOVE.
Practice the love of God, give out the love that God
gives us, and we begin to remember that WE are love.
WE are God.

Love and Heavenwriting,
Robert

--- paula <g [dot] forabosco [at] tin [dot] it> wrote:

Quote:

I know I already wrote and posted the story of my
life on this forum, but
I wrote this story of my spiritual journey for
Gloria, as we are kind of making trials for an
online workshop. I didn't want to post it on the
forum but Gloria thinks that it could be an
inspiration for someone. Anyway, it's different from
the story of my life as I tried to keep it short
talking only about the spiritual turning points.
Well, here it is:

MY SPIRITUAL JOURNEY

I can say that my spiritual journey began only after
my father’s death, when I was about forty years old.
Till that moment I’d had no thoughts about religion
or spirituality. When I was a child, I knew there
was something more to life, but the Lutheran
religion considered sinful anything that was fun, so
I refused it completely. When I had my First
Communion, I expected something miraculous to
happen, just a feeling perhaps, but nothing
happened.

So I just lived my worldly life getting more and
more depressed. And when my father died, I touched
the bottom. I can remember the exact moment when the
spark in my heart was lit: it was a look from the
eyes of a man who recognized me. And so I recognized
myself. Then I found, apparently by chance, a book
entitled ‘Knowing yourself to Love God’. It was the
first of many. I never seemed to have enough. I
wanted to be enlightened and the most enlightened of
all.

It was my ego that wanted to shine in front of other
people. I was given what I wanted. I had an
experience where I was first taken up, admired by
everyone, above all by the voices I heard in my
head. And then I was taken to hell, with the same
voices denigrating me. In one week’s time I was
confronted with all my deepest desires and all my
deepest fears. Eventually I got out of it, and I
learned the lesson. But this experience left in me
also a fear and a distrust in the messages and the
voices that come from the ‘other side of the veil’.

I kept reading spiritual messages and, eventually,
started translating them. But I was very selective
on what to believe and what to translate. And every
time I thought I’d found the top, that there
couldn’t be anything that went beyond, something
even more profound came to me. Now, I realize that
there’s never an end to learning and to knowledge. I
must admit that I don’t know where I am on my
spiritual journey. And maybe it doesn’t matter
either. To be honest, I just feel tired of the
doubts and struggles. At times, I would just like to
stop existing.

I’ve been looking for knowledge and enlightenment
from outside. I’ve been trying to find a master or a
guide, but it seems that I don’t have any. I used to
follow an Indian teacher, a very evolved and loving
master. He gave me a seed of a holy tree which he'd
received from his old Master. Then one day I went on
an excursion in a hermitage, a sacred cave located
under a flow of water and I felt I had to leave the
seed there and I heard this quiet voice that said:
'You will have no other masters but me.' - I felt
it was God speaking to me, but I’ve never admitted
it to myself.

I always felt I was somehow connected directly to
God, but I thought it was presumptuous from me to
believe it. Now I’m tired of my own doubts and I
would like to try Godwriting to see whether I can
overcome my own fear. The only question in my secret
heart is: Am I truly to connect directly to God? And
my only desire is to overcome my ego and my little
personality and be – without any doubt – a hollow
reed for God’s love to pour into the world.

Paula

Writing my spiritual journey was very important
because it made me notice many things. I never
realized what God really means when he says that we
should see like Christ did. But now I realize that
it's only recognizing people. The man who looked at
me actually 'saw' me, and that lit a spark inside me
and I realized that I truly existed. I also realized
that what blocks my Godwriting is a fear of
connecting to something else than God. And I also
realized that I don't want any beautiful and gentle
words, but I would like a straighforward guidance
for my own life, to be able to serve God at best.
(But I think this is not how they work on the other
side. - Because of this free will stuff, of course.)

--------
Safe in My arms you're only dreaming.
Love is the Answer.

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Hi Paula,
I'm guided to speak to your "fear of connecting to something else than God". (I apologize if this is info you already KNOW and this feels insulting.) Please remember that Intention is everything. You have the protection you need from negative, shadow energy - you just have to ask. Doing whatever works for you personally: praying, meditating, envisioning, clearly stating your intention, etc. - simply ask that you be protected from all lower energies. When I was first given this information, my fearful EGO said, "Yeah, right!" with much smart alecky attitude. However, after relinquishing and releasing just a few of my ego's fears, it began to work like...well, a miracle! I continue to practice and this gets easier and more natural to do.
Watching those fears melt in the heat of LOVE and bidding you PEACE!
Jo

Writing my spiritual journey was very important because it made me notice many things. I never realized what God really means when he says that we should see like Christ did. But now I realize that it's only recognizing people. The man who looked at me actually 'saw' me, and that lit a spark inside me and I realized that I truly existed. I also realized that what blocks my Godwriting is a fear of connecting to something else than God. And I also realized that I don't want any beautiful and gentle words, but I would like a straighforward guidance for my own life, to be able to serve God at best. (But I think this is not how they work on the other side. - Because of this free will stuff, of course.)