When I was young, I didn't feel I had anyone to talk to about my deepest feelings, so I turned to journaling. I wrote and wrote for years and when I did, I felt like at least God was listening, that God cared and loved me unconditionally.
As a child, I went with my mom and brother to synagogue weekly. There was a feeling of family and warmth. When I became a teenager, I went to other churches and temples of worship. I loved to praise and worship God in all the forms and rituals. I wanted to be a nun or the first woman rabbi! I always prayed for God to use me to help others.
I loved to create thru words and thru art form as well. I learned to meditate and over the years a variety of creative expressions flowed thru me. I never felt it was me, the small self, but that there was a greater awareness that flowed thru, and I always felt it was God or the Higher Self.
I allowed the abstract art forms to create themselves. And as my heart filled with greater and greater love for God, music and words flowed thru me that I later came to realize were non-denominational hymns. Devotional poetry also expressed itself thru my form.
Having focused on some personal healing for some time, I had gotten away from the creative expression of my soul. I have just started to get back in touch with that source that I AM.
I don't know that I need the workshop for Godwriting, because I have been doing that for years. Yet something is drawing me towards it and I honor that momentum coming from within.
Maybe I just want to see what it is all about; maybe I want the support of others doing something similar; maybe I need to feel okay about what I have done for years. I don't really know. I'll find out more after the workshop is over.
All I know is that I love God and I want to allow more and more that deeper part of myself the freedom to express what it wants to express. And I am grateful for the opportunity to experience the upcoming workshop.