As I look back,
Hello everyone,
My name is April...And instread of me writing about my whole life I choice to just use the questions below...
What are some of the surpriss you see?
I am a CNA and Hospice Nurse. I have really learned a lot from my clients To embrace what life gives you and just live for the moment.
What were the greatest influences on you?
My father his firm hand in my life, Structure, love, and always being there for me. Lynda a women I highly admired becuz she toke me under her wings and form me into a woman I am proud tobe today.
If you were to draw a map of your spiritual development, what might it look like?
A jagged Heart. My life has never truly been smooth. Nothing has ever been easy, I had to work my way to achieve all I wanted and prove myself I could do it when everyone else side I couldn't. But Today I have my GED, I am a certified CNA, I wrote a book,
I recently got Married to a wonderful Godly man, and I truly have many other goals I am going to meet and be who I want to be not who others want me to be.
What are three great things you have learned in life?
Patients allows you to grow spiritually
Love hurts, but what hurts you heals
Nothing is what is seems, always take the time to get bring joy into some ones life.
What are three dominant experiences you have had that may have been pointing to God?
1. When I was molested as a child by my father it was gods teaching how taught me to forgive, and except my father back into my life.
2. When Lynda died my teacher, only woman who loved me as her own and believe in me and taught me to believe in myself. Without her encouragement I'd given up. But through god's grace and his mercy he carried me through to wherre I needed to be.
3. My father killed in 2008 and finding god's face daily for his strength, to do his work and to allow him to drawl me closer and he wrote a beautiful book through me and how I reach for him for his healing.
What are some of the steps that brought you to the place in your spiritual life where you are now?
Praying to God daily, meditating in his word, reaching into my self for guiddance and strength. Surrounding myself around people who believed in me and LOVE ME...
Is your understanding now different from your view of the actual experience at the time?
I am daily seeking understanding, guidance, strength, the ablitity to always seek God for every experience, good or bad because throught him I know he will be with me every step ever momment of my life.
Was there any way to know back then where you would be now?
Yes...God Shows you if you ask. Did I ask No I just asked him to have control of my life, and I allowed him to work through me and I have enjoyed my journey with him. Has it been easy and smooth? No, But I have learned to lean on Gods will not my own.
Where are you now in your spiritual journey?
I am just at the begining of a wonderful chapter of my life, I am beginging a wonderful marriage with God centered in our lives and soon as My husband and I process his visa papers and he can join us in US then we are going to begin the chapters that God has in store for us. I am so eager to work for God to serve him and to please him in all he has written on my heart.
What do you feel?
I feel Blessed to be so close to go. To be able to ask a question and be able to be quit to listen to his answer. Do I like the answer sometimes? No but I know my life is for His purpose not my own.
How do you imagine your own Godwriting™ might change or add to your life? What do you want to happen?
I want God to be able to look at me and tell me I am well and he is proud of his work through me. I want to achieve all he has placed on my heart and see him Smile when I enter the Gates of Heaven.
What questions are in your secret heart to ask?
God knows my bitterness, and he will help me with my secret of my heart. In some since I understand it, but it still hurts, and I'm doing my best to let it go. You can not miss what you never had to begin with.
I'm not perfect and daily I seek Gods grace. Somedays I beg God to bring me home. for I am tired,of all the greed in our nation, working all the time to still struggle, people back stabing me and tearing me down and then always wanting me there to pick up the pieces and I always do. I have God and my husband now I am very thankful for both and our wonderful son. Driss my husband is taking my son as his own and I am so gratetful for God's creation of my husband loving and kindness. We are designed for one another and I am very thankful for God direction and bring us together.
Thank You for allowing me to share a little of my story.
God Bless everyone,
April (Barker) El'Majrab