As a Godwriter, you experience not being able to remember or write down a message from Me from the level on which you received it. You don't step in the exact same stream twice. This experience may tell you that time, as you know time, does not exist. In your terms, it seems you are given a one shot at a specific Heavenletter.
You would think that, in Infinity, specific thoughts of Mine exist Eternally, and that you could always find, not only many received Heavenletters endlessly, yet every single one.
Certainly, you pick up thoughts out of the ether. They are not written down until you write them down, yet We could say that they are always present and ever-present for posterity.
My thoughts are permanent. They are all given and all available, yet My thoughts are something like a catch of fish. You can go to the same fishing spot where the Stream of Infinity flows. I am Stillness and always reachable, yet there is no map of Infinity for you to follow.
Nor are there place cards in Infinity. There are no places to point arrows to.
On any day that you sit to receive My thoughts, at any time of day in the world, you catch what you catch. You take pot luck, as it were. You do not order a rerun of a specific Heavenletter. You receive with an open mind.
Am I purposeful in what Heavenletter you receive? Yes and no. You receive a Heavenletter from the Horse's Mouth. What you receive is what I want you to receive, yet which Heavenletter is not? I offer all My thoughts to you, yet, from your perspective, you are getting a pig in the poke.
I do not sit down with My chin on My hand and ponder which topic or which words I will hand to you. We could say that it is you at this moment who reaches the words I give to you. It is as if you pluck them from a certain branch of a certain tree, the same way you might pluck plums from a plum tree. All the Trees of My Thoughts are available for you to pluck. You grab what you grab.
In the case of Godwriting, We can say that you pluck as far as your hand can reach. You reach up and take the plums your hands reach.
We can say that you receive My words by touch. You do not read my words first and then pick. You may perceive that you pluck by other senses. My thoughts come to you through any of your senses, yet My thoughts come from somewhere far more silent and more powerful.
Often, as right now perhaps, your mind does not intellectually comprehend what I am saying. That's fine. It is not exactly a Tree of Knowledge you pluck from. A way to say this might be to say that you pluck the Fruit of Deeper Knowledge from My Heart.
In any case, ultimately you pluck from My Heart. This brings up the question: Is My Heart the same as Infinity?
Hmm. My Heart of Love contains Infinity, or, if you prefer, you can say that Infinity and Love are inseparable, just as you and I are inseparable.
We can also say that you pluck the beautiful fruit you pluck from within your own heart. My knowledge is no secret. All I know, you also know deep within you where you may not yet dare to go.
My knowledge exists on a deeper level than you are accustomed to. So, where does My Knowledge exist? It exists anywhere and everywhere. This includes within you and within everyone. You haven't gotten used to this depth of knowledge as yet. That doesn't mean it is not available to you. Avail yourself of it.
My Knowledge exists, and My Knowledge is available to you no matter who you think you are. You may hide this knowledge from the purview of your conscious selves. I do not hide it from you. I invite you to find all the Trees in My Garden. Therefore, I do not hide Myself away from you. I hide nothing. I give you everything.
You are all Seers if you would only dare to see, or hear, or touch or sense what I say in any way it may come to you. Open the gates.