You like to be clear on matters. You don't like to be unclear. Even when your clarity reveals what you don't want, something is settled. When you don't know, you feel unsettled. Better a clean slate, even when the outcome may have not been what you wanted. It is good to know where you stand rather than not to know what is going on. People flip coins, pull petals on a daisy in their desire to make a decision and move ahead.
When a decision is pending, too much energy goes into holding up the two corners. When a decision is clear, you can use that energy to get somewhere.
Even little decisions that are pending use up your energy. Even emails you put aside to respond to later hold up your energy. Bills you put down to take care of later consume dribbles of energy.
Of course, ready or not, there are those decisions that life makes for you. At least, you know you are being guided. You are being told to go here, not there, even when you don't know why. You can know that you are on a course, and you are getting somewhere, even when you're unsure, even when you have to turn around.
In life, it is like you are on a hunt. You come to brambly paths that make you turn around. There was no decision to make.
You may come to two beautiful flowered paths, and now the choice isn't as easy. In your hunt, you can stay trying to make a decision forever. At some point, you have to cut yourself loose from one path and take the other. Think of it this way, beloveds, when both paths are good, take one.
Even when you choose a flowered path that does not live up to its promise, what is the loss, beloveds, and what is the gain? Now you may know that real flowers weren't growing on the path you took, and, yet, still, you are further along.
Consider the paths you take, but consider not too long. When you take a long time, you are choosing a third path called hesitation. Hesitation isn't meant to be a path you go on. Hesitation is more like a bench at a bus stop where you sit for a while, and then get up and take the bus.
As when you are visiting in a big city and are not sure whether to go east or west, you choose a direction and find out. You went one way when you could have gone the other. So what, if now you have to turn around and go the other way.
Sometimes you can ask someone for directions. Sometimes they give you good directions, and sometimes they don't. They may not know the road that is right for you to take. You may not know, yet the decision is yours to make, not anyone else's.
Now here is where the question comes: What if you take the incorrect path, and, now, so many years later, you have gone too far astray from the path that you are sure would have been better, what do you do now? No matter how sure you are about this, it is nevertheless a supposition. There are too many unknowns, beloveds. What you can know is that on the path you took, you learned, you gained. Through this forest of life, you may have, after all, traveled the right path.