The triumph of your life is in giving. It is in nothing else. In giving is the essence of love. I do not mean protestations of love. I mean love silent and generous. I mean love from your heart radiating like rays from the sun.
I mean for you to be the lover of the Universe and all that it contains. I ask you to not skimp on love. I ask you to give all your love. How can a heart of love such as yours ever spit fire or hurt or revenge or any pinch of those lesser cramped feelings.
Such feelings can only come from misunderstanding or from a lack of understanding. When you are angry, what have you not understood or misunderstood? I swear to you, despite all the reasons you list, no matter how many, how righteous you are, how put upon you are, your anger is self-inflicted. Ego sees many reasons to take affront, yet you are not ego. You are love. If love were in your shoes, what would love see, and what would love say?
Ego does not make you happy. You know that. Ego squelches your heart of love. It puts your love in a narrow channel, and steps on it there.
Is it not possible for you to choose love over ego? Ego chooses you. We know that. And yet I tell you time and time again that you are love. If you are love, that precludes ego's having a hold over you. It must be that you think you are ego more than you think you are love, or ego would be gone or at least miserably diminished. Let your ego be miserable and raise yourself to the heights of love.
There are those who tell you to love ego. I say to be dispassionate about ego. You have been its prisoner, and now you get away from it. It's not necessary for you to love ego nor is it necessary for you to despise it. Ego is something that offered itself to you with all its bluster and promises of protecting you. Of course, ego trips you instead. Ego agitates you. Ego arms you. And yet you are the chooser or loser of ego. Ego can do as ego does, and love can do as love does.
Do you forget that you are love? You are not a modicum of love. You are love entire. There are no heights of love that you cannot rise to. There is no depth that ego cannot take you to, probably has taken you to. Ego is a great deceiver. He exudes his charm with one hand and stabs you in the gut with the other.
Perhaps you have taken ego to heart. Perhaps you have felt you are to administer to it. I would suggest that you pay as much attention to ego as you do to a fly. Swat it when it gets in your face. Otherwise, don't think about it. Let it go. Let thoughts of ego go. You don't belong to ego, and ego doesn't belong to you. Ego has to depend on you, but you don't have to depend on ego. If you have had a co-dependent relationship with ego, end it now. You have had it long enough.
Ego will sweet-talk you, but you don't have to sweet-talk ego. You don't have to tiptoe around it. You don't have to stand for it. When ego no longer takes you over, you will save your energy and use it to be the love you are. That's so much better than fussing around with all the ire and defense that ego wants you to have. Be egoless. Understand more. Be smart.