This is what I hear your heart saying:
"I learn from God and from life that, as I shine God's light, I see His light and I am lighted by it. I see that God is telling me that as I give, so shall I see. God is telling me that as I give love, so shall I know that I am love.
"And yet I have seen that what I sow and what I reap may well not be identical.
"I gather, I reap, I reap the thought that what I give and what the world gives me are not dependent upon one another. I do not give based on what I gain. I give love based on what I am.
"God's love is good enough for me. What else is there for me to ask for? Of course, I do not have to ask God for His love, for He has done nothing but give me His love abundant.
"And so I ask that I recognize God's love, and that I recognize it everywhere and in everyone. I ask that I recognize God's love in my heart so that I may give it with the fullness of God's love.
"Truly, I am not an issuer of love. God alone is. Only He asks me to assist. He asks me to assist so that I know love. He wants my attention on love, on the giving of it under all circumstances.
"I understand now that my giving love is God's glory given to me. I understand now that I am not the small inadequate person I have thought myself to be. Now I am learning, I am understanding what it means that I was created in God's image. I am beginning to understand what it means to know God's love.
"I know God's love by living it. I know God's love as it pours from His heart into mine out into the world and everyone in it. My love is greater than personal love.
"I see now that I am a vehicle of God's love. I am the realizer of it. It is like God has given me His estate, and now I am the executor of His Will. He lives, yet as executor, I do all that God's Will and Testament suggest I do.
"His Will was simple. It was one word. His Will, in His own handwriting, said, 'Love.' He wrote it in hearts.
"I understand that, as executor of God's Will, I am His heir. I see that all His children are His heirs, and that His Will is in perpetuity. I see that we are all equal in God's love. I see that He made us in His image, and he wants us to make the extant world in His image. I see that He isn't so much interested in our loving Him. He does not need our love, yet we need to love God. He wants us to give our love, which is His, to the world that yearns for love. The world does not always know in entirety where love really comes from nor does it know its rightful share in it. And so God wills us to distribute His love to the world at large and to every individual in the world.
"I don't have to say I give in God's Name, for there is no other love to give save in God's Name. I have God's love to give, and so I give it, no questions asked."