Sometimes you think you are hanging on in life by the skin of your teeth. You don't know why you feel so discontent and so tenuous. At those times, it's all you can do to get through life, to get through even this one day of life. Life is not different really from last week, but, somehow, this week you feel you are walking a tight rope with no net beneath.
You don't know what it is that seems so difficult. All you know is that you feel a hair's breadth from surviving. You don't just mean your physical life. You don't know what you do mean. All you know is that you are hanging on.
When you feel so frail, and life feels so overwhelming, even though you know not why, you are in a good place. You have thought you are in a bad place, an unsafe place. At this time remember that life is not about safety. There has to be more to life than safe or unsafe. You don't really know what you are safe or unsafe from.
Now I shall tell you what's going on, and what it is you are hanging on to for dear life. It is your boundaries, beloved. You may feel that you have been set back when, all the while, you are far ahead. The loss of boundaries is only the loss of boundaries, yet you have become unsettled while the boundaries, like ice bergs, break away. You have wanted to be free, and now that you are on the bank of the river of freedom, you are not so sure. You craved freedom. You yearned for it. You looked forward to it, and now that you are at the brink, you're not so sure that you want to jump off. Come to find out, you may have loved the boundaries. They were your baby blankets, beloveds.
You discover that the boundaries you had disdained were your connection to the world. The boundaries were the chains that kept you locked into space, and now, without recognizing that you are, you are bemoaning the loss of boundaries. Bye, bye, boundaries. Now comes the boundless, and you think you have to hold onto something solid. You were holding on to nothing anyway, beloveds. How solid really do you think the boundaries that held you were? You thought the boundaries were thick ropes when they were only skinny filaments of your thoughts. The bars kept you in place, you felt. The bars bounded you, and yet you knew where you were located.
Now you don't know anything. The ice bergs are breaking away. You sense their moving away from you. You may feel that the breaking up of boundaries leaves you adrift.
You have been in a kiddie pool, and now you find yourself in the Ocean. Honestly, at this point, you feel vague. You feel out of your depth. You miss the sight of the shore even though you had objected to it enough. Ignorance all of a sudden seems like home or at least like a comfortable bed.
And now the bed is gone. The room you were in is gone. Your body may inhabit the same place, yet you have been shaken loose.
It is almost like science fiction. One moment you were playing in the confines of kindergarten, and now you find yourself in high school, and you don't know the name of where you are, and you don't know how you got here. You simply find yourself in another room, a room without walls. The walls of Jericho have fallen down, yet you had leaned on those walls, and you don't see them any longer. This is what is going on with you.
Today, welcome the boundless. Take joy in learning your way around the boundless. Breathe, and take joy.