Gloria:
Dear God, Your answer yesterday about integrity and energy and the waste of it melted me. I do not know how to separate Your wisdom from Your love. Are they the same?
God:
It is wise to love. We could say that wisdom is love from the mind, and love is love from the heart. Love is wisdom, and wisdom is love. So My children grow in wisdom and in love. What else would there be to grow to? My children branch out.
Gloria:
The other day I spent a little time with someone, and I felt he saw me in a way that made me feel limited. I don't know that he was judging, but he saw me in a fractional way, it seems to me. And I realized I'm not used to that anymore.
God:
You are not used to buying it anymore.
Gloria:
At the time I wasn't exactly adoring this person either.
God:
You were feeling his assumptions about you. He had a picture of you and stopped there.
Gloria:
With Heavenletters, there is so much love. Your love and the Heavenreaders'. I've gotten used to feeling valued, and it was strange not to feel it.
God:
And you see the effect that love has on you and the affect that disinterest has on you.
That person looked at you partially. He did not see your wholeness.
Gloria:
But nor did I see his. So what is the difference?
God:
That you know it exists, and he does not. And now you are learning to care about others and not have it matter what they think of you. Another's thoughts belong to them, not to you.
Gloria:
Dear God, remember a while back when Barbara spoke of cleaning her house for You, doing everything for You?
What I am beginning to guess is there is no me to do it for in the first place. Whether I am conscious or not of doing everything for You, everything is for You. That is how loving You and loving myself are the same, for You are my Self.
God:
I am your Self.
Gloria:
Then it feels like I want to experience You, just sit with you. It's like what are words for anyway?
God:
They are not necessary.
Words are like needle and thread, tools used to sew pleats into the hem of My robe.
They are extraneous. My robe is My robe however you fiddle with it.
Words fiddle with Reality.
The truth behind words matters.
The energy behind words matters.
The energy the words are made of expresses itself whatever the words may be.
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Abby to Heavenletters:
A long time ago I mentioned how distant I felt my dad was from me.
I didn't really know where things stood with my dad until about a week after I got back into town for the summer. We went out for pizza and ended up talking about the Bible and God the whole time! I had not previously told him about the Bible study sessions, but he was so intrigued! He wanted to know if I had informed those girls (as he believes I should have) that of course there are still miracles from God — every day of our lives!
I told him, "Dad that's just what I thought! But I didn't say it to them…"
Anyway, discussing God seems to be a terrific way for us to connect. How interesting! I can't believe I didn't think of it before.
Heavenreaders might also enjoy knowing that I have a part-time job with flexible hours working for Lauren! She is wonderful.
God to Abby:
When you and your father speak of Me, there is union. You and your father share the same God. I bring peace to all hearts the same. And when two speak of Me for the pure enjoyment of it, harmony reigns. What can take the place of hearts turned to Me? What can approximate it? I fill your hearts up and you empty them for each other and find your own renewed.
You and your father are learning My omnipresence. All are learning it.
From Tina's journal, June 8, 2000:
Tina to Heavenletters:
I am just tickled by how Heaven is so efficient at coming at me from all sides! I just wrote an email to Diane minutes before reading today's HEAVENletter. I said, "But how can we not value more highly the conversations we have with each other when we have consciously invited and credited God with having a part in our communication?"
Then the next thing I did was to read these words in HEAVEN:
"Just as you clearly have Me in mind when you do Godwriting, have Me clearly in mind when you do anything. When you sit and do nothing."
"Then talk about Me more. Make occasions to talk about Me. Don't compartmentalize Me. Flaunt Me."
I laugh out loud to myself that God is such a playful parent!
I am presently involved with a study group in which we are striving to grasp that we are free to agree, or to disagree and break free from beliefs that were implanted in us. Nothing is imposed from outside. We are continuously creating our personal Heaven, or our personal hell, depending on what we choose to maintain in our beliefs.
And then I read in HEAVEN:
"Any power of anyone over you is illusion. You have accepted that illusion. You are My free child. Even within boundaries, you are free. Even in a prison, you are free. Any limits on you, and you have set them. You have accepted them."
This HEAVEN quote went directly to what was most difficult for me to grasp and integrate. I struggle to accept that my life takes twists and turns which seem unbearable, and at the same time, to believe in my personal freedom and God's overlighting. I am realizing that most of my reading material in the past year seems divinely coordinated in order to drive home the truth that reality is an inside job. It all leads me to realize that, as long as we are conscious of our connection to God's eternal and personal love for us, all is truly well.
This is all that is ever required of me: Just to remember God's presence!