Diane to God:
Dear God, I like what You said to Abby in Your May 10 Heavenletter about love being the magic ingredient in the manifestation of her school choice.
I took a big leap in putting $2000 dollars on my credit card for a family retreat at Omega Institute in New York in July. I felt strongly about going because it would be fun and spiritual and good family time. I decided to trust that the money would manifest in some way, and my hope was that I would have the card paid off by July when we go.
Well, the balance is still close to $2000, and I tend to panic and go into fear when I open bills.
Can You help me in applying the love factor to my situation?
And thank You for all your help in creating my Finding God Workshops.
God to Diane:
You set up a parameter in your mind. The parameter you set was July. And when did your fear start to move in? As the arbitrary parameter you set came closer? My dear Diane, what difference is it really if you pay the bill in July or in August or next December? What difference is it but the difference that you say it is?
By what law is it that you cannot go and have a good time and still owe some money?
You have already succeeded with love energy! You have your reservation at this institute. You are going, aren't you? It IS all taken care of.
Abby's school is not all paid for yet, but the means has been chosen.
You are in the exact same place with Abby but you are looking at the wrong end of the telescope!
You are looking at an unpaid bill rather than at what you are gaining.
My children would accomplish very little if they always honored their fears.
You set up an expectation that you would finish paying off this bill by July. This is a clear example of how expectation is control. You really are paying off this bill with your energy, Diane, but with the energy of your fear rather than love.
Love yourself. Love yourself for incurring a bill. Love yourself for making yourself and your family important enough for a rebuilding holiday.
Consider this a business expense preparatory to Our Finding God workshops. Consider this a duty to go on this holiday. Consider it work. Aha. Consider it work, and do you feel better already?
It may be you have been conditioned to believe money is well-spent on some things but not on others. Perhaps you were conditioned to believe that sums of money all at once are to be spent on heavy-duty things only, that only outright necessities are worthwhile. Your own peace and pleasure were perhaps not considered worthy. To spend money on what might be arduous, that was okay. Even honorable. But money on yourself for joy? Hmm, not honored.
Yes, spend money for this vacation, dear Diane. In another day and age, I would also tell you to go buy a frivolous hat. Spend some money on something that is not practical but renders joy to your heart. You will not go overboard. But once in a while, give yourself a special treat.
Treats are also worthy.
Gloria:
Dear God, Bev said something yesterday, that she sees more and more how it's necessary to look at ourselves the way You look at us.
God:
That means to honor yourself more.
Gloria:
She mentioned a friend who put herself down.
God:
My children are very good at putting themselves down. Not so good at lifting themselves up. There's a tendency to think even that it is honorable to put yourself down and immodest to honor yourself. As though it were impolite to accept that you are My child with all the rights and privileges that go with it.
Not one of My children is a mistake. I do not make mistakes. No one needs to apologize for My work. Do you see how that is the deviousness of ego? The ego leads you to say, in effect: "Look at me! Look at how important I am. I am so insignificant that I am important. I am a topic of discussion. I am someone who needs to be criticized and put down. I will even do it myself."
Better to think:
"I am God's creation. I too am God's creation. God made me. He made me wonderful in His image. Now I will let go of the façade of me. I will think of God more often than I think of myself. I shall think of God's worthiness and less of this lie of my unworthiness. God created me worthy. I will look high rather than low. Who am I to dishonor even one of God's creations? And I am one of His creations. I will honor God, and I will honor myself. I will do God's Will by honoring myself. That is the beginning. That is the least I can do.
"I have really been asking too little of myself. Now I will ask more. I can rise to great heights. I can forward God's Will. I do not have to be this speck in the universe. I can join with God. I can be helpful to Him. All I have to do is know that I am greater than I have been led to believe. I am God's greatness. I will call on God more and on myself less.
"I have been stepping on myself as if I were a cigarette to be put out.
"My light is great because it is God's stored in me, and I will nourish God's light within me.
"I will remember Whose child I am."
Gloria:
Dear God, Bev mentioned that You give hope, and then life may not support that hope.
God:
Yes, I give hope. But hope is a little thing. It doesn't sustain itself. Hope is a promise. I do not give you promises. I give you truth. The truth that you are something worthy, that you are for a reason, and that I pull you to Me with great love. That is not a hope. It is Reality.
The world gives you little hope and little truth. Look not to the world. The world has not valued you.
I have set your value, and it is high.
Believe Me and not the world.