Abby to Heavenletters:
Dear Gloria, I've been quite frazzled these past few days, and things still haven't settled down. There is a slight chance I may still be able to go to the college of my choice, but I don't know yet. Mom's crunching numbers and doing everything she can and so is my dad, which is most helpful.
God's answers have helped me to calm down somewhat and have given me a clear perspective of the whole situation as well as peace of mind.
Tonight I will be meeting with my friends again for Bible study. This is the last meeting we are going to have for this purpose. They feel that it is pointless for us to study the Bible together when they take its word to heart and I do not believe all that it says and am merely reading it for educational purposes, as far as they are concerned. However, as with everything they say, they said it with love and we are not less friends because of it. Still, I enjoy these discussions very much and will miss them.
Whether my friends realize it or not, studying the Bible with them has indeed made me more aware of God, but not in the way they hoped it would. I will tell them that.
Once again, thank You!
God to Abby:
I have to insert Myself here.
Alas, your friends choose not to continue the Bible study with you. Perhaps you do not conform to their concept. And they are afraid of catching yours and losing theirs. It is their privilege to stop for any reason they choose. It is also their loss, would you not say? How can it be pointless to talk about Me, for who can but gain when the subject is God in mutual allowance?
The world goes on no matter.
The world teaches, again and again, that it is I who is for you and with you independent of your performance. Come what may, I am yours. I will never say to you: "Enough of this. Come to My way, or it's pointless to go on."
My very wonderfulness does not give you slack, but it raises you, does it not? You don't think, "Hmm, I can just lie back and it doesn't matter what I do, for God will love me anyway."
You feel rather: "This God. I want to be wonderful for Him. I want to follow His Will. How gladly I wish to reach Him."
For Me, it is never a question of your obliging Me. It is a question of finding yourself and coming to truth and finding the joy that, when all is said and done, is all that there is.
Your life is not dependent upon friends and their ideas. It is not dependent on which college you attend. It is not dependent on your mother or your father, nor is theirs dependent on you, nor anyone's on another.
It is you and I, Abby, you and I all the way. From here to eternity, as the world says. I might say, in eternity. It is you and I in eternity. And here We are.
Feel the peace of Me in your heart. Be not troubled with this wave or that.
Abby to God:
Dear God, it is true. I do not believe it would be pointless to continue these Bible studies. But I can understand why my friends do. And that's okay. I kind of had a feeling it would turn out that way, but I'm glad I gave it a try anyway.
They don't understand what I believe, and that's alright. I'll answer to the best of my ability whatever questions they ask me, but I don't hope to persuade them to my way of thinking.
You have stated exactly my thoughts on this matter (which is no surprise because of course my thoughts came from You): That knowing You will love me no matter what, I only want to do Your will even more, rather than not at all.
Thank You for helping me to understand this!
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Ruth to Heavenletters:
Dear Gloria, God's message yesterday to Tina feels as if it were written directly to me. All my love.