Bev to God:
Dear God, I feel so grateful to have Your presence growing in my life. In many ways I feel my life being transformed. And yet, I am finding so much resistance at work. As a recruiter, I am used to this to some degree. But there has been so much resistance lately that I wonder if I need to look in another direction regarding my job.
I feel confused because my inner and outer life feel so different. I often feel like two separate people, and want so much to have the inner peace that is growing be more apparent in my outer life as well. How do I accomplish this?
Thank you dear God, for your words of wisdom and Truth.
God to Bev:
It sounds like your outer life has to catch up to your inner.
Perhaps it is time to look for other work. Look. See what's out there. See what grabs you. See what opens your heart. Not change for change, but just openness to take a peek at where you might want to move to.
Meanwhile, write down everything you like about your present job. Include what you like about the clients you work with.
I have one question to ask you, dear Beverly. When you make a placement, do you feel in your heart that it is in the best interest of the employee to take the offer you find for him? Best for employer?
It occurs to me that you are uncertain. You are uncertain that at work you are in your full truth.
In one way, it doesn't matter where someone works. This is as true for you as for the people you help. What is important is that you are in your truth.
You want to be in still waters, Beverly. But it seems to be that your present work is at high tide or low tide, and this is hard for you.
When you ask Me questions, you open up possibilities. Inquiring about other work opportunities can do the same: open up possibilities. It is like your asking your environment: What's out there for me? And the environment will perk up its ears and start thinking about you because you have asked it.
It is not a huge undertaking for you to keep an eye out for something else. That is not the same as making a definite statement that you are leaving. But this way you will perhaps be giving yourself choices and therefore helping you to feel freer.
One more thing, do you have the idea that your outer life must be as perfect as your inner? That they must both line up in total bliss? That everything on the outside will be A+?
You are on earth to experience everything. Not just total bliss. Not just perfection. Not just smooth-running flow of happiness. You are to experience snags as well.
Do you always want to drive on the superhighway? Don't you sometimes want to go down a winding road? See something different? Do you really always want to have a full tank? Never need to stop for rest or repairs? Do you always want to stop for your favorite meal at your favorite restaurant? All the time? After a while, neither the restaurant nor the meal is your favorite any longer.
So with life. Your inner hums. Your outer hits bumps. But the outer bumps don't shake your inner. Your inner kind of smiles, shrugs its shoulders, and keeps going. Maybe it has to change a tire every once in a while. Maybe it thinks it's lost now and then and isn't sure how to get back on the main road. But it does again and again.
We come back again to expectation meaning desire to control.
What if your life is exactly what it is supposed to be right now? What if you didn't have to change it? Maybe everything doesn't have to be perfect or exactly right or exactly what you think you want. What if happiness is yours right now? What if you had a photograph of this moment? Wouldn't it be beautiful? If you feel your life always has to be perfect, it will be in a state of imperfection. Consider it perfect right now.
You do not accomplish. I accomplish. Forget about accomplishing.
Think less, dear one. Make things easier for you. Sit in the tub. Demand less of yourself. Let some things go. There is no urgency. There is life. It unfolds now.
Keep on Godwriting. Report back to Me. Keep extending your heart to Me. Trust in Me and yourself. Trust in the vibration of love. Trust in good. Trust in peace and joy. Trust in life.