Lauren to God:
Dear God, when I am at work, I am organized, productive and effective. I accomplish a lot. When I get home, I am the opposite. What is going on?
It is easy for me to get things done at the office. It seems so very difficult to do at home.
I WANT to be organized at home, to be able to find things, to do the things I love without feeling like I should be cleaning and organizing. Help!
God to Lauren:
Hello, dear Lauren, My special daughter.
There is a lack of commitment here to yourself. You give more to others than to yourself. It is easier for you to give to others than to yourself. This is in every avenue of your life.
And We know what that stems from. Non-value of yourself.
It is like you are opposed to organizing around yourself, your personal environment. Disorganized is like limbo for you. It is an I Don't Care statement. It is a kind of thumbing your nose at yourself, and it is also, dear Lauren, a symptom of depression.
You know We are not talking here of occasional or moderate untidiness. We are talking about a general malaise in your home which reveals a comparable malaise in your life. What you create around you in your home is a reflection of your inner state, in this case, your indecision and discontent.
Lauren, despite everything, despite all your beauty, your goodness, strength, and honor, you have either given up on life or you never chose it.
If it were someone else's home you were staying in, it would be easy for you. You would do it out of respect for them. But, ah, it is your own. And you leave things all over where they land because you gave up a long time ago, or never began. You are discouraged.
Because you neglect yourself, you neglect your home. I see neglect, dear Lauren.
You do not have to become a perfectionist housekeeper, but you can take a few minutes each day to honor yourself in your home.
If you had co-workers at your house, you would focus on what needs to be done there. If there were co-workers in your house, you would have the energy and efficiency to keep it nice. But you do not have co-workers at home.
When you are home, you focus on not looking at anything connected with you, but rather on approbation from outside yourself, from internet and telephone friends… You dodge yourself, and you have to dodge around in your environment. It is almost like you strew in order to prove what you see as your worthlessness.
I would love to see you become your best friend. You are such a good friend to others. Be a good friend to My child named Lauren.
You do not judge others. This is one of your remarkable qualities, and it shows how much wisdom and love you possess. I praise you high for this.
And yet you judge yourself. You not only judge yourself, you judge yourself harshly. You toss yourself away, Lauren, as though you are worth no attention at all. You are not any old thing, Lauren.
You have thought that you might have an attention deficit disorder, but that is a random thing. Your attention-deficit is specific and deliberate. The more you crowd your environment, the more you can look away from yourself, and the more you can keep love away from yourself. When you do not love yourself, believe in yourself, care about yourself, honor yourself, attend to yourself, you just stir things around you and not attain.
You are so mistaken about yourself.
Believe Me, dear Lauren, you are the worthy of the worthiest.
It will take you no time at all to straighten your house when you have regard for yourself. The reverse is also true. You will have more regard for yourself when your home is straightened. It will take you no time at all to respect yourself.
That you asked your question now tells Me that you are ready to take your rightful place in the universe.
Shine the world for Me, dear Lauren.
Let your light shine.
Wash your windows.
Polish your house.
Polish your self-image.
Throw away the clutter in your house and heart.
Let Me in.
I mean, really let Me in.
I am waiting at your door.