Gloria to God:
Dear God, I have been feeling so high on You, and then I crashed. I went from an A++++ to a C- or even D.
God:
You think you did. But in truth I am emblazoned within you full-force whatever you think.
Gloria:
Yes, but while the doldrums are going on…
Even after yesterday's Heavenletter about reminders of you, I seemed incapable of thinking of You, God. All I could think of was myself, and I was incapable of loving anyone at all. I snapped at someone yesterday without any regard for them. I wasn't thinking about disregarding their feelings; I just was totally thinking of myself and therefore didn't consider their feelings at all. I realized that I have never loved. I am being truthful, dear God.
God:
The truth is that there is no love but Mine. The individual ego does not love. It may convince itself it does, but if it does at all, it loves aught but itself and what it can get. When you recognize that all love is Mine, you recognize that the most you can do is merely pass on My love. And you don't feel good when you don't pass it on. And that is what happened to you yesterday.
My children are like ladlers of soup. You dip the ladle in, and you dip the ladle out. You fill others' bowls with soup. You cannot pour more into your own bowl. It is already full. So you ladle soup into others' bowls. And that is what you do. That is your day, and that is your life.
How patient is a ladler of soup. There is no hurrying. There is no thoughtlessness. Just patient ladling of soup.
At the beginning of the realization that you are simply a ladler of soup, you have to pay attention to what you are doing. But after a while, it becomes much more simple. You are in the rhythm, and you are an ordinary ladler of soup, ladling an extraordinary soup.
You did not make the soup. You did not put it together. It is not labeled yours. It is labeled Mine.
Pay no mind about yesterday, that you forgot to pour My soup into someone's bowl. Forget about it. Just pay attention today to those whose bowls need replenishing.
You work for Me. That means you work for Me. For Me. It is to Me that you are responsible, not to any other. And because you work for Me, you do not overlook even one of My children. You do not work for yourself any longer. The old Gloria does not even exist. She never did. Pure imagination. Pure drawing in smoke.
Gloria:
Jon told me about Bonnie, a friend of his in California. She discovered that someone was stealing money and jewels from her home, and that it was her cleaning woman doing it. She sat down with her cleaning woman and said something like this: "Everything I have, God has given to me. If He wants someone else to have it, I am glad. I want you to know that it is all right for you to have what you took. What more do you need? Tell me how can I help you."
Bonnie did not fire the cleaning woman. She did not call in the police and so on. Her ego was not involved. She wasn't worried about being taken advantage of. She was neutral. She was pure love.
The cleaning woman returned everything to Bonnie, and I am sure that they are both friends for life.
I thought that was beautiful, but I could never be like that, God. Maybe with children, I could, but not with adults. I feel myself bristling just at the thought of someone stealing from me. Even though I know I don't own anything, and that all is Yours, dear God.
God:
You cannot be like that until you are like that.
Pretense at that would only be pretense.
Look at who you are, and not who you are not.
Do not compare yourself.
Be who you are where you are.
Simply ladle soup where you stand now.
Mother Divine:
Gloria, you can always ask God in any situation: "God, what do You want me to do here?" You're not asking what is the best thing to do or even what is the right thing to do, but: "God, what do You want me to do?" Be specific. Pin God down.
Gloria:
Mother Divine, could it ever be the right thing to do to call in the police?
Mother Divine:
It is better to stop thinking in terms of right and wrong. Think more in terms of the next step? What comes next?
You have to live your life as best you're able and not someone else's.
God:
Some people have disabled bodies, so if they asked God how to get somewhere, the answer they get might be different from someone's who can run.
Mother Divine:
Yes.
Gloria:
How many of us have disabled hearts and minds. And so God's answers to us might be different?
Mother Divine:
God's answer is always love.
You will hear answers according to where you are. God's love will always bring you a notch higher. God is always bringing you closer to Him. Know that, and you won't worry so much about what you do or don't do. Put your attention on our God, our loving God, and leave all to Him. Let your hand be held in His. Let your eyes follow His. Let your heart melt in His. God can enable any heart. Put your faith in God and not in yourself, and see what turns life takes.
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Barbara to Gloria:
Dear Gloria, there is no one here judging Heaven's web site! We all have the desire that the web site be completed, because then Heaven letters will reach so many more hearts and the healing and joy can spread that much farther. Any web site design will do. The main thing is to establish a way people can access Heaven more readily.
Don't let your fears of doing it "wrong" or "not as perfect as God would do it Himself" or, whatever your version of STOPPING has been.
Now is the time to really surrender. We all are behind you. You are already doing so much, Gloria. We know you can do anything. You go girl! Just do it! Listen to God!
Karen to Gloria:
About what to include on the web page, ask the Heaven readers — they are the ones with answers! They will tell all. Let them know they can tell us what we need here. They are Heaven.