Jon to Gloria:
My dear Gloria, Merry Christmas!
Just a short note to thank you for Heavenletters.
Everyday I look forward to reading God's heart and his tender expressions of truth and love. Heavenletters has brought to me such love, joy, wisdom and guidance. Knowing how God thinks and how He unconditionally loves me has such a huge impact on my life and my relationship with HIM.
Two weeks ago I wrote and asked God a question about my relationship with my wife. It not only described the relationship between us to a T, God's answer also lovingly described exactly each of our personalities. My wife was astonished.
Immediately upon reading God's response, I felt a huge release of unwanted baggage off my shoulders and my heart. This is allowing me to experience each moment with my wife as it is and not how I want it to be. I am learning that letting go of expectation and control is allowing me to see my wife for who she is and to love her for that rather than to love her based on my expectations or concepts.
I am beginning to see my wife as an expression of God and His/Her love, and this is continually openning up my heart and desire to love her more. Rather than resist the situtations that show up from time to time, I simply put attention on my heart center and ask God for His Love and Guidance. Many times His response is for me to "just BE." "Let the situation unfold naturally and just observe." What a huge difference this has been.
I am so grateful, appreciative and thankful for all of God's blessings. I feel so taken care of… Wherever I go, whatever I do, I now know that God and I are walking hand and hand, heart to heart…
Thank you, Gloria, for your committment to Heavenletters, and I wish you and all of the Heavenreaders a Merry Christmas and God's Joy and Love in this and every moment.
Thank you, dear Gloria. I love you.
Your friend and admirer, Jon
God to Jon:
This is very good for you, Jon. You are rolling in love for Me. And you proclaim it. You are sharing My blessings. I bless you and do indeed walk hand and heart with you.
Lauren to God:
Dear God, I love You, it is very important to me to live my life in a way that serves You. At the same time, I do not want to sit around being 'spiritual'. I want to live — have passion and adventure and excitement in my life. I want to make lots of money and travel and fall in love. Should Your love be enough, be all I need? Should these things not be important to me?
God to Lauren:
Lauren, you want to know why you crave earth's enjoyments more than the treasures of Heaven.
I will take care of this. I will take care of you. You will come to acknowledge Me in your deepest heart and not feel as though there are two directions, and that you must favor one over the other.
When did I tell you to give up enjoyment on earth? I never said to make a trade, one for the other. I want to give you joy on earth. And I don't tell you to sit around being spiritual!
Here's the thing. Here's what you don't want to accept. Until you have joy in yourself and regard for yourself and your connection to Me, your earth life cannot give you the rewards you crave.
Earth life does not give them to you. I give them to you.
I give you your self-worth. You have ignored your self-worth.
And thus you deny My value to you.
And you have separated yourself.
Consider yourself a magnet. A self-evolving magnet, a magnet that attracts equal to what it feels about itself. What the magnet vibrates is the vibration it will attract to itself.
How you treat yourself is how the world treats you. How the world treats you is how you treat yourself.
You want to be valued more by the men in your life, for example. Is this not true? You want true love and consideration.
You have to value yourself more for that to happen.
Lack of perceived value brings you lack of perceived value.
You trudge up the same hill again and again, and you blame the hill.
How much value can you have for yourself when you see yourself as a body and mind all by themselves? You will attract men to yourself who have no more value for themselves than you have for yourself. No matter how loving you are, and how much love you think you give, you are asking for love. You are needing love. You look for it from this man or that, from this job or that, from this purchase or that, and all the time you can have all the love that exists. It is Mine. I give it to you. But you have to receive it.
And that is how much or little you value yourself, Lauren. How much of My love you accept. How much of My love can you accept when you deny Our deep connection? Denying Me is the same as denying yourself. You somehow think you are going to do it all yourself, even that you must do it all yourself.
Trying to do it by yourself is selfish. Seeking love from other mortals is selfish, Lauren, dear, I have to tell you. You have thought that giving so much of yourself to others was unselfish, but that is how you sought to find your value, or prove it to yourself. Your strewing yourself before others was self-centered strewing. You thought that if you gave so much to others, they would give so much to you.
Is it possible that I could love you, and you could love Me? I do not ask you to spend all your time with Me. I do not ask you to toss aside the world. My child, I want to give you the world, and not crumbs of it.
Accepting My love and loving yourself are the same.
Pause a moment.
Come to silence.
Find Me within, not knowledge of Me, but Me.
Come to My heart where I treasure you.
If I am too much for you to accept right now, at least accept that I find you worthy.
Lauren, what if you did know My great love for you, what would you do differently in your life? Would you give yourself more time and attention than you presently do? If you valued yourself as I do, would you give all of yourself away as you have been and then be hurt by what is not returned to you? That is a pattern in your life. Do you see it?
You say you enjoy relative life more than you enjoy the spiritual.
The truth is: you are enjoying neither, My love.
You have some enjoyment, but that is not the same as to say enjoying life.
Most of what you enjoy are diversions from your truth.
You have many friends. You have many good friends. But they alone cannot fulfill your heart. You don't have to make room in your heart for Me. The space is already there, howling for Me, Lauren.
Ask Me to help you find Me.
And I will.
And I will also tell you to love yourself, and that loving yourself is unselfish.
When you love yourself, you will not use others. When you let others use you, you are using them.
I did not create you for pain.
I did not create you to have lack.
I created you for Me. Fulfill Me with happiness, not sadness.
Let habits go. You don't need them. Let Me, not habit, run your life.
Honor yourself, and all else will follow. Honoring yourself is letting Me in.
Let Me in. Talk to Me. Confide in Me. And listen to Me, for I am your Best Friend. I will bring you all you desire. Let Me bring you joy.
Tina to Gloria:
Dear Gloria,
Robert and I are in contact with each other on a regular basis and always have been.
In the beginning of our relationship, we spent half a year becoming closest friends and spiritual seekers together before we became lovers and then husband and wife. Through all the struggles (and divorce) we have had over our differing levels of commitment, with my insistence that such close friends and lovers should move ahead into the realm of being family (especially when my two children were involved), we have always retained the close friendship that was the basis of our relationship. He still cares deeply about my children.
Since all the information from God through you, I realize that I am released from my vows. I realize that Robert never was my life mate. I understand that I should cool it with pouring out my heart to him and reaching across the miles obsessively with my focus on pulling a happy ending out of the hat.
When he let me know that I'm not welcome to spend the winter with him again this year, he expressed his desire that we remain loving friends. I share that desire. So, I can't figure where "final goodbyes" would come into it.
We have an extremely deep and mutual caring for each other as friends who have been pouring out our deepest doubts and fears and hopes, high's and low's, to each other — learning to expose the vulnerable aspects of ourselves to one another.
That is why this whole thing is so difficult and so confusing for me. Even though the "'til death do us part" aspect was a fantasy on my part that has always been uncomfortable for Robert (he can sense an expectation coming even on a casual social level and will run as if it were the plague), this has been the deepest and most soul-searching, heart-opening, significant relationship of my lifetime so far.
Believe me, Gloria, there are aspects that went deeper than mere fantasy.
Thanks for all your time with me and God on this.
I have to get off Jim's computer now. He needs the phone line.
Gloria to Tina:
Dear Tina, you were married to Robert. How could I ever think it was all fantasy? I am so sorry if I gave you that impression. Please forgive me.
God to Tina:
You are doing much better, aren't you?
It is hard to let go of a past love.
Your deepest most significant relationship is with Me, Tina, not Robert.
You have confusion, and you let Robert confuse you.
One moment he is irate that you presume to think he is connected to you and your children beyond the use of his horse, and the next he wants to share his intimate thoughts with you. He pushes and pulls. And you are pushed and pulled.
You take words very seriously, dear Tina, My beloved.
I will not push you, dear Tina. I will only pull you to greater happiness.