Kerry to Gloria:
Dear Gloria, HEAVEN speaks to my Heart each and every day! I am so grateful to greet the day with Heavenletters.then I have all day to savor them.
When I received my reply from God on December 5th, after a week of wrestling with my ego, I was and am humbled and full of gladness.
When God said, "I talk straight to you and will toughen you up. You may feel I am being strict", I felt such Love pouring through along with the wisdom of the ages. New vistas of thought and feeling opened before me, and I felt strong and full of purpose and Love. The message and prayer could not have come at a better time.
Kerry to God:
Dearest God, yesterday, after I received your Heavenletter, I went to Church. It was not an ordinary day. This day we were bidding goodbye to our beloved Minister, Ed, as he goes on to his higher purpose…There was much emotion and so much LOVE! This process of letting go has been going on for weeks…I feel I have come full circle and am able to let him go without feeling like the loss is a death…Thank You, God! I am exhausted from all of the emotion!
Within all of the spinning and whirling of Love spilling out yesterday, I felt like my ego was dying and, along with that, I was finding difficulty in expressing myself verbally. When I was asked to pray out loud, I was overcome with such sweetness, I could barely get a whisper of gratitude out. I haven't felt the need to write in my journal, and am feeling generally MUTE…
Two friends said something wonderfully sweet to me. One said, "You are being Love. I can FEEL it from you"…The other friend said "Just BE, Kerry, it becomes you".
Dearest God, these words touched me so much and brought me back to Your letter when You said: "You were taught that worthiness comes from certain achievements, that there is some certain way you have to perform and be. Kerry must always be positive and loving. The irony is that you genuinely are, Kerry, without any effort on your part, but it isn't just the way you think. You are also allowed to love yourself."
When it came time for me to say my final goodbye to my minister, we embraced and then simply looked in each other's eyes for a long time…No words!
What a lesson came from all of this! And, God, if this was "toughening up" I will take several more doses!
I Love You with all my Heart.
God to Kerry:
Kerry, you are learning well.
Now, when you said you were exhausted from all the emotion, did you mean all the emotion prior to My message? In any case, emotion that drains is of ego. BIG LOVE is from ego. BIG LOVE is attachment. Is this Tough Lesson #2 for you?
Christ loved without emotion. His heart was full. The shining of his full heart renewed him. He was so full of My love that he could only reflect it. My love within him renewed the world. His effortless shining of My love renewed the world.
Love is not a whipping of emotion, do you understand?
It is not what you say or what you feel or what you do.
Love is an easing.
Love is a letting go.
No strain, no drain.
I am not saying that you are to avoid feeling. Not at all. To deny feeling is an effort. But just know that you don't have to have Grand Feeling.
Be in love, not at it. To be in love is being love. Love is what is left when effort is gone.
Neutrality is not a withdrawal. It is not an avoidance. It is a state of being. It is a state of pure love. It is a state of freedom.
Neutrality cannot be attained any more than love can be attained. It is allowed. And your awareness will begin to allow it.
We are talking here of honest neutrality, not a stab at it or an appearance of it.
Honest neutrality is absence of control and therefore of ego.
Kerry, ask yourself every once in a while, "Am I trying? Am I reaching? Am I spending too much of myself?" If the answer is yes, return to yourself all you have been spending. Return to yourself. Return to being. Just plain be. Be who you are.
When you spend too much of yourself, you are trying. And trying is control.
This message, like all others, is not for you alone. Oh, no. It is for Gloria as well. It is for everyone who reads it. It is also for those who do not read it. Truth is for all.
Gloria:
Dear God, we are so used to doing. But what do we DO when we aspire to be more in tune with Your Will?
God:
Listen and be.
Receive.
Accept.
We are not making you something you are not. We are encouraging you to be who you already are.
You have learned much in your life. Most of it incorrect. What you have learned, you can unlearn.
You certainly have learned that you have to earn everything. I tell you, "Not so."
Or I could say that you earn with honesty.
You earn by breathing.
You earn by virtue of your birth.
You earn because I give.
You earn because you live.
You are not on earth to earn.
You are on earth to live in My light.
For that, you do nothing.
That's where you start.
Your life on earth is not a performance.
It is not a doing.
It is an undoing.
It is an undoing of effort.
How do you fly?
Certainly not with effort but effortlessly.
Effort is contradictory.
Effort keeps you where you are and doesn't let you go.
Neutral lets you go anywhere, everywhere.
No ropes nor ribbons that keep you in tow.
Don't dress up for Me.
Let down your hair.
Let impressions of yourself go.
Be alone with truth.
Be all you can be by being nothing at all, which is to say, to be a whisper of Me.
Discard ego, and what is left?
Discard the properties of ego.
What is left?
Purity.
Pure love.
Love.
You and I.
We.