Gloria to Heavenreaders:
Dear Friends, yesterday in the wee hours of the morning I was plagued with overwhelming doubts about my health and about money, and I wrote to Karen who has no doubts, and I laid it all out. You know the sort of thing: I should do something about health and money, like worry and DO something.
Although I know that fear is not of God, I was immersed in fear. At the time I wrote that email, it was logical. Reading it over is embarrassing. It was a classic yucky outpouring of faithlessness, so frantic and worrisome and skittery that it is not worthy of being called darkness of the soul.
Although I will ask God in a minute, first I want to share with you what Karen said. If we — you and I — are all "in this" together, then I must share her golden words. They started to align me with God again.
What follows is almost word for word what Karen wrote in five consecutive emails.
But, first, in my email to her, I told her that old story about a faithful man during a flood. He prayed to God, and he knew that God would help him. When the man's first floor was flooded, someone in a canoe invited him into it. The man said: "No, God will take care of me." He's on the second floor, and another boat comes, and the same thing. Finally he's on the rooftop, and a helicopter comes. And the man says: "No, God will take care of me." And the man drowns.
When he gets together with God in Heaven, he says to God: "I prayed to You. I had faith in You. How come you didn't save me?"
And God said: "For Heaven's sakes, I sent you two boats and a helicopter!"
Karen to Gloria:
So you tell me a story that doesn't even vibrate with God! Why? Because God can send help, but, to me, the man was to go home to heaven. I know it is just a story, but you can see, humans put their own doubts in everything …Hmmmmmmmmmm…
So you stop it and ask God to teach you faith and to surrender this. Remember, I told you that you will have times you will experience this? This is it! And truth I can't help you! Why? Because it is your test of Faith! Do it. Ask. What do you have to lose? Not your life. Why? Because God won't take you until you learn lessons. People don't die from illness. They die because it is their time.
Sounds to me that is what you are confused on. People choose when they die only if they commit suicide. But, you see, people that get ill always grow in spirit and learn too. This is why illness exists. So you are allowed to keep this blood pressure, if you really want it. But why?
What does it do for you? You rely on it? It's a friend? Does it help you pay rent? What it does is stay there 'til you accept faith.
Gloria, I am an avid prayerer, God talker, believer. I live in the vibration. I have been healed of all vibrations. I broke all the bones in my body in a car accident. The doctors said I would not have the use of my arms. And I knew Christ would heal me.
People do not know the real truth of love the source — Christ — Jesus, God, Mother Divine/Mary. And I am here to tell you that I personally have experienced the real movement through my life experiences in all ways. And only a being can want it themselves. That is what it takes.
People do not realize that we can be happy and free all the time in every way of our lives. But they have to ask! They have to believe they are worth this love, that they are part of it!
Society does not understand that the Creator is the healer too. How simple is that! If we were created by this love, why can't it heal us? Why wouldn't you try?
Look at me, Gloria. Hear me. Vibrate to what I am telling you. I am of Christ — mind, body, soul — and I accept all of this. And that is what makes me free of all types of these things. We all have to learn and experience.
Now I am telling you — stop avoiding! That is your control. How much longer do you intend to play this game with your own self? And what for? Something to do?
Surrender it all to God and know and believe that it is real.
Do you believe that the sun will shine every day?
Do you believe that the air we breathe always is here for us at all times? Do you believe in you? Isn't this the real question — if you believe in yourself? It is the same as believing in God.
I will yell and scream from the roof tops til I move on the real truth, and the truth is all that I accept in all levels of my life. This is the truth of God!
Now you asked for it, didn't you? Telling me such a silly story — that is not God's real story, ya know — and it isn't funny enough to me. Why? Because I do love you. But you have to love yourself more, enough to see that it is real that God heals.
I always tell you the blessed truth. When you bring things to my attention, such as your blessed beingness, I do yell at you! Why? Cause I see you wandering and looking everywhere but to the Source. What the heck are you doing?
Now let me tell you: This will be the turning point of your life, because you are showing yourself the real truth of God. Now I know why you tell me. And I do love you, silly hammer head. But stop this!
Worries of money — that is your father's. I see it — the blood pressure — is your father's.
It has nothing to do with the present situation, I swear to you! So are you willing? Ready? Able?
Save money. Go to God. Hahahaah!
Save time. Go to God. Haahahah!
Be in the truth. Go to God.
Lie down in your bed and look up in the ceiling straight to God, and tell God you are ready to surrender it. You are being in control of this thing, plus the money thing. How can God take care of you if you're busy owning it yourself! Stop it!
As you lie there looking into God, tell God you are ready to surrender your father's energies. This is what all this is. And you do not need them any more.
You will be very emotional. And fear— It is your dad's. I swear to you and more, trust that God will take your emotions. Tell God, "Please take all these emotions. I want pure love. God, take these health issues. I don't want them anymore. God, I want to vibrate with You at all times. God, release it all from me. I am Yours."
Now if you are desperate, then we must talk on the phone, so later I will check email to see if you have returned to yourself. Because God has healed you. By the way, it all can be healed today. I see it.
I said it all can be healed today! Are you willing to be free? Are you willing to stop controlling? Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm…
Ok, I will check back here soon.
But please look at this truth.
You can be happy and free and save bucks doing it. We don't need vitamins and all like that. Just trust in God, enjoy yourself and more. Hahahahahhaah!
And, yes, we are doing a lot of healing today. This could be why you are stuck sitting there. Ahahaha! There is more, but I read your email and got too wild. I have to yell at you. Can you feel me yelling at you? Because I am not fooling.
For God's sake, what is wrong with this world? Hahaahah! We have it all and we avoid it. And God's love is magic. We do not have to suffer ever. Only in lesson. Plus, let me tell you, I have suffered more than some of these others, because that was part of the deal of experience— All the people I have hurt — blah — so when others tell me things, I think, what the heck, get a grip on it and let it go. Anyways, love you. Hahahahaha!
Hahahah fun today! Ahahhaha!
Touch the magic energy from that spot I told you about. It will charge you to the max! Haahahha! You'll see. But, yes, you do surprise me sometimes. Why?
Because God is everything and made it all, so why be like others and believe the earth way? What for? Why waste your love and turn it into doubt of the world? This is what blows my mind, ya know. Of you and anyone! We have it all. We never have to go anywhere; we don't even have to leave the house! Why? God is in and of everything. So stop this, I say, because it is programming coming out of you.
A person doesn't have to be obsessed with God. Nooooo, just say, "Hi how are You?" Talk, share, communicate it all. Have you ever said, "Gee God, I have this silly blood pressure thing and why? It sure gets in the way of my life. Gee God, I don't want it anymore. Hmmmmmmmmmm…"
Now, that is easy isn't it? Obviously not to too many people.
I talk to so many people and I must tell them a thousand times, it is God healing you! Ask God! Ask God! And they still ask me, so I say, hey, what did I just tell you? Ask God! So there you go on that.
But if God heals me, why wouldn't he heal you?
There you go!
Be cool and get a grip is my advice…Hahahaahah!
Gloria:
Well, dear God, what do You say?
God:
Amen.
Gloria:
As I read Karen's words, I feel so strong. Then when I stop reading them, I get wavery again. The same when I read what You say. Oh, I'm so together until I'm just me again.
God:
Don't stop reading words of truth then. Don't stop associating with Me. Keep Me with you every moment, and My strength will be yours. Don't watch commercials on TV that teach you fear. It comes down to: Whom are you going to listen to? Well, Who are you?
Gloria:
You.
God:
What advice will you follow, that of ignorance and fear, or that of wisdom and love?
Gloria:
Dear God, please remove all programming from me. Please remove all my fears and old ways of thinking. Please take all these emotions. I want to be pure love. God, take these health and money issues. I don't want them anymore. God, I want to vibrate with You at all times. God, please release it all from me. I choose You.
God:
I will do that.
Gloria:
God, I believe that if one is highly-evolved enough, they don't need vitamins and such, but it is hard for me to believe that I don't need them or that most of us don't need them.
God:
When you shed fear, you will be highly-evolved enough.
Gloria:
Dear God, I despair, that I can be without fear and worry altogether for long without slipping back.
God:
You can be whatever you want.
Gloria:
I gathered from Karen that I have been avoiding faith which is to say faith and love in myself and therefore You, that I have instead embraced fear and non-love of myself.
God:
Stop honoring fear. Honor Me.
When Christ said to the Romans, "Give unto Caesar what is Caesar's. Give unto God what is God's" — that is what I am saying to you now. It is a choice you make. Choose Caesar's fear or God's love.
Give Me your heart. Give me your doubting mind to straighten out. And give Me to the world so fear will be a thing forgotten, and not Me.