Diane, whose response and question to God is printed below, is the mother of six children. While Diane was carrying her youngest child and only daughter, Molly, the umbilical cord was somehow constricted, and Molly was able to receive only about half of the oxygen and nutrients meant for her. She is a bright three-year old, speaks well, is a delight, but her muscular development is hampered to the extent that she cannot lift her head. Diane continues her dialogue with God here. — Gloria
Diane to God:
Dear God, the letting go of responsibility for Molly and giving it to You is a miracle!
I am more at peace with her than I have ever been, and she is blossoming. She has been very healthy after a short week of bronchitis. Her surgery went very well. She seems more independent.
I compare this to the letting go that happens when a couple adopts a child after trying a long time to conceive, and then they very soon conceive.
It seems that, when I gave up trying so hard to make everything okay for Molly and trusted that she and I were both in good hands, then everything became okay (even when it did not meet my expectations).
It is the surrender, the letting go that is the key?
God to Diane:
Dear Beloved Diane, when you release control, nature can do its thing. Releasing is noninterference. With the release of control, more positivity and less fear emanate from you, and little Molly radiates your positivity. She feels you have more confidence in her.
You have more confidence in Me, Diane, and, therefore, the mechanics of life fall more into place. Your sweet sensitivity and love are shown in your releasing life to life.
I am proud of you, Diane. Proud isn't exactly the word, but it comes close. I am happy and uplifted. I am well-pleased.
You and Molly are great workers for Heaven.
My love surrounds you.
Gloria to God:
Dear God, would You please talk more about letting go of control?
God:
When My children release their hold, they are less selfish. Control is selfish.
Releasing is a giving, an offering.
My children suffer much from selfishness.
You know I do not advocate self-sacrifice or selfless giving, that virtuous giving for the sake of virtue.
At the same time, one does not have to slavishly be thinking of himself alone and not thinking of others.
Surrender is neither selfish nor unselfish. It is surrender.
Perhaps it is selfishness that is surrendered.
Another way to say selfishness is small-thinking. Unselfish is bigger thinking. Selfish is narrow short-sighted vision. Unselfish opens up to a world of possibilities.
I do not say this for My children to self-consciously be thinking: Is this thought selfish or unselfish? But once in a while, have the thought to go beyond your self-limits into a bigger field.
Now I also want to say that selfishness can be a step to unselfishness. Unselfishness is not denial.
Lauren had a lot of self-denial. When she asked her question of Me yesterday, she clearly acknowledged that she wanted to clear things up with her father for herself, for herself.
With that acknowledgement, in voicing without denying her frustration, she stepped up into a wider view.
Lauren's story is also miracle. From her strong need to assert herself came a beautifying release. In truth, not in pretense, she no longer has to set things straight.
Lauren learned she does not have to be selfish or unselfish in order to have her place in the universe.
Release takes selfishness out with it.
When you ask yourself what is your purpose in action, that is another way to take you from your small self to a greater horizon.
Gloria:
Lauren said something the other day about her staying up late so she's too exhausted to feel, like who wants to lie in bed with their thoughts?
God:
Lauren, turn that around. Say, "I will go to bed early so I can stop a while and feel my feelings."
Your feelings have purpose. Acknowledge them as you did your feelings about your father. The feelings you fear will retreat.
Gloria:
I seem to rely on my feelings so much.
God:
Your feelings signal you to look at something.
There is a difference between emotions and truth.
Listen to your truth, and your emotion will fall away.
Mother Divine:
Emotions come and go. Truth stays. Truth is the essence of God.
Your emotion called love is often need and attachment rather than love.
Love is not emotional.
You do not need great emotion in order to live.
Emotions run around.
Love and truth stand still.
They are.
Emotions are the waves, and love is the ocean.
Here's the beautiful thing: No matter what the waves of emotion, love and truth underlie them!
Love and truth never get rocked. Only the surface waves do.
This awareness can give you great confidence.
The God in you is never shaken, disturbed, removed.
There is an inviolable core of you that connects you to Heaven and all its treasures.
That Heaven is based within you.
If you really knew that, your whole world would change overnight.
Outside appearances are only outside appearances.
Put your hand over your heart, and feel God there.
Whenever you forget and get caught in turmoil, put your hand over your heart. You will remember Who resides there.
And God likes to be remembered. His purpose in wanting to be remembered is so that you may know His love.
His love is a grand sweep of the light that lights the sun and lights your heart.
God's love swirls in your heart.
Let it shine out and brighten a world that thinks it's sad.
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About Jessica's question: Jessica, whose response follows, recently asked about the low pay for working with children that made her talented loving sister leave the coaching job she loved, and where she was very much loved, and Jessica wished our country could get its priorities right.
Jessica to God:
God, I'm slightly perplexed. I would assume that since we have had conversations while I meditated in my room that You would know exactly who, where, and why I was writing You. I am struggling with acceptance in my life, as You well know, and therefore this injustice that I see occurring in my sister's life irritates me. Yes, I know that if my energy is released from the outcome of this situation that all will be well. I also know that the painful and unpleasant events in our lives are all positive in that they move us forward and through a blockage.
Since writing this letter I have realized that this will only bring her dream of having her own residential home closer to her reality. In hindsight I know that we will note this as a turning point and cross roads. I just wish that we could get our collective priorities in order down here on Earth.
I very much agree with your later comment about focus. I do believe that there are two sides to every story and that it all depends on who is reading the tea leaves as to which side you witness. I know that we will move through this into a higher purpose. I thank You for Your response.
God to Jessica:
Dear Jessica, it is not for Me that I ask you to amplify your questions. It is for the other Heavenreaders who do not know you. Your questions and My answers are not for yourself alone. It is a question of your embracing other Heavenreaders and blessing them with knowing you and understanding where you are coming from.
Do you think I have forgotten you by asking you to say more? You know I have not. I will never forget you, who you are, and where you are, and what you want and what you ask and what you tell Me, and what you don't even know to ask, dear Jessica.
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Gloria to Heavenreaders:
Update on Lauren: Lauren felt, while writing her feelings and her questions the day before yesterday, that God did something to ease her heart right then. After reading His answer printed yesterday, she stopped feeling that she had to write her letter to her father, or that she had to anything. She felt much more neutral. She also said that God is the Father everyone would want.