The following section on Margaret is taken from her own Godwriting:
Margaret to God:
Dearest Heavenly Father, please help me overcome my fear of acknowledging my desires. Also, in my Godwriting and in life, I seem to resist using terms of affection.
God:
Dearest Margaret, you do not need to fear your desires. I will not strike you with lightning to teach you a lesson or snatch away some prize to show you. Desires are spotlights on your needs. Examine your desires. See what underlies them. What needs nourishing? What needs nurturing? Bring it out in the sunlight where it can be warmed and cherished. Sometimes that's all it takes.
Embrace it, love it, heal it, like the way to deal with litterers. If you can relinquish your judgement about litterers, can't you give your own heartfelt desires a break, dear one?
Now, about terms of endearment. You, Margaret, don't use them much in everyday speech. In fact you are famous for your down-to-earth style. But you love it when I shower you with love, and when others do as well. So let's let that flavor soak through; let's favor that flavor in the Godwriting, dear angel, so it can imbue and overflow into your life.
Margaret:
Thank You, dearest Lord.
My other question today is on judgment and self-righteousness. I've noticed so much more lately how judgmental and self-righteous I am, in the most insignificant matters as well as in so-called big stuff. That's why Mother Divine's soothing, loving, peaceful, accepting, healing response to Lila about the litterers was so beautiful to me.
What can I do to release my deeply-rooted judgments about people and ideas? Even though I, myself, am divorced, I still tend to immediately assume someone was in the wrong when I hear of a divorce.
Even my yearnings for and about my son — who is in a detention center — all feel judgmental. What behavior, dear Lord, can I take up to push out these judgmental tendencies?
God:
Dear Margaret, for starters, dear one, you can just notice or witness that a judgment is being made or implied. No need to immediately crush it out. Just notice it. Put it away for later, and go on without evaluating whether it was right or wrong, just that it must have to wait a while.
Later, if you remember it, consider not whether it was right or wrong or which side you ought to choose but rather: Was it a useful thought?
Will making that determination help you to meet a situation? Are you sure you really have all the facts, every single one you would need to make that evaluation? Mostly you'll decide your thought isn't useful.
But sometimes you'll be overwhelmed with an inner insistence on seeing a situation a certain way, even though you know, not being Me, that you don't honor it all. Yet something is stored in you, despite your intellectual decision not to take a side.
Then you must fall lovingly into yourself.
What has been stirred? What button pushed? Is there something you can do for yourself now that will soothe that old hurt? Heal an old injury? Fill in a small hole? Now you can look at your judgmentalness and self-righteousness with appreciation and love too.
Just like desires, your judgments can help you find parts of yourself that need attention. Feed the mewing kitten!
Gloria to Heavenreaders:
While Margaret was writing her questions to God, she was here with me, and I also asked God about some of the things Margaret had mentioned.
Gloria to God:
Dear God, how is it possible that Margaret doesn't feel worthy? And what is this about not wanting to have specific desires?
God:
Margaret feels unworthy because that is how she was taught as a young child, because that that is how her parents felt about themselves, because sense of unworthiness is endemic in the world, and the general milieu tells you you need to buy this or that and spend money in order to be worthy.
But in one instant, I can erase that sense of unworthiness. Even if I am the only one telling you that you are worthy, I am stronger than the whole civilization. What I say is stronger because I know and speak truth.
Margaret is My little buttercup. She is My little button. She is a note on My guitar, and I love the notes I play.
About desires, wants come of their own. They are not manufactured. To press them back is denial. Have your wants.
If Margaret wants a popsicle, does she weigh her want? Is it better to have a fudgicle or a popsicle? Or should she want this flavor or that?
Do not repress your desires. Have them. Enjoy them. Flaunt them. Just don't be attached to them.
Strew your desires like flower petals. Have a good time with them.
Be desireful.
Margaret, why not desire a husband if that is what you desire?
And why not desire a happy life for your son and daughter?
Why not desire wealth?
Is it only all right to desire health — or is that off the list as well?
Desire desires. Life is much more fun with desires, fulfilled or unfulfilled.
Picture the fruition of your desires.
And, yes, desire Me, Margaret. Desire Me. That is a desire We know will be fulfilled. It is impossible for it not to be fulfilled. I fulfill it now.
Margaret, idle with Me as you let Me answer your questions. Do not be efficient. Be lazy and inefficient. We are lazing on the beach, you and I, and We have all day to talk. I have no schedule. All My time is yours. All My heart is yours. And you are Mine, you darling poser of questions.
This morning…
Gloria:
Dear God, why would someone think wanting is less than desirable?
God:
History of sense of unworthiness becomes a sense of: "I don't deserve to desire. My desires will be frustrated anyway."
To get off that thinking, get on to thinking about all the desires you have had that are fulfilled. There are many. For each person who reads this, there are many. Focus on those.
Getting back to Margaret's reluctance to desire, she pounced on something she read to back her premise that "wants" leave you wanting.
You want a good husband, Margaret. Picture it. Feel it. What do you make for supper? How do you greet him at the door when he comes home? Start to get the sense of these things.
When desires are fulfilled, it is easy.
Some desires are fulfilled before you even know you had the desire.
When you no longer desire, you have given up. Desires keep hope alive. I recommend them.
There may come a time in life when you feel all your desires have been fulfilled. You've been everywhere and done everything.
Your desire for Me, not only stands out — it stands alone.
From that comes fulfillment of other's desires. You feel an aching desire to fill the populace's needs to love themselves.
Do you not see that that was what Christ did?
He helped people love themselves.
A kind word and a clear-seeing eye go a long way.
Lifting a heart is easy.
Christ did not erase himself. He was what he was. Things were clear to him.
He sought what he sought. He gave what he gave. He was who he was.
He gave up nothing. He was the human man, and he had stepped into My Will and found his great happiness.
I am saying that there are layers of desire and layers of happiness. Desire to grow, but do not try to jump-start to another layer, because then you are playing a role.
It comes back to: it's all right to be who are and desire your desires.
A child desires all the marbles, all the trucks, all the candy. As his desires are fulfilled or not fulfilled, he leaves them behind and grows to new desires.
The mechanism for fulfillment of all desires is the same.
Be sure it is your true desire and not one imposed on you.
Enjoy the desire, and let go of it, and let Me work it out.
Gloria:
God, like when someone is looking for work, you don't mean that they shouldn't look for work?
God:
It is best when they can enjoy the desire and the reaching for it. Yes, they need to look for work, but to do it with trust in Me.
Desire for work is not always a true desire. The true desire may be not to work, and yet you are obliged.
In that case, desire that your view of work change.
You cannot make it change. But you can desire to feel differently about it, and you will find that you do.
The same with marriages when they seem sour. Desire that you view your marriage differently.
This applies to everything.
This desire for change in perception removes you from judgment, particularly your judgment against yourself.