Margaret to God:
Dearest Almighty, in an earlier Heavenletter, You told me to "make Margaret-in-love" my objective. Funny, I guess it's no coincidence that I had already been dimly aware that that was a direction in which I should flow.
I'm my best self when I'm in love; probably everyone is. I'm more tolerant, more patient, more direct, certainly more loving to everyone, not just my lover. When I'm in love with someone, I'm more in love with everyone, including myself and You.
Margaret-in-love seems an infinitely full vessel, has plenty enough to give and is never conflicted about when and where and how to give it. Margaret-in-love knows she's fine just the way she is, foibles and all. Margaret-in-love has more resilience, more appreciation, better judgment, is more real, kinder. Margaret-in-love can even keep her mouth shut! So, there's no quarrel with the idea of "Margaret-in-love" from me.
When I did let go of my son J. and gave that burden over to You, I felt so light, almost giddy. Then I had this tiny sprout of a realization: I felt that way because I was trusting You to handle my dear son, to love him, and to love and handle me, too.
The bombshell: surrendering to You is the same as being in love, isn't it?! I get it! What an off-the-charts excellent idea! To be grounded in that "in-love" is the foundation we need for everything else to be a joy, to be able to engage in other in-love's without losing ourselves, as you were telling Nancy.
Well, that's what I want, big time.
Of course, I also want a human love, but first, dear God, please help me get to that state of love with You in a solid, steady way.
We never think of falling in love as something we have to work at, but it's a little different with You, since you aren't available to our senses in the same way. So I guess what I'm asking of You is: please help me to allow myself to keep loving and trusting You; please help me to be open to being aware of You in many forms every day.
And thank You for everything You have already ushered into my heart.
And I have a question:
Would You please clarify the value of asking You for what we want and of surrendering to You? You already know what we want better even than we do, so it certainly isn't necessary to inform You of it.
For myself, I guess I've had a tendency to wriggle out of surrendering to You by reasoning that You knew what I wanted and would provide it without being asked if it were Your will.
There's something a little off in that point of view, I know, but I can't quite put my finger on what it is.
And why do I insist on wriggling out of surrender, anyway? Probably the act of surrender makes us more receptive, so we'll at least be open to what You offer. I guess otherwise You would be casting pearls before swine, is that it?
Thank You, dear God, for all Your glorious dazzle. Please grant us the courage to behold You.
God to Margaret:
Hello, Friend, My Margaret-in-Love.
It is not that you work at loving Me. Simply be aware of Me, as you said. Turn your attention to Me. Let Me see you.
Loving Me is the most natural thing in the world. Allow yourself to love Me. Give yourself permission. Give Me that gift of your love. We trade love. We trade in love. That is Our stock-in-trade.
Love is our precious connection.
Let love bloom. Foster it. Be inclined to it. And let it do its own thing.
Perhaps loving Me is noticing My love for you. Perhaps it is the same thing. Whose love is it?
About loving another human being as a human woman loves a human man, I know what you mean, dear Margaret, but it's not that you want a human love. You want to love.
You said you want to love Me in My many forms. Yes, love Me. Be Margaret-in-love-with Margaret, for you are one of My many forms.
The way it has been is that another outside you kindles your feelings of love and your sense of self-worth.
Now, let that love come from inside you and go out. To Margaret-in-love-with-Margaret, Margaret-in-love-with God, I say, let the love already present in you alight and rest on others. An available man will come who has your vibration of love, and your vibrations will ring. It is not that you set his love in motion, or he, yours. Your love is already in motion and meets itself!
In the same vein, surrender to Me is not work. Removing the obstacles to your surrender isn't work either when you just drop them.
Surrender to Me is being in truth. It is meeting My eyes. It is throwing away illusion. It is letting My love flow to you in the open.
Why would someone resist asking Me for help? When you used to feel, "God should know what I want, and He can just do it without My asking," is it possible that that was a way of your calling the shots? I do not say it was, and I do not say that if that were so, that it's bad; I say it causes delay.
Yes, asking Me is a surrender. It is a decision, if not a commitment. Knowing that there is One to ask is in itself a surrender.
Even in regular life, My Margaret-in-love-with-Me, there is a difference in doing something for someone when they ask or when they don't. When someone asks, they are in readiness to receive.
Your asking Gloria when the next Ask God Workshop is a surrender. There is a difference between your asking her when and her calling you to tell you when. Your request makes you an agent in your own life. Your request is a form of surrender, and it is surrender to yourself, Margaret.
The act of asking also makes clearer to you what you want.
Asking is a readiness.
When you do not ask Me, and I give to you, then you are like a tray carried around.
Margaret, even a fish has to open his mouth before taking the bait!
Just let Me be in your heart where I am.
Consider Me a boat that bobbles there. I am quite content.
Consider your heart a locket with My picture in it, and you take a look at Me often.
Consider that We are connected by a golden cord of such luminosity and strength that no lifetime, no event, no circumstance, no calamity, no darkness, no fear, no anything can break it or dim its light.
Whatever love you give to whomever, you are giving it to Me. You are merely dipping a ladle in the love I gave you and offering Me some, or giving a tug to the golden connection that is Ours.
In direct response to your asking Me to grant you the courage to behold Me, it takes no courage unless, of course, you fear Me.
Ask that you behold Me, and My answer is: Yes. In fact, it is done.
"God, may I behold You?" — Done.
"God, may my heart be open to You?" — Done.
"God, will You help me move closer to You?" — Done.
"God, will You guide me to Your Will?" — Done.
"God, will you help me overcome all my imaginary boundaries?" — Done.
"God, will You take care of the world?" — Done.
"God, will You open my eyes and heart more and more?" — Done.
"God, will You help me dissolve every last thread of resistance to my love for You?" — Done.
"God, will You help me know my trust in You so that it is never shaken?" — Done.
The only thing you have to know, dear Margaret-of-love, is that I AM and that you are, and you are to ask Me your true desires. I may give you more than you ask. I may give you different, but that I will give unto you — of that you can be sure.
One more thing for Me to add. Your soul may desire something deeply that is in contradiction to what you are conscious of desiring. You likely are not aware of silent soul contracts you have made. You may think that fulfillment of a certain desire will bring you happiness, whereas someday you will be glad that that desire was not fulfilled, even though you cried your heart out at the time.
In closing, I have not forgotten your dear son, Margaret, and he is in My constant care, as are you, as are all.
Now I smile on you and welcome you to the outreaches of Heaven.