Gloria to God:
Dear God in Heaven, yesterday I received an email from an old friend and client in California. I will call him W. W. is a man of great pride whose surface expression often masks his sweetness and sensitivity.
His letter, however, had no veneer to it. He was totally humble. He has been out of work five months, searching vigorously, doing everything "right", and getting nowhere, and he is admittedly in pain.
I would like to ask You on W.'s behalf, what is going on, and where does he go from here?
God:
W. feels knocked down. All that he has put his trust in has failed him. He has put his trust in the wrong places, or, I should say, put his trust inaccurately.
When life seemingly knocks you down, you have no choice but to turn to Me. It is time that W. be humbled, for he has been arrogant.
Man has to come to the point where he knows nothing, and then he turns his trust and faith to Me where they belong.
Let W. take a break from struggle. Instead of scurrying, instead of asking mere mortals to help him, let him ask Me.
W. runs rampant on the surface of life.
Let him sink a moment into Me. The world is not truly run by governments and corporations and business trends and statistics.
W., put not your faith in numbers.
Put your faith on your heart.
Lose your defenses.
Forget yourself for a little while and do some anonymous kindnesses.
Gloria and I know what a truly kind and generous person you are. Use that side of yourself. Let it come to the front.
Let your analysis of events fly out the window. Cease to look for explanations. Cease insisting that you be on top of things. Be the innocent child of God who turns his face to Me and says:
"Dear God, Almighty Father, I thought I knew everything, all the why's and wherefore's. I thought I had it all figured out, and now I know my calculations were off. They were not based in You.
"I remove all my defenses of authorship of my life, and I respectfully and gratefully ask You, my Father, to help me, Your son, for I am lost.
"Will You lead me? Will You take me to a gentle pool of Your love where I may gain nourishment of the soul? where I may sink into Your love, and know my worth rather than pretending it?
"Help me to be honest and not to figure angles. Help me to soften my words and manner and be another simple loving man looking for work.
"I throw away any conceits I have and I replace them with love of You. And for Your awareness of me, I thank You. And for my awareness of You, I also thank You."
And I, God, say to you, W.:
Let go of all your pride. It is false. You do not have to be paid what your field is supposed to be worth. And you do not need to be insulted by that. Nothing is coming to you, but all is given.
Remember to talk less, think of the other person more; let him talk. (Write to Gloria when you must make your arguments and fine tuning and resolution of your thoughts.)
Expect nothing of others. Expect yourself to nourish others silently. Do not expect yourself to be right. There is nothing you have to be.
The attitude you give forth has not been helpful to your job search.
Even in your letters, however appropriate the words, your powerful ego is conveyed, your demands for justice and your reluctance to be pleased proclaimed.
Practice being pleased, W., and ask Me for help every inch of the way. And then let the help be. The help you receive does not have to be the help you proscribe. Let it be the help I give.
Begin to know your worth. A job offer does not make you any more worthy than a turn-down makes you less.
Will you be My son and listen to your Father, or must you know the answers?
Know you are My beloved. Let your hungry heart soak in My love. Look to Me, for I am your Source of employment.
Be not ego-based. Be God-based. Be proud to be My son, and come with Me. Don't be stubborn, dear son. Let go of the past and your preconceived ideas. They are nothing. Let them go.
I am Everything. Hold on to Me. Open your heart to Me, and others will open their hearts to you. That is truly what you want, dear W. And I tell you you can have it.
Start with opening your heart to yourself, and begin to love yourself as I love you.
There is nothing you have to prove to Me. There is nothing you have to prove to yourself. Surely, then, there is nothing you have to prove to the world.
You were proven the day you were born, dear W.
Now is to enjoy. Enjoy even job search. Do God search.