Nancy L. to Gloria:
Dear Gloria, I reread Lauren's question to God, and I really liked what God had to say.
I never wrote to Leslie because I didn't want her to commit suicide. I don't know her, but I do love her and I don't want her to be in pain anymore either. Maybe it was for selfish reasons that I didn't want her to die. If she left us, we would still have to be here going through what we are all going through, and it would weaken my resolve to figure everything out for myself.
I want to know how she is doing.
I have a stepson who tried to commit suicide, and there was some divine intervention, and I am so glad that he was not successful. Surely there are others who know Leslie that would miss her and who love her more than I.
But please ask her to report back to us because she is in our prayers and on our minds —
God to Nancy:
Before you go on with your questions for Me, I stop here to say a few things about your beautiful letter above.
What I want to say first is that all letters are to Me.
Do you understand what I just said?
Everything you say and do is to Me.
You want to know that Leslie is well. And you want to know that I am. You know I am, but you want to hear it again.
I do not know whether Leslie will write back or not. I do know she is doing much better, but she wants to pull her privacy back like a cloak around her. Leslie does not live alone any more in the universe than you do, Nancy. Nothing is hidden. Everything is revealed. Privacy is a myth, and one that attempts to conjure control.
Leslie has given everyone a good example of how interconnected My children are. Each one uplifts or pulls down another. And, yet, each learns from the another. And what is learning but remembering? In that way, there is only pulling up.
And so Leslie has blessed you all with great remembering.
Nancy, you made an important statement: "If she left us, we would still have to be here going through what we are all going through, and it would weaken my resolve to figure everything out for myself."
This statement alone could produce a year's worth of Heavenletters!
What is it you are going through? Please tell us. And you do speak for everyone, dear Nancy. How brave of you.
What do you mean about figuring everything out for yourself and your resolve being weakened? Tell more.
You will get some surprising answers when you ask yourself these questions. Honesty surprises.
But before you ask yourself, back away from figuring everything out and turn resolve into vision.
And now We will enter into your written questions.
Nancy to Gloria:
I want to ask God what is His Will for my life.
I have been reading Heavenletters for quite a while now, and I realize that He does not ask us to sacrifice, but I have a fear of turning my life over to God, or living His Will. I guess I should address God myself.
God:
Yes. Addressing Me directly is like looking into My eyes, and letting Me look into yours. And My Will is always that you have joy.
Nancy to God:
Dear God, why am I resisting turning my life over to You? I believe that if I lived Your Will, everything would become much easier for me. I want that. I don't want to struggle anymore. I want life to be easy and fun. Of course, I do have some fun, but I want more joy in my life. What am I afraid of? How do I get to the more joy?
I look forward to Your answer.
God to Nancy:
My beloved Nancy, the answer to your question is that you are a human being. It is not you who resists Me. It is the ego within you. Ego is not always brave-seeming. Ego is cowardly. It cultures fear in you so that it can keep its own pretension to existence.
The ego's fear dominates. Isn't that strange? Fear, which is nothing, seems stronger than love which is everything?
Looking to My Will is easy, Nancy. It is just looking at what always was. It is just looking.
That looking will dissolve fear. If not dissolve, help you dismiss it. You will disregard fear. You will go on as if it did not exist. You will pay it no mind.
You will pay Me your mind.
This surrender to Me — this feared surrender to Me — is not an act, dear Nancy. It is not a big thing. It is where you look.
Let Us imagine that you are running away from something. Fear chases you, and you keep looking back at it. The very looking back slows you down.
Look toward Me. That is all. Keep your eye on Me. You will move faster. You will move ahead.
Fear always keeps My children back.
I move you forward.
And you do want to go forward.
It takes less energy to go forward than to stay where you are. Holding back is costly in terms of energy. Planting your feet and keeping them where they are costs energy.
Flying is easier.
Surrender is nothing but letting go of your fears.
You don't have to sword with your fears.
You don't have to make a big pronouncement of changes in your life.
Simply turn toward Me and away from your fear thoughts. Many of your ideas are shackled with fear, Nancy. Let your love for Me leave no room for your fears. Laugh at them.
Don't figure anything out, Nancy. Let Me figure. Let Me boost you. Let Me guide you.
I will not order you. I will guide you. I will take you by the hand like a lover and lead you to Heaven. I never mislead, dear Nancy. In Me you can trust.